finally, I decided to stop contact with my ex, after knowing that she already had someone that made her over the moon. we broke up around December last year, i asked for a breakup. and its funny, since i rarely open a facebook, i just knew that made a post about breaking up around June, which is six months before i asked for a breakup.when she was with me, she had a history of contacting her ex and meeting her crush from dating apps before she was with me. that's why i chose to close any contact with her recently, i'm afraid of ruining someone's relationship.when we broke up, she still wanted to keep in contact, i said yes. and yes, for a few times we still met, went to the cinema, having some brunch together. even we go to a hair salon together.i don't feel sad or regretful or anything before deciding to close any contact, but now there is a weird feeling. idk why i'm sad. knowing she's like an entirely different person now. back then, when she was with me, she was not into having kids. and i kinda agree with that. cause we made a list of what we wanted if we gonna married. it makes me surprised, cause i just knew that she made a post on reddit about this new guy, and there is a word about "having great stories for the kids" from this guy and she seems into it.in our relationship, yes we tried to share a place for almost a year, and we shared many things together. even when she's got covid, i'm the one taking care. not gonna lie a few times i asked for a breakup, but it never happened. because every time i asked, she cried and gave me a hug. and i fell for it, and i always tried to make things work after that. also, in the last 6 months of our relationship, i didn't feel her affection at all, and it felt like she was not putting any effort into making things work as i did. and i always ask her if is there something wrong, but no, i see no effort to make things work anymore. maybe i expecting too much. that is like the last straw that made me ask for a breakup.i feel betrayed, honestly. all things that i did back then seem like really mean nothing. i never half-ass about this relationship. and i feel all words from her are just lies cause shes only want company from me.her family is such a mess, her parents are divorced, she's got a bratty niece, also her underage niece is already pregnant. i was always there, always feeling okay for her family. always fine about our differences. and i always defend her when my family talks negatively about her.and for now, i'm not sad about what she does now with a new guy, i'm sad knowing that i waste all my time and my affection for her. i hope whoever ends up with her can bear with her, she deserves nice things in her life.