The Laughing Heart with Errol Strider
A Palpable God: Spiritual Longing, Human Need, and the Search for a Divine Presence We Can Feel
Errol Strider presents and begins unpacking his poem “A Palpable God,” exploring the human desire for a God who feels immediate, intimate, and real amid anxiety, loneliness, financial pressure, depression, unmet desire, stale assumptions, spiritual doubt, and the search for authentic transformation.
“A Palpable God” and the Desire for Tangible Divinity
The poem opens with a request for a God who can be felt directly rather than merely understood through doctrine, ritual, or theology. Its startling language about wanting to snuggle with, tickle, or fondle God is humorous, but Strider explains that it expresses a serious longing for a divine presence that enters the body, emotions, and ordinary pressures of life. The central question is why anxiety, pain, loneliness, disappointment, and financial pressure often feel more immediate than the benevolent power people are asked to trust.
The Squeeze Between Desire and Actuality
Strider identifies “the squeeze” as the divided consciousness created by the gap between what people say they want, what they believe they have, what they actually pursue, and the life they imagine would finally fulfill them. He argues that this inner split produces anxiety and dissatisfaction by keeping people suspended between appearance and truth, gratitude and grievance, and present reality and imagined completion. In his interpretation, palpable spirituality would help heal this division rather than merely offer reassuring concepts.
“Fill Me Up, Gody” as a Human Prayer
The poem’s recurring refrain, “Fill me up, Gody,” becomes what Strider calls the prayer beneath many human pursuits. He says people seek something that will settle restlessness, fill emotional emptiness, and assure them that they are loved and that their lives matter. The rest of the poem examines the substitutes people reach for when spiritual reality does not feel present enough.
Molten Yearning and the Search for Identity
The poem then asks for a “get-down God” who enters real life rather than remaining distant from it. Strider describes “molten yearning” as the restless human desire to know who we are, where we came from, where we are going, and what might finally make us whole. He says this uncertainty often drives people toward inherited religion, political ideologies, cultural promises, and old assumptions about themselves and the world.
Stale Assumptions and Authentic Spirituality
Strider challenges listeners to examine whether the beliefs guiding their lives are alive and personally experienced or merely familiar ideas inherited from others. The poem compares those assumptions to vehicles that promise direction but leave the traveler stranded at nowhere. Authentic spirituality, in his view, begins by asking whether one’s beliefs have actually been tested through experience.
Depression, Tenderness, and “Sourdough Satisfaction”
The poem asks for a God whose hand can be held and who can transform depression into jubilance, or at least provide a little “sourdough satisfaction.” Strider interprets this as a modest and practical spiritual request rather than a demand for permanent enlightenment. He suggests that spiritual nourishment may appear through beauty, kindness, a deep breath, a listening person, or the realization that life has not finished with us.
Transformation Through the Body and Heart
The poem next asks for a no-nonsense God capable of saturating the heart, stirring the blood, and moving through the body. Strider says this section expresses the desire to escape weariness, limitation, and old patterns, but he distinguishes genuine transformation from simple escape. Authentic spirituality, he argues, helps people see through the illusions that keep an exhausted identity in place.
Seductive Illusions and False Sources of Fulfillment
The poem portrays illusions as attractive, opulent, and tempting even while they conceal quicksand and rancid water. Strider says these illusions may take the form of possessions, social status, romance, political victory, religious certainty, or the promise that one more achievement will finally create security. The danger is not that illusions are always obviously foolish, but that they can appear deeply desirable.
God in Others and the Expansion of Spiritual Awareness
Because the program is limited to a half hour, Strider stops midway through the poem and announces that the second half will be explored in a future episode. He closes with two “wisdom nuggets”: spiritual arrival is less about discovering God within oneself than recognizing God in others, and spiritual growth makes people increasingly inclusive of what appears to exist outside themselves while deepening their connection to the spirit within.