There is something happening in me. My suspicion is it’s happening in you, and all over this planet right now.
My best understanding of what is happening is that a new church is emerging, coming into being. That this vision of the New Jerusalem from Revelation — the one so many of us have been reading and holding for so many generations — is manifesting in a more real way, perhaps, than ever before.
If I had grown up in a different religious tradition, perhaps I would have a different image to explain what is occurring right now. But this is mine. This is the tradition I have received. It best reflects the experience I’m having right now and that I’m witnessing in others. If you’re reading this, if you’re tuning in to what I’m sharing, chances are pretty high that this is an image that resonates with you as well — and perhaps an experience you are also having.
I want to name that this Sunday morning. I just got off a call with the community in Kenya that I collaborate with. We had our global New Church prayer circle and our celebration of June 19th, which comes this Friday — which marks for us in the New Church tradition the beginning emergence of this new church back in the 1700s. Over these last few hundred years, my take is that that emergence has been picking up speed, and is perhaps at the fastest, most fever-pitched moment it has ever been — right now, inside of us and throughout our communities.
Let me try to articulate the evidence for this, as I’m experiencing it.
My sense of who I am is quickly shifting. The identity I’ve carried for 49 years, the ego structure I have carried, is being revealed to me. The limiting ideas and perspectives about who I can be, about what I believe is possible — the limitations I have carried for much of my life — are being exposed. They’re being lifted up and put in my face for me to feel and experience. And I am moving through deep waves of grief, rage, and fear.
All of these feelings are moving through me. My best sense is that they have been trapped, over the decades of my life, within this ego structure that is now showing itself, revealing itself — perhaps hopefully to be dissolved and transformed. And this process of dissolution and transformation is what this new church is all about. This idea that we are here to be reborn spiritually, to be changed, to be transformed. That transformation includes a healing process — the process of moving through and transforming our egoic structures so that something new can open up. Possibilities of actual heavenly experiences here on earth. Experiences of community and flow and connection that are not possible when we only live within that older egoic structure.
I must confess: this dissolution process is not fun at all.
And I see so many humans all around the planet going through it — seeing themselves, seeing their habits, and starting to suspect that there might be something beyond a constricted identity. Something beyond what they have always known. Many people, through many different modalities and processes and experiences, are going through this dissolution and recreation. I am right in the thick of it. I have been in the thick of it.
To be alive right now, I think, is to be in the thick of it. And to be okay with that. To be okay with being in process. That is, in my sense, part of what it is to step into the new church — to honor and recognize that we are in process, that we are being grown by God, that we are being changed and transformed. And that’s a good thing. It’s a good thing to be in this flow of love and transformation and messiness. There is something sacred in that.
When I look out at the world, I see many people in the same place I am: being dissolved, being reformed, seeing themselves more deeply, in the thick and the mess of it. Sometimes despairing, sometimes full of ecstasy. Being humbled, while also coming to recognize their divinity and their gifts and their callings.
And then there is a certain portion of the population that is doubling down on that egoic structure. My sense is that they are terrified to step into that messy place, and so they are standing firm in the ego they have inherited, come hell or high water — and parading around in those egos in a way that, for the rest of us, appears more ridiculous than ever before. For those of us in the mess, in the reality of this humbling process, we can see right through them. It’s like the emperor with no clothes. Because those of us who have stepped into this ego dissolution are seeing beyond our own egos — and so it becomes quite easy to see beyond the egos of others.
It’s scary sometimes. We’re still in process, still caught in fear and survival. Many of those who are holding tightly to their egoic structures are doing so because they occupy positions of power, and they have money and resources on this material plane. They see the benefit of holding on. And so we can find it ridiculous and still feel the fear — because in many ways they do continue to hold power and authority over this material plane.
And yet on a spiritual level — and when I say spiritual, I am not talking about wispy powerlessness — on the most real level, on the actual ground of our being, the power really lies with those of us who are in this process of transformation. Because we’re getting down to what is real. And what is real is not this material plane. It’s not this egoic plane. It’s not this long history of stories that have set us apart from one another and caused so much harm, so much violence and disparity and cruelty.
Those of us in this process of dissolution are getting back to what is real. We’re getting back to the truth that is so apparent — and yet all of these systems of separation have been shielding us from it, holding back this truth, trying to hold the power. And the truth is this: we are all beloved children of God, of divinity. We all come from one source of life. And that source of life is in each of us equally. We all have a kingdom within — a connection to this source of love and truth and life. That is where the real joy of life comes from. And that connection has power. It has power to change us. It is what is doing this transformation that so many of us are experiencing. This powerful force, this divine source, is living through all of us. And it is orchestrating this grand, disillusioning time that we’re in.
Those who are parading around with their big egos and their power and their money, their prestige, their privilege — eventually, and it’s not going to take very long — we’re going to start to see through that. We are seeing through that. More and more of us are going to see through that, and we’re going to start to look to new forms of leadership, new forms of life, fueled by reality, fueled by this real love that is pouring through every single person on this planet right now. En masse.
I gathered this morning with the people of the New Church in Kenya, and there were many more gathered this June 19th than last year. There’s something moving all over this globe. And as every single person wakes up to their divine birthright and starts to recognize that this is where true power lives — not in these parading egoic forms, not outside of ourselves, but inside of us and between us — the new church is descending. It is coming into being.
This New Jerusalem that we were promised so many thousands of years ago has been coming — and it is coming. It is coming in this inner experience and process of transformation and regeneration. If you are going through it, friend, we are one.
It feels like a very individual journey. I have certainly felt, over these last five years, that I am so different from most other people, and that it is so hard to talk about and so hard to find community — because it is this internal process that we do have to go through largely on our own. But at the same time, I’m quite certain I am not the only one going through it. Many of us are. And I believe we are starting to come to a place of being able to find each other again, and to speak to this process.
For me, as a minister in the New Church, as a member of a community that has for many decades been proclaiming that this New Jerusalem is coming into being — that this promise of life that Jesus showed us so many thousands of years ago, this divine human life that he walked and witnessed to, is an invitation for us to follow — I receive that as a calling. To bring the divinity of our own lives out into the world and to live from there: fully, completely, devotedly. That is what is going to bring power and transformation into this world. That is what is going to knit new communities of peace and connection.
And it’s happening, friends.
I witnessed it this morning with my friends in Kenya. I’m witnessing it in relationships and conversations and connections happening within the New Church community and with new people I am meeting and connecting with. And if you’re reading this and feeling this transformation in you — just know that I’m with you.
I pray and hope that my work with the Helen Keller Spiritual Life Collaborative can help make more room in the world for us to be on this regenerative journey together, and to knit new forms of New Church life that can nurture new generations of beings on this planet to live in a new way.
More than the words here, I hope you are receiving the feeling beneath them. Something in me, deep within, connects to something in you. I am learning to trust that. The source of these words is that. Words can mix things up, can get us off track. But this heart of being — I don’t think it can be misinterpreted.
So from my heart to yours, friends: happy Sunday, happy June 19th. May you continue to trust this new life that is emerging — inside, through us, together.
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