A-All 4 Nothin....
(Verse 1:)
Yo, I wake up almost every day and for a split
second, forget; til I remember, and then its hits
I'm fucking 30 and I never even did
any of the shit that
99% of men have did...
I'm a motherfuckin junkie with a gift--card,
trying to trade it so I can get a fix
I've been broken since I was a little kid
Father abandoned me before we even met
I was made to soak up addiction
I collected all of them, mint condition
I've been to rehab, been to prison
I'm a criminal, man - and I HATE it.
If it wasn't drugs, it was women I dated,
jobs I can't have cause I'm hated
One night I'm on-stage,
Year later: in a cage
Locked up, watching all MY homies on a Much' Playlist
I'm a bad - I'm a bad scene,
White rapper, still the black-black-black sheep
A shadow from the past;
I'm a bastard: I could be YOUR dad's half-breed
Ask me if I'm a coward? I'm a fool...
'cause far as I'm concerned,
flying from the highest tower seems about the bravest thing that someone who's feeling powerless could do
That's how it really feel
Yeah, that's how it really feel to be a ghost
Everybody walking through you
You can't judge me
Not until you take a look at what you've done to me and let me do it to YOU
Mirror-mirror: yeah, Jody: fuck you, too
No surprise, it was in my eyes, you knew;
Don't believe me?
Think I'm bluffin?
Think I'm lying?
I'ma tie a noose tight, and stream it live on YouTube...
(CHORUS:)
Wanna see what Hell is like...?
I'm all fucked-up, might need some help tonight (Hey...hey)
Fuck it...I'ma kill myself tonight
I'm not being dramatic,
man, I've just had it with this helpless life...
and it was all for nothin, I know that
All for nothin, I'm played out
All that weight? I can't hold that...
Demons calling my name out (Hey...hey...)
It was all for nothin - all for nothin baby
It was all for nothin - all for nothin baby
(Verse 2:)
It was all for nothin,
I got no thanks
Preach appreciation and got no thanks
A little bit ago
Stark starlight indigo
I'll make an indie go the whole way
Fuck your daughters...
Jack(your)sons: call him O'Shea
Call him "O'shit, I better bring an A-game"
DNA, Nemesis
An enemy had better be a wordplay-mate
I became the most selfish person
I'm next to fall...far-far from perfect
I can write the bars and record the songs
but the rest of my life just wasn't workin
Shit wasn't worth it, I know it
Give me one more chance, and I'll blow it
I'm a monster-rappin' cracka,
conscious-backpackin' hitchhiking-ass poet.
(I'm a--) I'm a fuckup
I would rather fight than be a sucka,
But now there's no buffer
I'm earning no cheddar
No cream, no butter, no bread,
so give me some, or shut the fuck up
I'm out of my mind in this
Clock is ticking, I ain't got time for this
Forget daily--I'm talkin' bout an 'hourly' grind in this
so me and mine can survive and shit
I can't provide if I get fired
before I'm even hired 'cause they found out I got a record
I don't mean the kind where they say "Check it--"
I mean the kind where you get no respect,
'cause your past is checkered
And credit?
What the fuck's credit?
I never had it, I'll never get it
Never mattered to anyways, that's where my head is
Show me to the nearest grave: that's where I'm headed
Dead it....(dead it....)
(CHORUS:)
Wanna see what Hell is like...?
I'm all fucked-up, might need some help tonight (Hey...hey)
Fuck it...I'ma kill myself tonight
I'm not being dramatic,
man, I've just had it with this helpless life...
and it was all for nothin, I know that
All for nothin, I'm played out
All that weight? I can't hold that...
Demons calling my name out (Hey...hey...)
It was all for nothin - all for nothin baby
It was all for nothin - all for nothin baby
