Episode 045 of Living in Response feels like a gentle shifting into whatever is coming next. Thanks for joining me on the spiritual journey called life <3

Living in Response is unedited, unfiltered, and largely unplanned. It’s more documentation than outcome and will continue to unfold as I do!

Topics Covered in This Episode:Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ Letting Go of Future OverwhelmI share how I’ve been overcommitting—signing up for programs and certifications from a place of mental pressure, not presence. When I finally surrendered the future and decided to just be here now, something shifted.

2️⃣ Non-Refundable LessonsFor the first time, I signed up for programs I can’t get refunds for—and it’s teaching me something deeper. It’s not just about money. It’s about releasing the pattern of chasing solutions and being okay with what is.

3️⃣ Changing My Mind (Again)I talk about canceling my Yoga Nidra teacher training after realizing I was doing it more from obligation than joy. My desire to serve is evolving—and I’m learning to discern what’s truly aligned.

4️⃣ Asking for Help, Receiving SupportI reflect on a recent conversation with my partner and how I’m learning that I don’t have to process everything alone. Sometimes, we just need a gentle mirror and a safe nudge toward our truth.

5️⃣ Spiritual Crisis, AgainI revisit the recent spiritual spiral I went through and how seeking grounding through nature, psychic guidance, and honest conversations brought me back to myself. Support matters.

6️⃣ The Podcast as ProcessingThis space is a stream-of-life, not just consciousness. I speak to process, and that process becomes insight. Sometimes I only understand what I’m feeling once I say it out loud.

7️⃣ Guides & Gentle SynchronicitiesI continue softening into the possibility that I have guides. I share a few small synchronicities that felt like subtle support. I don’t expect them to hand me answers—but I do believe they walk with me.

8️⃣ Grounding Through NatureThe medicine of earth, sand, and presence keeps showing up. When things get cosmic or overwhelming, I return to the body, to stillness, to the earth beneath me.

9️⃣ Reconnecting with Ancestral LineageAs I explore Ram Dass’ teachings, I’m also being pulled toward learning more about my own indigenous roots—from Mexico and the Andean region. I want to connect with my lineage in a way that’s loving, intentional, and deeply respectful.

🔟 Decolonizing the Body & MindI reflect on reading Decolonizing the Body and how the concept of colonization—once triggering—has become something I’m willing to look at more closely. I’m exploring how colonialism shaped the way I relate to culture, service, and even language.

1️⃣1️⃣ Language, Lineage, and LongingI share my complex relationship with Spanish, how my father didn’t teach it to us, and how I cried when a college course in Quechua was canceled. These moments are calling me back to the languages and lineages in my bones.

1️⃣2️⃣ Caution vs. Curiosity in Ancestral WorkI am starting to unpack reconnecting with indigenous traditions I belong to by blood (according to a DNA test, which I know are questionable), yet didn’t grow up with. I explore the difference between honoring and extracting—and how I’m moving forward with humility and care.

1️⃣3️⃣ Colonization Affects EveryoneWhile some teachings around colonization didn’t resonate at first, I now see how colonization affected everyone—just not equally. I’m beginning to understand how reclaiming ancestry is part of collective healing.

1️⃣4️⃣ Synchronicity & Right TimingEvery time I surrender my seeking, something shows up—like a free workshop on bloodline awakening, right after I opened the door to exploring my roots. These synchronicities guide me more than plans ever could.

1️⃣5️⃣ Curiosity Over CertaintyInstead of needing to “know” or “do” something with my ancestry, I’m letting myself explore. I’m choosing reverence over rush. This isn’t about identity performance—it’s about feeling what’s true.

🌀 The Bottom Line: Roots & Ram DassThis episode is about grounding in your truth, surrendering the need to know it all, and allowing life to reveal itself in layers. Your ancestors are with you. The earth is holding you. You don’t have to rush. You just have to be.

Mentions & Resourcesnot affiliated, just sharing what’s alive for me

💖 Be Here Now by Ram Dass – A mystic portal and a present-moment anchor📘 Decolonizing the Body by Kelsey Blackwell – Reflections on ancestral reclamation🌿 Entangled Life by Merlin Sheldrake – Fungi as a metaphor for connection🍂 Quechua & Indigenous Languages – A calling I’ve felt for years🧘 Yoga Nidra – A personal practice I’m choosing to keep personal (for now)🌀 Bloodline Awakening Workshop – Led by Dr. Rocio Rosales Meza, a synchronicity🌍 Nature – My forever guide and grounding force🎤 This Podcast – A living record of becoming, one breath at a time

❤️ Core Message @ me ❤️Sometimes, the lesson isn’t in getting the refund—it’s in letting go. You’re not here to accumulate more. You’re here to remember what’s already within you. There is wisdom in your roots. There is guidance in your rhythm. Trust that.

In order to be here, I had to have dozens and dozens and dozens of ancestors, so in this moment I’d like to express my deep gratitude for them and for the planet which to me is the ultimate ancestor.

Mystically,

Belle

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