Episode Two didn’t become the letter I planned. Life has been full of grief, shifting friendships, financial pressure, motherhood, questions about God, and the strange guilt of enjoying a moment while you’re still hurting. So this episode is a conversation from the middle of it all.

In “Healing from the Middle,” I’m asking what it means to keep showing up when I don’t always feel like myself. I’m talking about accountability and the care I want from friendship, the difference between wanting intensity and needing connection, and why joy doesn’t erase grief.

This is part of the heart behind Sacred Rage, Holy Love and Before Love Found Me:

Telling the truth without giving up tenderness.

Listen first. Then sit with the questions below.

You do not have to answer them all.

Sit with this:

Where are you expecting yourself to function as though you aren’t carrying anything?

Has a relationship changed in a way you haven’t fully allowed yourself to grieve?

When you reach for intensity, what might you actually need?

What good moment have you felt guilty for enjoying—and what would it mean to let it be good?

A Biblical Meeting Place:

Shared from lived experience, not as a Bible lesson.

If Scripture is part of how you reflect, you might sit with Psalm 13. It begins with an honest “How long?”

What question have you been afraid to bring to God without dressing it up first?

Before Love Found Me begins here—with a letter to whichever version of you these words were meant to reach.

In Episode One, Jessica Cadora opens the world of Sacred Rage, Holy Love and writes from the middle of becoming: faith beside doubt, motherhood beside exhaustion, almost-love, survival, and the realization that love does not always arrive carrying roses.

Sometimes, it comes carrying scissors.

This is not healing spoken from the finish line. It is an honest witness to the woman still finding her way home.

“And if this letter found you, maybe love already has.”

Written and narrated by Jessica Cadora.

Before Love Found Me is an original podcast from Sacred Rage, Holy Love.

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Content note: This episode includes discussions of alcohol use, emotional exhaustion, relationship wounds, faith struggles, and sexual intimacy.