Behind Our Eyes

Have you ever felt something move through you that your mind couldn't explain?

Behind Our Eyes host and creator Liane Grimshaw sits down with energy healer and light language master Nicola Light for a warm, funny and deeply honest conversation about awakening in midlife.

Nicola shares how a dark night of the soul cracked her old life open, and how a strange new language began moving through her voice and hands.

Together they unpack what light language and light codes really are, where they come from, and why this gift lives in all of us. It's an episode about losing everything, finding yourself, and trusting the voice that rises from within.

IN THIS EPISODE:

• What light language is, in plain English
• Why light codes come from within, not from "out there"
• The 3am moment when light language erupted
• How spiritual ego quietly trips us up on the path
• Channelling vs owning your power as a sovereign being
• A message and a live light language transmission for you

ABOUT NICOLA:

Nicola Light is an energy healer, Reiki master, galactic shaman and light language master. She helps people understand their emotions from an energetic perspective and move through their shadows into the light. She is co-author of Get Ready, They're Here and author of the Pleiadian Handbook for Being Human.

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Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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This isn't my usual episode.

This time I'm the one being interviewed 😱

My friend Beccy Calderwood turned the tables and asked me the questions I've been holding for years. What came out was the most honest account I've ever given of my own spiritual awakening story, well some of it at least.

Starting with a breakdown in my mid forties, moving through a kundalini-style experience on a yoga mat in Mexico, to the shifts in my perception and sense of self, as well as some funny anecdotes - like when I was unable to speak English in my own kitchen.

This is for any woman who's felt the ground shift beneath her in midlife. Who's started to lose herself - in a good way, even if it doesn't feel like it yet. And who's had experiences she can't explain and hasn't always known what to do with them.

In this conversation we get into:

• What led up to THAT moment in Mexico (not one thing)
• Light language: how it emerged and the funny incident
• The real cost of awakening — losing friends, isolation, energetic sensitivity
• What I think the midlife feeling of invisibility points to
• The simplest thing I know for connecting with yourself, every day

🗣️ ABOUT BECCY

Beccy Calderwood spent years in senior leadership in the creative industries before building Grounded — a wellbeing platform designed to help people live more human lives. She's known for her honest, down-to-earth approach and her ability to ask exactly the right question at the right moment, which is precisely why I asked her to interview me.

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Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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What if everything in life can be understood as medicine?

What if spiritual pilgrimage wasn't a trip - but a way of living? Michelle MacEwan talks to host, Liane Grimshaw, about practical ways of coming home to yourself in midlife and beyond.

She has spent over thirty years leading pilgrimages, teaching wild wisdom and guiding people back to themselves.

She draws on Scottish and Irish earth traditions, the Polynesian art of wayfinding and decades of deep immersion in nature - living beside the Southern Ocean on the wild southern edge of Australia.

The conversation covers a lot of ground but always points us back home to ourselves.

A big part of this discussion is about the power of pilgrimage - not as a religious act or a sacred holiday, but as a living practice you can bring into your daily life wherever you are. Following the magical signs. Letting one thing lead to another. Trusting the voice of the heart. Paying attention!

The importance of ancestral wisdom is also discussed, and why your lineage is the foundation you're already standing on, whether you know it yet or not.

And finally, something that doesn't get talked about enough — menopause not as something to get through, but as a key passageway into the greatest mystery of your life.

This will resonate with any women who feel something calling them deeper and aren't quite sure what direction to walk. Michelle has a way of making that clearer.

ABOUT MICHELLE:

Michelle MacEwan is a writer, spiritual guide, teacher and environmental activist with over thirty years experience leading retreats, teaching groups and working with individuals as a guide to help them discover a deeper wisdom within. She creates amazing content, practices and prayers as part of her offerings, as well as hosting annual pilgrimages to Ireland and Australia.

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Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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FEMININE spirituality is in the body - your true POWER source as a woman as you age. Energy CONDUIT Barbara Blum explores EMBODIMENT, feminine energy, and DIVINE feminine power on this episode of Behind Our Eyes.

Also...

When she turned 60, Barbara wrote an article and titled it - The Season of Embodiment - and in this conversation with our host Liane, she unpacks what that actually means her, and likely any woman at this stage of life.

Listen all the way through to explore a beautiful array of topics related to feminine spirituality. This includes, what happens when life force stops moving outward and turns inward. How the body's intelligence outpaces the mind's. Why Barbara believes women in midlife hold the power to change the world - not by fighting, but by being fully present.

Barbara also explains what it means to be an energy conduit, how transmissions feel for her, and why she is devoted to doing this work, especially at this time of her life. We also explore the power of sacred sites, and the energy of Mother Gaia.

If you're a woman finding your way through a life transition or a spiritual awakening in your 40s, 50s or 60s — this one is for you.

And if you've ever felt something move through your body in a way that your mind couldn't explain, Barbara will help you make peace with that in a beautifully grounded way.

ABOUT BARBARA:

Barbara Blum is an energy conduit and spiritual mentor specialising in transmitting higher states of consciousness and cosmic life-force energy — bridging the energies of Mother Earth and the Higher Realms in service of individual awakening and collective healing.

A 700hr Yoga Instructor and Certified Meditation Instructor with a deep grounding in both traditional Indian teachings and modern mysticism, she offers personal and group energy transmissions online and in person, international retreats, and facilitator trainings. Originally from the mountains of Colorado, she now lives on the Pacific jungle coastline of Mexico, where her connection with ancestral lands continues to deepen her own path.

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ABOUT THIS PODCAST:

Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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Sarah McCrum sat down with a pen during a financial crisis — and money started writing through her. It became a powerful book which changed her life, delivering profound and beautiful messages.

In the middle of a business collapse, the energy of money began writing to her in a voice entirely its own. That channelled material became Love Money, Money Loves You - a self-published book that has now sold over 100,000 copies worldwide.

In this conversation, Sarah and Liane explore what it actually means to have a healthy relationship with money - not from a strategy or hustle perspective, but from an energetic one.

Sarah explains why fear and stress actively hold money away, how relaxation opens the door, and how you can make a 'beautiful request' - the moment your soul lights up in expressing an authentic desire. She also goes deep on opening the heart, why most meditation doesn't quite do it, and what it really takes to feel reconnected with yourself and life.

If you're a woman in midlife, navigating a career transition, rebuilding after a spiritual awakening, or simply wondering why you never seem to have quite enough - this episode offers so much wisdom.

Sarah's message is practical, grounded and genuine: you are not insignificant. Your energy touches everything. And it might be simpler than you think to see positive change in your life.

ABOUT SARAH:

Sarah McCrum is a leading money consciousness coach who has transformed the lives of over twenty thousand business owners and their families. She offers a practical, relaxed approach to transforming your relationship with money, based on her book, Love Money. Money Loves You. Her courses enable business owners, leaders and investors to combine true wealth with true wellbeing.

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ABOUT THIS PODCAST:

Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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From a successful career in PR in the UK, to moving her whole family to the rainforests of Costa Rica, Fiona's mystical initiations kept unfolding.

In this episode of Behind Our Eyes, host Liane Grimshaw sits down with an old friend - someone who knew her back in her party days in Manchester, and whose life has also taken one of the most extraordinary turns imaginable.

Fiona Kirwan is now a plant medicine facilitator living in the rainforest on the Caribbean coast of Costa Rica. She and her husband Neil co-founded Sowa Soma, a trauma-informed ayahuasca retreat centre, after Fiona walked away from the PR agency she'd spent years building.

What brought her here wasn't one moment — it was three initiations, each one more undeniable than the last.

The first was ayahuasca, which found her on a year-long sabbatical 14 years ago when she was finally honest enough to ask: is this it?

The second was becoming a mother — an experience she describes as the most mystical portal of her entire life, more profound than any ceremony.

And the third was the pandemic, the moment the double life she'd been quietly maintaining for years became impossible to sustain.

This is a conversation of rare honesty about what it actually costs to walk away from an identity built over two decades.

It's also a conversation about what it means to be a woman moving through the thresholds of her life: the biological, emotional, and spiritual passages that don't come with a manual.

ABOUT FIONA:

Fiona is a plant medicine facilitator, working with Ayahuasca, Cacao and other non-psychedelic plant allies. Originally from the UK, she runs a trauma-informed plant medicine retreat centre in Costa Rica, alongside her husband Neil. She also continues to expand her work with women, helping to create more alignment with the feminine. She provides support with cycles, conscious conception and advocates birthing sovereignty.

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ABOUT THIS PODCAST:

Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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She was 50, suicidal, and running a successful HR business. Then ayahuasca changed everything. Geet Fateh Kaur's story of midlife transformation will stop you in your tracks.

Geet Fateh Kaur spent 28 years as an HR director. On the outside, she had everything. On the inside, she was drowning. Then at 50, a doom-scroll moment led her to a plant medicine retreat in Costa Rica, and nothing was ever the same again.

This conversation covers her spiritual awakening at 50, living with indigenous tribes in the Amazon, and selling her house to move off-grid in Wales.

If you're in your 40s, 50s, 60s or beyond and something in your life just isn't working anymore, this one's for you. Geet Fateh's story is a reminder that it's not too late to come home to yourself. And that sometimes what looks like falling apart is actually the beginning of everything.

ABOUT GEET FATEH:

Geet Fateh Kaur is a former HR director turned medicine woman, weaving together Kundalini Yoga, sound healing, shamanic energy work, and sacred ceremony. She's sat with indigenous tribes in the Amazon, been initiated across multiple plant medicine lineages, and now lives off-grid in Pembrokeshire. Her work helps women come home to themselves, their truth, and the land.

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ABOUT THIS PODCAST:

Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Hosted by Liane Grimshaw, each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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In this profound episode, Dr. Marguerite Rigoglioso - author of "The Secret Life of Mother Mary" - shares how losing her own mother at age 10 became a spiritual initiation. This ultimately led her to uncover hidden teachings about Divine Mother energy and the sacred feminine mysteries.

Mother Mary is central to Marguerite's work as she explains who this spiritual master really was: an advanced being who had perfected spiritual practices across many lifetimes.

She was head of the early Christ movement, a master healer working with sacred oils and hallucinogens, and a teacher who trained both Yeshua and Mary Magdalene.

Most remarkably, Mary mastered yogic practices that allowed her to conceive divinely and resurrect her son after crucifixion.

This conversation bridges ancient mystery traditions with modern spiritual awakening.

We learn about the Holy Womb Chakra, the teachings of Hindu saint Sri Kaleshwar, as well as other powerful practices which can help women clear trauma, heal physical illness, reconnect with their maternal lineage, and restore their creative power.

For women in midlife navigating loss, transformation, or spiritual awakening, this episode offers both scholarly insight and practical tools for reclaiming your worthiness, power, and role as a wisdom keeper.

ABOUT MARGUERITE:

Marguerite Rigoglioso, Ph.D. is an esoteric scholar, award-winning author, and director of Seven Sisters Mystery School. She has spent over a decade recovering lost teachings about divine feminine power, miraculous conception, and the true identity of Mary as a spiritual master. The Secret Life of Mother Mary won multiple 2024 awards and is changing the way women understand their own sacred power.

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ABOUT THIS PODCAST

Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, and authentic experiences with magical women in midlife and beyond. Hosted by Liane Grimshaw, each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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WELCOME TO SEASON 2 of Behind Our Eyes which sees us expand the show onto YouTube for the first time (link below)!

After recording 20 conversations with extraordinary women who've navigated profound spiritual awakenings, breakdowns that became breakthroughs, and complete life transformations, Liane wanted to pause and share what she's learned so far.

This isn't just a recap - it's a distillation of the collective wisdom that emerged from 20 women brave enough to share their stories. Each woman's journey revealed universal truths about awakening, embodiment, and the rising feminine.

In this episode you'll receive the 8 key themes that have not only transformed the guests on the show, but have fundamentally changed Liane too as she's walked this path alongside them.

Whether you're in the midst of your own awakening, feeling called to something deeper, or simply curious about what lies beyond the veil of everyday consciousness, this episode offers permission, validation, and a roadmap forward.

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ABOUT THIS PODCAST

Behind Our Eyes explores transformation, spiritual awakening, personal growth and authentic living with magical women in midlife and beyond. Hosted by Liane Grimshaw, each episode dives deep into the stories of those who've trusted their inner voice, navigated profound change, and discovered the love, power and wisdom that resides within us all.

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Allysha Lavino is a talented writer, author, sacred explorer, and spiritual coach from California who lives in the wilds of Québec.

During this fascinating conversation, Allysha shares many beautiful stories and insights. This includes her work with legendary documentary filmmaker and author, Henry Lincoln, who discovered sacred codes hidden within the buildings and landscape of southern France. He was also the co-author of the famous book - Holy Blood, Holy Grail. 

As Allysha explains, the codes he found reveal ancient teachings that intertwine with the fundamentals of how our planet operates and how humans connect to it. And she has continued Lincoln's legacy by writing a 'Visionary Fiction' novel - The Heretic -  which takes you on a magical adventure into the truths and legends of a bygone era, yet with so much contemporary significance.

Weaving in and out of her own personal experiences with the sacred, Allysha shares how her spiritual journey was further ignited during a pilgrimage to Glastonbury in her early twenties. And how her ability to "see" unfolded, developing into an intuitive gift with which to support others. An ability that also blossomed as a natural embodiment, passed on through her lineage.

Her knowledge of psychology and the influence of her mystic grandmother have enriched her understanding of the human experience and spiritual growth. 

She is eloquent in her use of words and is deeply empathetic. She speaks with clarity and heart, making complex spiritual concepts accessible and relatable. And she is humble and knowing as she emphasises the importance of being, of re-establishing our natural flow of energy, and of her role as space holder for the magic within.

Championing the wisdom of the crone archetype, Allysha encourages us to see the perceived invisibility of older women as a powerful and freeing state, rather than a disempowerment.

Tune in to this episode to explore the mystical, the practical, and the deeply transformative journey of Allysha Lavino, and discover how her insights can guide you on your own path to spiritual awakening and self-discovery.

You can engage with Allysha in the following ways:

Website: https://www.allyshalavino.com/ 

Social media channels: Twitter | LinkedIn | Instagram | Facebook

Buy Her Book on Amazon: Amazon UK | Amazon US

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DISCLAIMER: Any practices shared on this podcast are not a replacement for or a form of therapy, nor are they intended to cure, treat, or diagnose medical conditions. Always make sure to listen to live practices in an environment that is safe. Do not listen to take part in any practices shared on these recordings while driving a car or operating any kind of machinery.