So Yes, I was the prodigal daughter. I did walk away. But now I’m
back for good. Just spending time in His Presence. There is this
concept of God having so many names. I see it as all the different
fragile and vulnerable, you don’t want the War-God to come and help
you, you want the Jehovah Rapha, the healing and nurturing God. The
Lord is my Shepard, or in more modern times – the Lord is my
creche/kindergarten teacher. They have so much patience, everything
is pretty.
Most High, allowing us to soar like eagles. So see our life in full
perspective, taking a step back. If you stand at the Voortrekker
Monument, with your nose rubbed against the bricks, you will see the
majesty of it, you need to take a step back.
believe in Sabbaths. To take a step back. To re-evaluate.
birthdays, doing a stocktake.
New Years, always missing someone yes, but grateful for the love I
have had. I know God will fill it again.
Syne, do you ever think God sings that song for us?
intimacy we used to have?
Him now recently.
“Yes Lord I know the whole middle east is a warzone, Vladimir
is using up his last strike, but please Lord, see me, pick me! I’ll
be surprisingly good for You!”
through podcasts, through friends and Colossians 3:16, through dreams
of trucks and reverse.
He has so much on His plate, juggles so many balls, yet He sends us
Whatsapps, through angels, or we call them friends.
in America to answer my why questions in my journals.
Amarilla-flowers so that they can give me joy for a month.
healed my ultrasonic scaler at work, giving me a public answered
prayer, ain’t those the best ones?
more daily, He gives new babies, if He was sick of us, do you think
He would have made more of us?
– in Nadia terms – give me more, tell me more, request more.
with me – let’s do a pity party together.
all your voids (Philippians 4:16) and no I won’t be stingy, I’ll
fill it richly. Heaven is not in a recession.
God’s way of fasting. I used to think that fasting, holy communion,
prophetic actions, were like pebbles against a window. Instead of
only knocking at the door, we pick up pebbles to make sure we get
attention.
was doing prophetic actions with me.
lists, my manifestation videos. Not seeking portholes, as if I need
more “stuff”. No for now, I’m just here Lord to have a meal
with You, to watch a movie with You, to hear about Your day. I would
like to wash Your feet, I would love to use my hair rub Your feet
dry. I’m here for you. To serve You.
purpose, trying to leave a mark or a legacy in this world. I just
want You, not the vending machine You, just You.
