BEvolutionary: The Podcast

Michael woke in the night, and again this morning, to the mind active with negative thoughts. He and Audree have both been in a deep, committed exercise: whatever is happening, internally or externally, saying "I am creating this," then going in to find the aspect of their being that's creating it. This morning even that wasn't there, just "this pure blanket of awareness," and the negative thought dissolved. Michael is finally getting the mechanism, "I'm creating my own reality," at the level of fully doing it, and it is ending the self-victimization.

He is experiencing, very directly, "how I've been using all of that power to bind myself up, to limit myself from the truth, to use my energy against myself." It is incomprehensible for a human being to understand how much power they are using to create all the limitations in their life.

And you hide from yourself that you are the one doing it. Separation lets the mind partition itself into contradictory, independent bits: "We're able to lie to ourselves. We're able to hide information from ourselves." That is how much power you have, enough to create such a powerful self-limiting structure. See how it works, undo what you did to get here, and you are out of the maze. No wonder they like escape rooms.

The biggest lie of all is "I want to evolve, and I'm doing what I need to evolve." Believing it, you aren't asking, "What am I not looking at?" Behind the relationship or the finances you don't have, behind the oppressive work situation, some level of your being is saying "I want this." Looking, and choosing to look until you find it, is the real yes.

The cosmic joke runs deep: you create the guru so you can experience the guru giving you something. "We believe in limitation. We believe in dependence." That's how you bind up all your power.

It's hard to look, hard to take full ownership that you are creating your life experience when you didn't want this trauma and that trauma. The separated I that didn't want it is not the truth of who you are; source consciousness is a yes to the experience, without judgment. Their level one training teaches that you didn't choose your reactive behavior patterns. Past level one: "funny story is you did choose those." Seeing how you are choosing them now is the doorway out.

00:00 Podcast Begins
00:15 Night Mind Chatter
01:58 Pure Awareness Shift
04:08 Peace Without Trying
09:33 Total Responsibility
12:57 Power And Gratitude
17:16 Awareness Rewires Brain
20:18 Self Deception Maze
25:16 Precision And Truth
27:32 Oneness Not Sameness
29:03 Perception Changes Everything
30:19 Fear Versus Excitement
32:02 Tools Over Crutches
34:02 Guru Dependence Trap
37:55 Cosmic Joke Creation
40:58 Paradox Of Support
44:44 Lineages And Evolution
50:42 Refusing To Take Energy
54:14 Owning Your Reality
56:58 Closing Reflections

Audree is in a profound moment of what their work is. You are God. Not the God humanity has a definition of: unity consciousness, source consciousness incarnated in the physical realm. All the teachings lead to just one truth. She sees everybody sitting together in that truth, in a quiet moment of illumination: "Nobody is higher, nobody is lower."

But if you don't believe it's true, it's not true for you. Every thought is a choice you didn't know you had. When the mind says X is true, you re-up your allegiance to it. Belief means be the lie. Michael has seen it in his own life: "The reason my life has been the way it has is because I've held allegiances to having it be that way." Refine your awareness until you can see the choice, and you have access to it.

The episode includes a guided process to do along with them: ice cream good, ice cream bad. Each time, you believed one fully, and later the other. The mind becomes aware that both are true and both are false at the same time. You step through both and let go. Then stillness: "You are an illuminated one. That's what that is, that saying you are God."

They are just back from India, where their teacher left his body last week. He had told them, "I'm gonna power you up so you can go out and be your own teacher." Devoted outward, you lose the opportunity to go inward and know your own truth. For Audree, the final darshan, a three-day wake, is that the time of the guru is over and the new era is here.

It starts with looking at where you do not believe it. "Where's my allegiance to limitation? And that is the way out." A good teacher just points you back at yourself, and that is all Audree and Michael are doing. It's all there in the book of your life, because that is what's creating your reality. "Anything other than that would be a lie."

00:00 Cold Open Banter
00:13 You Are God Setup
01:03 Seriousness Versus Humor
03:01 Quiet Illumination Vision
09:02 Mechanics of Choice
12:41 Everyday Examples
15:33 Unlearning Beliefs
19:26 Mind Needs Certainty
22:23 Science and Miracles
24:44 Ice Cream Teaching
27:57 Ice Cream Mind Conflict
29:06 Awareness Over Answers
30:42 Mantra and Letting Go
32:59 Stillness and Grounding
38:16 Purple Dot Teaching
40:05 Truth and Checksum
42:04 Spirituality as Commodity
43:55 India Teacher Passing
48:01 Final Darshan Story
51:29 Devotion Versus Inward Truth
54:34 New Era of Self Mastery
59:51 Three Minutes Stillness

That morning in the shower, it landed for Michael: gratitude for the mind, as an innocent. The mind is the one beating you up, telling you you're unworthy, creating the shit show of your life. And it is doing a perfect job. It gets a gold star.

The usual answer is "screw you, mind," which is just the mind attacking itself. The knife cannot cut itself. You can't think your way out, because everything you believe is based on partial truths, falsehoods and conditioning. The only way out is direct experience of the mechanic of creation.

In agile teams, Michael learned this: when you are the product owner and the team builds what you asked for and it isn't working, you don't blame the team. You thank them, because they built what you asked for. Then you build something different. With the mind, you are the product owner. As source consciousness, you said yes to The Deviation, yes to the mind experiencing separation. There is no bad guy mind. It is giving you exactly what you asked for. Michael calls it "the great hero of our deviated experience," with the Academy Award and the Nobel Peace Prize in all categories.

Everything built so far is built from an absence of love. Why not create in love? It's not that easy, Audree says; thinking "I'll create in love now" doesn't get you there. You have to look at the impact and the consequences, and feel it, and see it 100%. If you're not feeling like shit, you're not deep enough. And to anyone feeling it right now: "You didn't do anything wrong. We just forgot what and who we are on purpose."

The day before, in a session with the Shii, Michael got to the first step of AA: my life is unmanageable. Awareness that deep is the sprint review. "I'm the one who created that request. Wow, mind, let's look at the consequence of that. Do we still wanna keep on doing this?" For Michael, that is the pivot.

The pain is the mind trying to give you the signals: "Hey, can we do something about this situation, 'cause it ain't working so well."

00:00 Evolution Is Messy

00:55 Identity Trap

03:14 Matrix Awakening

04:40 Mind Creates Reality

07:10 Poverty Metaphor

10:03 Awareness Reprogramming

11:44 Ownership Versus Victimhood

17:51 Fractal Deepening

18:45 Mind Cannot Fix Mind

22:29 Origin of Separation

24:16 Gratitude for the Mind

25:21 Creating in Love

27:30 Sixth Phase Love Mechanics

28:43 Mind as Innocent Hero

29:51 Real Gratitude Power

32:39 Teaching What We Learn

34:12 Addiction and Mind Grooves

39:03 Humanity in Recovery

39:46 AA Surrender and Awareness

42:07 Feeling Pain to Clear

47:33 Free Tools and Courses

51:17 Use the Podcast as Practice

53:01 Why Courses Need Grounding

55:26 Closing Mantra and Farewell

Fancy French cooking cuts every carrot into identical squares. Tuscan cooking leaves the skin on and the pieces big, and the beauty is in the imperfection. That, Audree says, is this podcast: farm to table, natural, not machine-graded for sameness. That is the whole hour.

Being human does not come with a manual. Audree went looking for one when she was pregnant; people look on YouTube and from teachers. School teaches math and how to spell, not how to be a human being. Michael's answer: there never can be one, it is not possible within the mechanics of creation. Their teacher Bhagwan said the only book you need to read for your evolution is the book of your life. It is not a manual, it is a journey, an unfolding toward your truth.

They saw it running their leadership training: people wanted the step-by-step. What you get instead is a generalized playbook of patterns, and your own awareness to map them onto a situation unlike anyone else's. Source consciousness wants individuality, so there is no cookie-cutter formula. Awareness is the primary mechanism of evolution.

Then Michael shows what navigating without the manual looks like, live. He wakes with the mind going and body sensations that once would have left him in tears, now just, oh, okay. He calls it astronaut training now, withstanding the G-force of the egoic mind. In the shower, neck locked and painful, the mind offers, get Audree to massage it, and he catches it: wait, what voice is that? He remembers he is the one creating his reality, and his heart opens. The mind just wants to get caught, like a thief tired of running this deviated show. Every get clear is a gift.

Audree has been living the same thing into his daughter's wedding this weekend: the perfect outfit, the stepmom rules she googled (downplay everything, don't steal the show), a lifetime of being told she is too powerful and should tone it down. She has cleared the family and belonging underneath, so she does the proper thing, not from survival or a charge. Cleared, you shine and it takes nothing from anyone, and she could finally feel into the couple's love. She sees the brilliance in others and wants to uplift them, which she can do only as much as for herself.

In a session with the Shii, they asked Michael why he keeps going when his life looks like it is crumbling. There is no alternative. As an engineer running experiments, he has found every mechanic of creation proves true. So the choice is allegiance: to the conditioning and The Deviation, or to your own direct experience. Which wolf you feed. Neo, beaten, asked why he keeps fighting: because I choose to. Trust the process is not trust me, or trust Audree, or trust the transmission. It is trust your own direct experience. The truth will set you free, and it is the little truths you give your allegiance to that carry you there.

00:00 Tuscan Versus French
02:02 Imperfect Podcast Vibe
03:14 Show About Nothing
03:50 Real Talk Journey
07:00 Wedding Outfit Pressure
09:10 Stepmom Role Rules
12:00 Escape Room Evolution
16:26 Astronaut Training Pain
21:33 Heart Opens The Loop
25:36 Collective Mind Awakening
27:43 No Manual For Humans
29:01 No Manual Just Journey
31:12 Playbook Versus Specifics
32:38 Patterns And Awareness Skills
35:26 Many Roads Same Destination
39:06 Wedding As Inner Work
41:08 Stop Toning Yourself Down
45:26 Uplifting Others At Work
48:17 Choice And Feeding Wolves
50:53 Trust Direct Experience
55:32 Truth Will Set You Free
56:47 Closing Reflections

An intense week of evolution, of unearthing the dead bodies, and Michael is mid-purification when it happens on mic. The mind turns back on itself, who am I, and touches the pure awareness of its own being. Michelangelo's ceiling, the finger of man reaching for the finger of God, the mind recognizing it was never separate. It is source consciousness. The new part: the unraveling keeps going and he can still function.

That distinction is the whole hour. Their teacher Bhagwan, of Oneness University in India, the real deal, can shut a mind off completely, into instant awakening. But it shuts off so far the monks have to be fed and bathed, and a friend, seeing men in samadhi by the roadside, called them homeless people. Bliss, and non-functional. That is not the evolution program. The program is to purify out of the deviation and function in the world as source consciousness incarnate. As Yogi Bhajan told Audree in her Kundalini year, you're a householder, not a yogi on a mountain.

Which is where everyone gets stuck. You cultivate the high state at the retreat, then come home to the deviated job and family you have allegiance to. The glitch is thinking you add the new state onto the life you already have. It is the opposite: let go of what you're holding. Not leave the job or the relationship, but work the root cause, and shift your internal state until the reality shifts on its own.

Then Audree lands the line and Michael stops her, say that again: the mind uses the person in front of you as a distraction so you don't notice it is the one creating that reality. Turn inward, ask why am I creating this, feel it, breathe. Awareness, the primary mechanism of evolution.

Her earliest memory is the crib, two months old, the faded green onesie, crying, her mother not coming, a voice saying nobody is coming to help you. For a lifetime that meant I am alone and no one will save me. Days ago it flipped: that was the precursor to the purpose of her life. Nobody comes to save you because you are the one creating your reality. Not a curse, an angel at the foot of the bed. You save yourself, and it's true for everyone.

Doing it yourself is the part people flatten. It does not mean by yourself. You are the author of your life, and the mechanic is to say yes again and again, use the tools, ask for support when you're stuck, and let go of what you keep putting in front of it. We were co-created to receive from each other.

Audree comes back to the Sistine Chapel, the two fingers barely touching, a transmission in the gap. One Source moves through all of it, you and the trees and the God particle alike, the intelligence of all creation flowing within you. I am God incarnated in human form, because there is only one source. Michael: it's not the Force from Star Wars, it's the Source. May the Source be with you. Because it always is, we just don't notice it.

00:00 Unearthing the Wounded Self
01:40 Who Am I Spark
03:55 Purification While Functioning
06:09 Bhagwan and Instant Awakening
08:47 Why the Evolution Program Differs
10:20 Monks in Bliss States
15:31 Making Awakening Practical
19:10 Householder Path and Kundalini
21:11 Ghost Story at Sadhana
26:49 Retreat High vs Real Life
29:41 Letting Go Not Adding On
30:39 Be Here Now Practice
31:06 Yes to Evolution
32:49 Stop Blaming Others
34:06 Turn Inward Awareness
38:23 Divorce Call Breakthrough
41:52 Mind Dialogue Frequency Shift
45:02 Crib Memory Reframed
51:47 Mechanics of the Journey
59:01 Sistine Chapel Transmission
01:03:39 No One Saves You
01:04:09 Closing Blessing

The spark is one line: the mind is not the enemy. You don't get rid of it, because energy can't be destroyed, only transmuted. The work is the mind coming to wholeness. Love the mind that's creating the challenge. That's the way through. The mind is afraid that if you do this work it dies. It doesn't. You become more you than ever. Awareness first, always.

When there's something correct for you to do and everything in you says no, no, no, that no is the thing to work through. The entrepreneur's hack is do it scared. Their teaching is the opposite. Don't do it scared. Clear the scared part, then do it. Sit in the chair, breathe into the block, a get-clear-a-thon, seven days if that's what it takes.

Michael has that exact thing in front of him. The channeled guidance, validated over and over, was to get his CV ready and look for work outside their own, because building this as entrepreneurs in startup mode is hard. He keeps starting and stopping. His dad starts poking at him. The crows start crowing, and Audree pulls out her crow tarot deck. The reading: you're not listening to the guidance. I'm not listening. He turns it into three sticky notes and names the pattern out loud for the first time without hating himself for it. I don't follow the guidance that's correct for me. Like there's a banana, an orange, and an apple on the table. Just what's there.

Tarot works because you say yes to communion, which is union. And you can only listen when you're clear. Listening is the root, the bottom of the evolutionary tree. This whole body of work was all listening, all downloads. It is why they are so fussy about words: we cast spells with words, and command of the language is command of creation.

Then the gas line breaks fifteen feet from the house. Michael stays neutral, looks it up, waits for the fireman, who says it's fine. Audree gets taken out and still functions, purse, wallet, computer, a cord, until a worker lights a cigarette by the leak and she goes off like a volcano. The practices don't spare you the fear response. They shorten the recovery.

It's always internal. The doing is a trick. You can work around the clock on the wrong thing because you never cleared the block. It's not about more effort. That's the whole Deviation trap.

00:00 Mind Not the Enemy
01:26 Healing Into Wholeness
03:29 Two Minds at War
06:02 Tools and Frequency Checks
07:25 Solution Mode Mindset
09:41 Change Inside First
10:37 Awareness and Consumption
13:18 Mind Fears Its Death
15:59 Movie Revolver Lessons
17:05 Working Through Resistance
19:45 Guidance to Job Search
24:03 Tarot and Synchronicity
28:14 Turning Readings Into Action
29:27 Naming Patterns Without Judgment
30:51 Words and Spelling Power
31:55 Words Shape Reality
32:24 Low Frequency Language Traps
33:36 Tarot High Priestess Lesson
34:57 Why Tarot Works
37:18 Listening Is The Root
38:37 Clear Fear Then Act
40:22 Nine Month Mind Training
41:43 Fear In Catastrophe Scenarios
43:49 Gas Leak Trigger Story
49:09 Practices For Fast Recovery
51:00 Internal Blocks Create Limits
52:46 I Ching Mantra Closing

Two weeks since the last podcast, their longest gap, and all of it a deep program of evolution: a summer of intense training, a couple of months of letting go of identity.

Everything you believe about the world is rooted in the perception that we are separate and limited, and it is anchored in the physiology, the neural networks, the brain. The shift now is not changing a belief but changing the entire root of all perspectives into a new perspective as source consciousness.

Awareness is the primary mechanism of evolution because it is the reprogramming mechanism for the mind: belief by belief at the beginning, and now holding the two opposing perspectives of reality simultaneously, limitation and lack in survival, and unlimited abundance, miracles, everything is possible. That is the tipping point: let go of the one, yes to the other, and the rewiring happens. There's no doing here, by the way. They are slowing down for the sake of integration, in the final phase of the component of the mind itself.

Holding the two is the core of unlearning, and where unlearning came from landed this morning on the podcast. Fitzgerald's line about holding two opposed ideas in mind and still functioning is a sound bite. The mechanics that keep us trapped in our limiting belief systems, operationalized, are their blue squares and green triangles on the flip chart, the mechanics of creation. The whole teaching exploded out of that drawing.

A friend who has known about this work for years and never dived in is in the hospital being diagnosed with stage four cancer before the test results are back, everybody around them saying you have cancer, you need chemo now. That is the limited perspective: the disease is real and can't be changed.

We create our own limitations by arguing for them. Believing in miracles doesn't remove the anchor keeping you trapped in that cancer; you go deep and surgically remove the limiting belief. Audree has been in those situations, instantaneous healing on herself and with other people, and what it takes is shifting into the possibility that something else can happen, and navigating the fear in everybody around you.

Scared, survival threatened, without your full intelligence, if you don't have the tools before that, you can't get the tools in that moment. Support and guidance and the healing process first, then the training. Complete the training before the shit goes down.

00:00 Back After A Break
00:40 Big Picture Evolution
03:16 Micro Vs Macro Change
05:54 Matrix Of Separation
08:54 Awareness And Tipping Point
12:31 Practical Abundance Shift
12:43 Moving Locations Noise
13:44 Mechanics Of Creation
16:48 Unlearning Origin Story
18:47 Beyond Sound Bites
19:54 Two Opposing Realities
20:22 Awareness Rewires Mind
22:37 Energetic Physical Psychology
23:21 Applied Mechanics Over Knowledge
25:27 Healing Beyond Limitation
26:30 Arguing For Limitations
30:40 Faith Healing History
33:16 Integration And Mind Components
37:18 Accelerating Purification Safely
38:59 Practice Before Crisis
42:42 Wrap Up And Farewell

Michael keeps circling a Billy Idol line, from Eyes Without a Face: "I've spent so much time believing all the lies to keep the dream alive." The lies are the misperception of what and who we are. Dream is a D word, The Deviation, our separation from the truth. Spell it backwards, sound it out: merde, French for shit. Our allegiance is to those lies.

Then Audree's ice cream story. The same mind that says this is so good, I've been good all week, another bite, is the same mind that says why did I eat all that, now I have to run three miles. Believe the first lie, then the second: that's the dream. You shouldn't let friends should on themselves.

And you can't think your way out. The knife cannot cut itself; the mind cannot free itself. The only exit is direct experience of the truth of what and who you are.

Then what landed this morning. Being source consciousness isn't the complete picture. It will take any experience, in or out of The Deviation. Human design is maybe twenty percent of your incarnation; beyond it is the sacred intention of your being, you on every plane, across all time and space, the soul inception crystal that chooses what to create. Anchored there, the mind has nowhere to go.

Audree has been finding there's no wolf to feed. No spoon either, and mid-sentence it lands on her: whoa, I just got that. You can't teach this, Ramana Maharshi found; you can only transmit it. Describe it and you dissipate it. You can just sit in the silence of nothing, where the thought comes but has no hooks or teeth.

Your life is the training program, and the you that you think you are is not the you that you are.
That's the dream, all that time spenep it alive. What there is instead is evolving, which is love spelled backwards.

00:00 Welcome and Intentions
00:33 Billy Idol Lyric Setup
02:10 Dream as Deviation
03:17 Dream Backwards Merde
05:07 Self Doubt Spiral
06:04 Ice Cream Mind Loop
08:57 Shoulding on Yourself
10:23 Beyond Thinking Direct Experience
12:25 Source Consciousness Shift
13:21 Human Design Limits
16:45 Sacred Intention Beyond Design
20:04 No Wolf No Spoon
21:35 Truth Within Beingness
24:05 Why You Cant Explain It
26:32 Silence Without Hooks
34:12 Beyond Mind Perception
38:22 Rightness And Creation Flow
43:13 Life As Training Program
45:39 Wholeness Ends Fractals
48:25 Students Pop Open Clues
49:32 Nothing To Figure Out
50:36 Evolve Love Your Being
52:05 Closing Beingness Practice

If we didn't need to make money, would we be doing this? Why put an article on LinkedIn, why even this podcast? The only reason to need to be seen or heard is survival. I need this love, this relationship, food, money, a job. Feel a lack in your life, that's survival right there. The background radiation is the ongoing fear, and the fear is about survival, because there's a separation: I'm alone, I have to survive.

Audree's awareness of the day: separation is part of creation. The tree starts from one seed. Creation moves from the void out and separates, yet we perceive that as bad, and the misreading is where the hidden hooks live, the shame and guilt that block your success for doing what creation does.

In relationships the survival drive spawns the gaming, the manipulation, the strategy, because you believe you need that connection to survive. The same drive scales into what Michael calls death by sameness, the standardization large organizations run in the name of consistency, which took away the intelligence of the individual.

It isn't for peace and stillness and oneness, Audree says: what you're being shown is the very thing that's sabotaging your success. Let's be clear, Michael says, it is how you are sabotaging your own success, and everybody in the pattern with you gets taken out too. Awareness is the primary mechanism of evolution, and what you hold in awareness starts dissolving on its own.

His realization from the last week: caring for others, seva, all of it is a gigantic trap, because the desperate need to help anybody else is the desperate need to complete your own journey. Swim in your own lane. Then he names his own stuck place as exactly that need, and reverses inside the same sentence: it has to be the other end, where he's the one being bailed out. He doesn't finish it. Being internally authentic with yourself, that stops the sabotage. You don't stop loving your children because they do certain things. You don't stop loving yourself.

00:00 Mic On Real Talk

00:20 Survival Drives Sharing

02:47 Fear And Separation

04:13 Creation Needs Separation

09:50 Relationship Survival Games

14:55 Belonging And Identity Traps

18:21 Sameness Kills Innovation

26:48 Get Honest With Yourself

30:18 Awareness Evolves You

34:38 Trauma Conditioning For All

36:31 Grounding And Self Mastery

42:22 Love Is Freedom

48:43 Authenticity Ends Sabotage

54:46 Mantra And Closing

The Lion's Gate is coming, there's an eclipse on the 12th, and neither of them is an astrologer. They catch this off little blips on YouTube like everybody else. The question is whether any of it is something you actually need to know.

Michael's answer is no. The last few eclipses moved consciousness for everybody and nobody had to prepare for them. Your life is your evolution program. The essence of the journey requires zero knowledge of planetary geometry. Not on the critical list. Not even on the should-have list. Maybe nice to have.

Audree's yes-and is that she uses it as validation, afterward. She'd been thirty days inside a training with their guides and only thought to ask when it ended. August 9th. Then she went looking and found the July transits, the Lion's Gate, the Pluto eclipse, all of it lining up with something she was already in. The solar system as one giant organic computer, supporting the shift of consciousness for humanity. You're still gonna be evolving whether you're aware of these things or not.

Michael used to read his daily human design weather to work out when to do what. Two things came of it: it was a lot of work, and his intuition was already pulling him wherever the design was opening anyway. So consulting it deepens your allegiance to the mind, which is the opposite of where he'd started ten minutes before. In Star Wars, Luke turns off the targeting system and goes by feel. Use the Force becomes listen to Source. And if you do go looking, discernment is its own advanced skill, sorry, because the knife can never cut itself.

Can we skip human design, then? Audree, flat: no. A student had said this doesn't feel like me, and her birthday had been read in the wrong date format. That sent them checking everyone's. Audree's own was wrong too, adopted in the sixties, a delivery room already hiding information. Years of thinking she was a generator. She's a projector, and her life made sense.

Eventually you transcend it. You just can't jump into transcendence. It's too destabilizing.

00:00 Cold Open Banter
00:28 Lions Gate Talk
02:03 Do You Need Astrology
06:38 Audrey Pushes Back
08:53 Training Program Sync
16:02 Daily Weather Trap
18:47 Use the Force
22:12 Discernment Matters
27:08 Mind Makes Stories
30:21 Jedi School Memory
32:06 Confronting the Subconscious
33:39 Awareness Unravels Patterns
35:00 Intention Versus Tools
35:20 Teachers and Partial Truths
36:34 Human Design Versus Astrology
39:45 Information for Consciousness Levels
42:37 Can We Skip Human Design
43:52 Birth Time Errors and Identity
47:15 Projector Transformation Accelerated
49:34 Transcending Design Over Time
51:40 Purification and Deconditioning
55:39 Support Structures for Change
57:47 Closing Protocol and Mantra