The spark is one line: the mind is not the enemy. You don't get rid of it, because energy can't be destroyed, only transmuted. The work is the mind coming to wholeness. Love the mind that's creating the challenge. That's the way through. The mind is afraid that if you do this work it dies. It doesn't. You become more you than ever. Awareness first, always.

When there's something correct for you to do and everything in you says no, no, no, that no is the thing to work through. The entrepreneur's hack is do it scared. Their teaching is the opposite. Don't do it scared. Clear the scared part, then do it. Sit in the chair, breathe into the block, a get-clear-a-thon, seven days if that's what it takes.

Michael has that exact thing in front of him. The channeled guidance, validated over and over, was to get his CV ready and look for work outside their own, because building this as entrepreneurs in startup mode is hard. He keeps starting and stopping. His dad starts poking at him. The crows start crowing, and Audree pulls out her crow tarot deck. The reading: you're not listening to the guidance. I'm not listening. He turns it into three sticky notes and names the pattern out loud for the first time without hating himself for it. I don't follow the guidance that's correct for me. Like there's a banana, an orange, and an apple on the table. Just what's there.

Tarot works because you say yes to communion, which is union. And you can only listen when you're clear. Listening is the root, the bottom of the evolutionary tree. This whole body of work was all listening, all downloads. It is why they are so fussy about words: we cast spells with words, and command of the language is command of creation.

Then the gas line breaks fifteen feet from the house. Michael stays neutral, looks it up, waits for the fireman, who says it's fine. Audree gets taken out and still functions, purse, wallet, computer, a cord, until a worker lights a cigarette by the leak and she goes off like a volcano. The practices don't spare you the fear response. They shorten the recovery.

It's always internal. The doing is a trick. You can work around the clock on the wrong thing because you never cleared the block. It's not about more effort. That's the whole Deviation trap.

00:00 Mind Not the Enemy
01:26 Healing Into Wholeness
03:29 Two Minds at War
06:02 Tools and Frequency Checks
07:25 Solution Mode Mindset
09:41 Change Inside First
10:37 Awareness and Consumption
13:18 Mind Fears Its Death
15:59 Movie Revolver Lessons
17:05 Working Through Resistance
19:45 Guidance to Job Search
24:03 Tarot and Synchronicity
28:14 Turning Readings Into Action
29:27 Naming Patterns Without Judgment
30:51 Words and Spelling Power
31:55 Words Shape Reality
32:24 Low Frequency Language Traps
33:36 Tarot High Priestess Lesson
34:57 Why Tarot Works
37:18 Listening Is The Root
38:37 Clear Fear Then Act
40:22 Nine Month Mind Training
41:43 Fear In Catastrophe Scenarios
43:49 Gas Leak Trigger Story
49:09 Practices For Fast Recovery
51:00 Internal Blocks Create Limits
52:46 I Ching Mantra Closing

Two weeks since the last podcast, their longest gap, and all of it a deep program of evolution: a summer of intense training, a couple of months of letting go of identity.

Everything you believe about the world is rooted in the perception that we are separate and limited, and it is anchored in the physiology, the neural networks, the brain. The shift now is not changing a belief but changing the entire root of all perspectives into a new perspective as source consciousness.

Awareness is the primary mechanism of evolution because it is the reprogramming mechanism for the mind: belief by belief at the beginning, and now holding the two opposing perspectives of reality simultaneously, limitation and lack in survival, and unlimited abundance, miracles, everything is possible. That is the tipping point: let go of the one, yes to the other, and the rewiring happens. There's no doing here, by the way. They are slowing down for the sake of integration, in the final phase of the component of the mind itself.

Holding the two is the core of unlearning, and where unlearning came from landed this morning on the podcast. Fitzgerald's line about holding two opposed ideas in mind and still functioning is a sound bite. The mechanics that keep us trapped in our limiting belief systems, operationalized, are their blue squares and green triangles on the flip chart, the mechanics of creation. The whole teaching exploded out of that drawing.

A friend who has known about this work for years and never dived in is in the hospital being diagnosed with stage four cancer before the test results are back, everybody around them saying you have cancer, you need chemo now. That is the limited perspective: the disease is real and can't be changed.

We create our own limitations by arguing for them. Believing in miracles doesn't remove the anchor keeping you trapped in that cancer; you go deep and surgically remove the limiting belief. Audree has been in those situations, instantaneous healing on herself and with other people, and what it takes is shifting into the possibility that something else can happen, and navigating the fear in everybody around you.

Scared, survival threatened, without your full intelligence, if you don't have the tools before that, you can't get the tools in that moment. Support and guidance and the healing process first, then the training. Complete the training before the shit goes down.

00:00 Back After A Break
00:40 Big Picture Evolution
03:16 Micro Vs Macro Change
05:54 Matrix Of Separation
08:54 Awareness And Tipping Point
12:31 Practical Abundance Shift
12:43 Moving Locations Noise
13:44 Mechanics Of Creation
16:48 Unlearning Origin Story
18:47 Beyond Sound Bites
19:54 Two Opposing Realities
20:22 Awareness Rewires Mind
22:37 Energetic Physical Psychology
23:21 Applied Mechanics Over Knowledge
25:27 Healing Beyond Limitation
26:30 Arguing For Limitations
30:40 Faith Healing History
33:16 Integration And Mind Components
37:18 Accelerating Purification Safely
38:59 Practice Before Crisis
42:42 Wrap Up And Farewell

Michael keeps circling a Billy Idol line, from Eyes Without a Face: "I've spent so much time believing all the lies to keep the dream alive." The lies are the misperception of what and who we are. Dream is a D word, The Deviation, our separation from the truth. Spell it backwards, sound it out: merde, French for shit. Our allegiance is to those lies.

Then Audree's ice cream story. The same mind that says this is so good, I've been good all week, another bite, is the same mind that says why did I eat all that, now I have to run three miles. Believe the first lie, then the second: that's the dream. You shouldn't let friends should on themselves.

And you can't think your way out. The knife cannot cut itself; the mind cannot free itself. The only exit is direct experience of the truth of what and who you are.

Then what landed this morning. Being source consciousness isn't the complete picture. It will take any experience, in or out of The Deviation. Human design is maybe twenty percent of your incarnation; beyond it is the sacred intention of your being, you on every plane, across all time and space, the soul inception crystal that chooses what to create. Anchored there, the mind has nowhere to go.

Audree has been finding there's no wolf to feed. No spoon either, and mid-sentence it lands on her: whoa, I just got that. You can't teach this, Ramana Maharshi found; you can only transmit it. Describe it and you dissipate it. You can just sit in the silence of nothing, where the thought comes but has no hooks or teeth.

Your life is the training program, and the you that you think you are is not the you that you are.
That's the dream, all that time spenep it alive. What there is instead is evolving, which is love spelled backwards.

00:00 Welcome and Intentions
00:33 Billy Idol Lyric Setup
02:10 Dream as Deviation
03:17 Dream Backwards Merde
05:07 Self Doubt Spiral
06:04 Ice Cream Mind Loop
08:57 Shoulding on Yourself
10:23 Beyond Thinking Direct Experience
12:25 Source Consciousness Shift
13:21 Human Design Limits
16:45 Sacred Intention Beyond Design
20:04 No Wolf No Spoon
21:35 Truth Within Beingness
24:05 Why You Cant Explain It
26:32 Silence Without Hooks
34:12 Beyond Mind Perception
38:22 Rightness And Creation Flow
43:13 Life As Training Program
45:39 Wholeness Ends Fractals
48:25 Students Pop Open Clues
49:32 Nothing To Figure Out
50:36 Evolve Love Your Being
52:05 Closing Beingness Practice

If we didn't need to make money, would we be doing this? Why put an article on LinkedIn, why even this podcast? The only reason to need to be seen or heard is survival. I need this love, this relationship, food, money, a job. Feel a lack in your life, that's survival right there. The background radiation is the ongoing fear, and the fear is about survival, because there's a separation: I'm alone, I have to survive.

Audree's awareness of the day: separation is part of creation. The tree starts from one seed. Creation moves from the void out and separates, yet we perceive that as bad, and the misreading is where the hidden hooks live, the shame and guilt that block your success for doing what creation does.

In relationships the survival drive spawns the gaming, the manipulation, the strategy, because you believe you need that connection to survive. The same drive scales into what Michael calls death by sameness, the standardization large organizations run in the name of consistency, which took away the intelligence of the individual.

It isn't for peace and stillness and oneness, Audree says: what you're being shown is the very thing that's sabotaging your success. Let's be clear, Michael says, it is how you are sabotaging your own success, and everybody in the pattern with you gets taken out too. Awareness is the primary mechanism of evolution, and what you hold in awareness starts dissolving on its own.

His realization from the last week: caring for others, seva, all of it is a gigantic trap, because the desperate need to help anybody else is the desperate need to complete your own journey. Swim in your own lane. Then he names his own stuck place as exactly that need, and reverses inside the same sentence: it has to be the other end, where he's the one being bailed out. He doesn't finish it. Being internally authentic with yourself, that stops the sabotage. You don't stop loving your children because they do certain things. You don't stop loving yourself.

00:00 Mic On Real Talk

00:20 Survival Drives Sharing

02:47 Fear And Separation

04:13 Creation Needs Separation

09:50 Relationship Survival Games

14:55 Belonging And Identity Traps

18:21 Sameness Kills Innovation

26:48 Get Honest With Yourself

30:18 Awareness Evolves You

34:38 Trauma Conditioning For All

36:31 Grounding And Self Mastery

42:22 Love Is Freedom

48:43 Authenticity Ends Sabotage

54:46 Mantra And Closing

The Lion's Gate is coming, there's an eclipse on the 12th, and neither of them is an astrologer. They catch this off little blips on YouTube like everybody else. The question is whether any of it is something you actually need to know.

Michael's answer is no. The last few eclipses moved consciousness for everybody and nobody had to prepare for them. Your life is your evolution program. The essence of the journey requires zero knowledge of planetary geometry. Not on the critical list. Not even on the should-have list. Maybe nice to have.

Audree's yes-and is that she uses it as validation, afterward. She'd been thirty days inside a training with their guides and only thought to ask when it ended. August 9th. Then she went looking and found the July transits, the Lion's Gate, the Pluto eclipse, all of it lining up with something she was already in. The solar system as one giant organic computer, supporting the shift of consciousness for humanity. You're still gonna be evolving whether you're aware of these things or not.

Michael used to read his daily human design weather to work out when to do what. Two things came of it: it was a lot of work, and his intuition was already pulling him wherever the design was opening anyway. So consulting it deepens your allegiance to the mind, which is the opposite of where he'd started ten minutes before. In Star Wars, Luke turns off the targeting system and goes by feel. Use the Force becomes listen to Source. And if you do go looking, discernment is its own advanced skill, sorry, because the knife can never cut itself.

Can we skip human design, then? Audree, flat: no. A student had said this doesn't feel like me, and her birthday had been read in the wrong date format. That sent them checking everyone's. Audree's own was wrong too, adopted in the sixties, a delivery room already hiding information. Years of thinking she was a generator. She's a projector, and her life made sense.

Eventually you transcend it. You just can't jump into transcendence. It's too destabilizing.

00:00 Cold Open Banter
00:28 Lions Gate Talk
02:03 Do You Need Astrology
06:38 Audrey Pushes Back
08:53 Training Program Sync
16:02 Daily Weather Trap
18:47 Use the Force
22:12 Discernment Matters
27:08 Mind Makes Stories
30:21 Jedi School Memory
32:06 Confronting the Subconscious
33:39 Awareness Unravels Patterns
35:00 Intention Versus Tools
35:20 Teachers and Partial Truths
36:34 Human Design Versus Astrology
39:45 Information for Consciousness Levels
42:37 Can We Skip Human Design
43:52 Birth Time Errors and Identity
47:15 Projector Transformation Accelerated
49:34 Transcending Design Over Time
51:40 Purification and Deconditioning
55:39 Support Structures for Change
57:47 Closing Protocol and Mantra

Michael comes in off a shower download and asks Audree to just let him ramble. He'd woken with the mind railing at him, you gotta go do this thing, you gotta go do this thing, and underneath it he found the mind running its model of right and wrong so it can feel safe. That took him back to the paradox that stopped him in the Shii session the day before. Sometimes it's right to ask for support, sometimes you have to do it yourself. Both true at once.

Their whole body of work has been about truing up your model so you make better choices with your mind. He asks where that ends. It can't. The mind is building a certainty large enough to cover all of creation, and creation is undefinable. "Our work is not truth. Our work is a cookbook."

So there's nothing to get right. There's just listening, the way the alien says it at the end of Disclosure Day. Audree holds that against their own curriculum, laser listening, listen to the system, and calls it crazy. She names the state it takes psychological safety. Michael won't take the term; in his own experience it's love of his being, and that is what lets the mind put it down.

Then he says it flat. "There is no such thing as meditation." He's never meditated in his whole life. He reads the dictionary definition out loud, focusing or clearing the mind, and calls it a hoax. Audree lists his transcendental meditation, his mantra, his chakra practice back at him and he doesn't move. Those are specific practices doing specific things to your energy. Calling one a meditation means you don't know what it's doing, like taking the car to the garage without knowing if it's the oil or the brakes.

Because the mind isn't the first thing to shift. It's the last. Audree has been in this since the early nineties, Reiki, pranic, theta, Barbara Brennan, India, and nobody ever told her that. The reason is physical. Neurons, synapses, a physiology primed to fire the old patterns. Bad headaches. Needing more sleep. And a brain still receiving from a collective she calls an ocean of shit we're swimming in.

Not shut off. Recovered, so it works. "The mind is the answer and the mind is the solution." It never goes away. It just has to stop grasping.

00:00 Living Room Intro

00:43 Waking Up Awareness

02:27 Mind Fear Loop

04:03 Paradox And Certainty

07:07 Cookbook Not Truth

08:47 Just Listen Create

11:09 Psychological Safety

19:15 Piecewise Understanding

21:10 Meditation Myth

25:20 Practices Not Mind

27:00 Meditation Misnomer

28:39 Vipassana Mind Myth

30:18 Rewiring The Brain

32:19 Collective Consciousness Pull

36:48 Purification Over Techniques

40:22 Dementia And Present Moment

43:44 Trust Direct Experience

47:45 Agile As Consciousness Shift

52:38 Closing In Complexity

"Welcome to our living room." They're mid-conversation about the myth that we use only 10% of our brain, and Audree teases Michael for stopping to look it up. But he's a stickler for a reason: in the work of understanding creation, even 0.01% falsehood is lethal, a hole in the field, and a whole field can't have holes. You are your spaceship; one leak and the air goes out.

The myth also gets it backwards. You use 100% of your brain; you just run it on the low frequencies of The Deviation, so you live less than 1% of your potential. It's not the brain that's limited, it's the power running through it. Fight or flight, cortisol and adrenaline keep the frequency low, so the real work is deep rest and letting go of the struggle, because struggle is resistance, and the intelligence comes in when you let go. It's anti-mind.

Which is why your environment matters: it mirrors your state and it sets your frequency. Clutter lowers it, and that's what IKEA sells, rooms staged as a complete mess to train you to buy, a windowless maze like a casino so you lose control. Cleaning up runs the other way: in detox you make your bed every morning, and Audree, folding garbage bags into a drawer, realizes she's folding them for God. Your body is your temple.

So what do you have except your potential? The catch is the mind loves what it has: it clings to that 1% and pretends it's great, ignoring all the suffering it caused, because there's safety in the known. To get your potential you let go of your not-potential, into the void, where there's nothing to grab onto. Even food is structure: when Audree went vegetarian, her ex-husband asked, "What about our relationship?" In The Deviation you're always in survival; evolve out and everything changes. They close with three minutes of deep rest. Let's be evolutionary.

00:00 Brain Myth Setup
00:44 Precision And Integrity
02:21 Clean Systems Metaphor
05:42 Origins Of 10 Percent
07:17 Potential Versus Usage
09:27 Hidden Brain Abilities
10:41 Frequencies Activate Capacity
12:59 Intuition And Direct Knowing
16:07 Calm Nervous System Unlocks
22:51 Daily Habits And Environment
28:11 Cleanliness And Self Love
29:05 Reading the Room
29:32 The Drawer Test
30:10 Clutter vs Wealth Energy
31:37 IKEA and Mess Marketing
33:04 Make Your Bed Detox
36:16 Maze Design and Control
38:22 Fraud Ads and Junk Buys
41:20 Energetic Self Protection
42:19 Potential and the Unknown
44:31 Void Before Creation
46:39 Food Identity and Connection
49:58 Letting Go to Evolve
50:52 Deep Rest Closing

Michael has spent the morning with the transcript of what the Shii said the day before, feeling into the mechanics of creation, and he sits at the mic still working it out loud. Partway in he stops cold: "I just found the loop." It has landed so fast that when they realize the stuck, uncomfortable place they were describing on the last podcast was only yesterday, he keeps repeating it, half in disbelief: "Was that yesterday? That's completely insane."

What he found: the cycle of creation runs from void to creation and back again, and in The Deviation it got halted, because we never take the experience all the way through. So we stay stuck in the same limiting experiences, running them again and again. "Sound like the hell state?" The loop isn't even a real thing on its own. It's what resistance leaves behind when you won't let an experience complete.

The way through is to take it all the way through, to the gratitude, letting go of the judgment, and then there's space for new creation. Gratitude here isn't the kind you think it is. It runs zero through a hundred levels and only deepens the more you purify. The Shii had told them not to force it: just notice you've been supported, and have been supported all along. Michael says the final mechanics go even past gratitude, but gratitude is what completes the experience, which completes the cycle.

Underneath it is Shiva, who in the old story beat out creation and preservation, because the only thing absolute is the void, and all creation is temporary. Breathe in, breathe out; it's the pause between that stays the same. The dreams say it too: Audree finally driving the Camaro that was her first car, after forty years of dreams where she never could; a house's foundation crumbling in another, moss and plants growing over bricks that can't hold the weight anymore and aren't meant to. Even their Shiva statue has gone green, the color of spring. None of it has landed anywhere yet. It's just the cycle, turning.

00:00 Mechanics of Creation

01:56 Love Based Awareness

04:48 Void to Creation Cycle

07:47 Driving Your Vehicle

10:43 Darkness Sparks Change

11:48 Growth and Transformation

16:53 Trauma as Experiment

18:06 Breaking the Trauma Loop

22:06 Healing Paths Converge

24:13 Gratitude and Support

27:56 Desire and Want Decoded

31:29 Nature Perfecting Itself

36:24 Shiva and the Void

42:44 Website and Resources

46:23 One Thread of the Work

50:29 Workplace and Organizations

53:20 Closing E2 Meditation

It was their nine-year anniversary yesterday, married in a temple in India about six months after they met, and neither of them said a word about it. Audree got some flowers, randomly; that was it. She can't stop poking at the avoidance. Nine is the last number in a cycle, so she knows the cycle is ending, and saying that out loud would make it real. Michael, it turns out, went just as quiet. Both of them chose not to touch it. "It wasn't just me." "I agree."

This is the part of the hero's journey, Audree says, that nobody shows you. The caterpillar goes into the chrysalis and completely melts, no structure, no identity, nothing to hold onto, and nobody warns you how uncomfortable that is. She's the Wicked Witch: "I'm melting. And then it's, oh shit, I don't wanna melt." Her whole body is burning up and at the same time it's all okay. In the movies the hard part is a dramatic episode that passes; the truer picture they land on is watching paint dry, or an ultramarathon at 3am where nobody's cheering, just you and your mind.

They keep circling what there is to hold onto and keep landing on nothing. Not the house they're being asked to give up. Not the version of the relationship built in the lower frequencies. Not even each other, once Michael catches that the other person was only ever a stand-in for loving your own self. Audree puts where she is at 98% melted, with 2% of her still sticking out of the vat going "wait, I was just kidding, I'm not dead yet." The question Michael asked her when they first met, are you ready to go all the way through, is still the only question.

There's no conclusion. Audree can't look forward; nothing will let her. What's left is sitting in the void with no structure, and a gratitude her old teacher in India said none of us actually understand yet.

00:00 Beatles Lyric Debate
01:05 Maharishi And The Beatles
02:24 Journey Home Awakening
03:03 Chrysalis Melting Phase
05:25 Anniversary Cycle Ending
12:04 Choosing Yes Matrix Moment
15:44 Inception Tangent
16:49 Darkest Times Real Yes
19:41 Silent Anniversary Co Creation
24:26 Ending Cycles And Death Gate
25:42 Riding Up And Down Waves
26:58 Gratitude For Nine Years
27:08 Gratitude and Letting Go
27:47 India Temple Anniversary
29:22 Arranged by the Universe
30:22 No Structure to Hold
31:48 Shiva Destroys Identity
35:19 Ramana Maharshi Breakthrough
38:39 Chrysalis Transformation Cycle
42:45 Creating Reality Under Pressure
44:38 Ready to Go Through
45:48 Letting Go of Everything
49:19 Mind as Safekeeping
53:06 Three Days of Darkness
55:11 Real Gratitude Frequency
56:47 Tune In Closing Practice

The Shii don't spare Audree and Michael: you're not using the tools, you're not taking action, you're disregarding the guidance. One question does the real damage. Maybe you don't want what's on the other side. So Michael turns inwards: what if this were true? Everyone is wondering why the work isn't more successful, and the answer is a hidden no, living in his own system, quietly blocking the very life he says he wants.

It starts in the movies. Reading his films as symbols of unprocessed trauma from past incarnations, he watches Grogu hide what and who he is for survival. Then there's the reluctant hero of Project Hail Mary, the only one who can go, who doesn't want to. That's him. Set up perfectly for the mission, hiding his brilliance, never quite feeling safe. Underneath it, lifetimes of persecution: heretics, witches, a man put on a cross and left as a reminder. Shine, and this happens to you.

From there the harder part. Michael catches the mind running two stories at once: I can't handle all that goodness, and I can't do what's required of me. Incoherent, and he's buying it. Underneath it, the mechanic: the mind is a deceiver keeping its job, and it would rather hold you in the known, however painful, than be out of work. Audree sees herself in a TV series, a woman sabotaging the success of the castle she was hired to save, just to stay.

The way through isn't fixing the mind. It's finding the yes. Audree offers her own: signing up for Barbara Brennan with no idea how she'd pay, and the ceiling that split open in a waterfall and freed her to go. A total yes, and creation organized itself around it. No one can free you. Not your guides, not your teacher. Only you can find the no, and choose the yes underneath it.

00:00 Sharing With Audrey

00:28 Thrashing From Guides

02:48 Night Mind Spiral

03:54 Waking Up To Movies

05:11 Movie Mirrors Trauma

08:43 Heroes And Oppression

12:36 Choice Points Awareness

14:48 Finding The Inner No

16:40 Guides Give Hints

21:56 Past Lives Facilitation

25:01 Healing Without Identity

30:12 Tools For The Job

32:27 Mind Fears Goodness

38:33 Trust The Process Story

43:17 Choosing Your Yes

46:41 Identity Blocks Healing

50:59 Status Quo Trap

52:56 Closing Blessing