This episode is also available as a blog post: http://fureverbeach.com/2021/09/17/beyond-lady-pandora-episode-10-turning-the-tables/

In this episode, I discuss what happened after leaving my first husband and how Lady Pandora came to be. When life is a dream and you are in a trance much of the time, it's very hard to advocate for yourself. It's like sleep walking. Your body is moving, things are happening, you are aware of some of it but it's like you see through a veil. You are detached. I talk about things I've gone through, things that have happened and many times, I've been told how strong I am. Strong? Not really. It's been scary, terrifying really and it has hurt so very deeply that I can only compare it to hurting so bad that you scream and scream until there is no sound, until your lips stop moving, until the screaming is entirely inside. The agony inside of me, it is invisible and sometimes it is veiled enough to almost ignore although it affects me and sometimes, it is raw. Sometimes, I can barely function.