This episode is also available as a blog post: http://fureverbeach.com/2021/09/06/beyond-lady-pandora-episode-9-the-lies-i-knew/

This episode covers more of my first marriage, my first adult female love and the ending of my first marriage. All episodes carry a general trigger warning. I'm missing key parts of my memory. For example, I know I was raped multiple times but I could not tell you when or how. I know who and I know for a fact it happened. I know that my first husband was a cheater and that I knew it beyond a shadow of a doubt. I could not tell you how I knew or when I found out. A majority of my life is like this. I got so used to people knowing me that I had never seen before that I developed an automatic reaction of pretending I knew them until I did. I did not want to be rude.