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  • Sugar Dating, Orgasmic Meditation and Rethinking Bipolar - Alice Huang Wijaya

    Alice has lived one of those lives that you would only think happen in movies. Born into a wealthy Chinese-Indonesian family, Alice struggled to connect with her parents and rebelled against their traditional expectations. She pursued a scholarship to Harvard, where she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and developed an interest in Neo Shamanism and alternative healing.

    In this episode, Alice shares how her involvement with the orgasmic meditation community allowed her to break free from conventional sexual beliefs and decondition herself at a deeper level. She also opens up about her experiences with sugaring which allowed her to challenge cultural norms and explore her own desires. Through her journey and recent experience with psychedelics, Alice has come to believe that mental health issues can be viewed as a superpower rather than a stigma.

    This candid conversation offers a glimpse into Alice's wild journey of self-discovery and the unconventional path she has taken. Her story is one that will make us rethink a lot of stigma around sexuality, gender and mental illness.

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    Alice Huang Wijaya a writer, multimedia storyteller, and tech professional with a degree from Harvard, focusing on Neo Shamanism. Her work has been featured in Vice, Rice Media, and The Edge, covering a range of topics from technology, cryptocurrency, gender to sex and underground culture. She recently won a literature award from Singlit Bootcamp in 2020, received a fiction deal from Penguin and currently working on her debut novel, The American Dream.

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    1 hr 4 min
  • Finding Joy and Purpose Through Reconnection with Nature

    Damien Masselis is the founder of Pai Seedlings Foundation, author of Manifest of Inner Ecology and expert in soil regeneration. Damien believes in the power of reconnecting with nature as a solution to our socioeconomic and ecological problems, as well as our psycho-spiritual well-being.

    Damien shares his journey from corporate dissatisfaction to finding joy and purpose through his travels in Asia and close connection with nature and community. He recounts how his path of surrender led him to purchase a barren land in Thailand, and how he transformed it into a thriving permaculture business and community by embracing his passion for environmental education and nature-inspired lifestyles.

    In this episode, Damien shares his insights on the importance of understanding our connection to nature, the relationship between soil health and human health, and how we are all part of the larger web of life. He challenges us to rethink our consumerist mindset and focus on how we can contribute to the greater good by tapping into our inner nature and working towards our purpose.

    Connect with Damien:

    * https://www.seedlings-foundation.org

    * IG: @pai.seedlings.foundation, @damien.p.masselis

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    1 hr 2 min
  • Finding Joy and Purpose Through Reconnection with Nature

    Damien Masselis is the founder of Pai Seedlings Foundation, author of Manifest of Inner Ecology and expert in soil regeneration. Damien believes in the power of reconnecting with nature as a solution to our socioeconomic and ecological problems, as well as our psychospiritual well-being.

    Damien shares his journey from corporate dissatisfaction to finding joy and purpose through his travels in Asia and close connection with nature and community. He recounts how his path of surrender led him to purchase a barren land in Thailand, and how he transformed it into a thriving permaculture business and community by embracing his passion for environmental education and nature-inspired lifestyles.

    In this episode, Damien shares his insights on the importance of understanding our connection to nature, the relationship between soil health and human health, and how we are all part of the larger web of life. He challenges us to rethink our consumerist mindset and focus on how we can contribute to the greater good by tapping into our inner nature and working towards our purpose.

    Connect with Damien:

    • https://www.seedlings-foundation.org
    • IG: @pai.seedlings.foundation, @damien.p.masselis
    • Follow Beyond The Matrix: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix

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      1 hr 2 min
    • Transcending Identity To Taste Life's Limitless Possibilities - Tom Slater

      Tom Slater is a truly unique individual whom you can’t put into the box with a wealth of wisdom to share. I had the privilege of participating in a life-changing retreat led by Tom, where I was shown the true potential of our being and the ways in which our identities hold us back from fully experiencing the vastness and beauty of life.


      Tom shares his personal journey of overcoming addiction, physical abuse, and multiple identities, and how this has led to a deeper understanding and connection with himself, others, and the world around him. We discuss will vs nature, the shadow side of spiritual community, alchemizing pain, letting the universe work through us and gently leaning into our boundaries to access the intelligence within them.


      This is not about mastering life, but about being mastered by it and allowing it to flow through us. This episode is an inspiration for all of us to explore the depths of ourselves and to fully taste all the beauty life has to offer.


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      Learn about Tom's work: https://dojolife.me/



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      1 hr
    • How Food Connects Us to Each Other and The Planet - Evan Rilling

      There is so much more to food than just for gastronomic pleasure or physical sustenance. Evan Rilling, once a personal chef to Will Smith and a now master of healthy farm-to-table cousins, passionately shares the true potential of food in connecting us with our roots, community, and mother nature. Having cooked for multiple retreat centers and built a local food forest in Bali, Evan has witnessed how involving people in the process of growing food can not only be healing but can also be the key for people to truly care about the planet. 


      In this intimate episode, we dive into Evan’s personal journey of overcoming a personal crisis and how it led him to evolve his role beyond just a chef but the builder and healer of connections through food. We discuss how food can be the access point to one’s spiritual journey, the disconnection in the modern industrialized world, and remembering the part of us that used to live, hunt, and cook as a tribe.


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      Connect with Evan:


      Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/freestylekitchen/


      Get Evan's latest cookbook RetrEAT: https://thehealthyhomechef.com/#




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      56 min
    • A Hyper Achiever's Journey To Feeling Enough - Jourdan Hussein

      With an MBA from Standford and Oxford, a cofounder of award-winning nonprofit, worked as an AI ethicist, and at the Executive Office of the  President, Jourdan Hussein is the epitome of a hyper achiever Indonesian. Underneath the golden CV, however, were shadows Jourdan was really good at running away from. At his first Ayahuasca ceremony, he was forced to face his inner-wound head-on. This has led him on a deep healing path which got him to finally connect with his body, face his trauma, and eventually quit the rat race. Today, Jourdan is a certified breathwork facilitator and executive coach to post-series A tech CXOs with a mission is to help fellow hyper achievers out there to connect to their core needs: love and belonging.


      In this episode, Jourdan shared his journey of finally realizing the real needs beyond all the never-ending achievements he pursued: to be loved unconditionally. We discussed the secret and cost of overachieving, the toxic comparison culture, how to become our own parents, and acting from the place of wholeness.


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      Connect with Jourdan:



      • Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/jkhuzzein/

      • Website: https://jkhussein.com/


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      1 hr 4 min
    • Gang Rape, Domestic Violence And Turning Pain into Power - Sasha Muria

      WARNING: this episode contains graphic depictions of violence and sexual abuse.

      Living the dream in Bali as a model, artist, and writer, Sasha looks like someone who's blessed with a good look, life, and talents. Except that she has gone through one of the darkest times anyone could ever imagine. She has been homeless, eating out of the bins, suicidal, survived domestic violence and multiple sexual assaults. In this episode, Sasha has come forward to share a deeply raw recount of her past in public for the first time. You'll hear no bars hold stories of her abusive relationship with her parents, suicide attempts, and how she's gang-raped.

      Through it all, we discussed the complex systemic issue that leads to women's abuse, how her soul might have chosen to go through this path and her journey in transforming her pain into acceptance, forgiveness, and power.

      What we covered:

      • 3:21 Our humanity behind the shop window
      • 7:28 Growing up with violence and toxic male role model
      • 15:51 Forgiving a father and the necessary pain our soul chose
      • 20:59 Society frames women as the scapegoat
      • 24:39 Gang-raped
      • 39:29 The social norms that perpetuate violence against women
      • 44:31 Suicide and reclaiming power
      • 52:15 Women to build themselves and embrace the dark feminine
      • 58:16 Integrity to oneself and making collective change
      • Connect with Sasha Muria: Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sashamuria/

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        1 hr 3 min
      • Bridging The Spiritual And Material World - Jessica Harris

        Having suffered from depression since the age of 6, battled with alcoholism, ADHD, and addiction, Jessica almost gave her life up until she discovered spirituality. Meditation, plant medicine, sacred ceremonies, chakra dance, you name it, she's got her hands on everything through her deep healing journey and got lost many times in between. Through immense pain, she learned to break away from societal expectations and feel whole from within through an integrated spiritual life. She now combined what she's learned with her upbringing in Singapore to bridge the spiritual and material world. She's made her mission to help spiritually gifted and sensitive women, to bring their gifts into manifestation


        We discuss the beauty of sacred ceremonies in reminding us of what we've lost in modern society, how spirituality can be a new addiction and escapism, the power of community in walking each other home, and surrendering to deep pain in order to birth deep joy.


        What we covered:



        • 2:08 Depression at the age of 6

        • 7:30 When pain outweighs the fear of change

        • 14:29 Recovery and surrendering control

        • 17:04 The journey into plant medicine

        • 22:49 The power of community and feeling seen

        • 26:44 The sacred beauty of ceremonies

        • 36:37 Proving to feel worthy

        • 40:36 Spirituality as the new addiction

        • 48:37 Deep pain and deep joy

        • 53:00 Soul-led movement and businesses

        • 1:01:03 Key takeaways


        Connect with Jessica Haris: 



        • Instagram: https://instagram.com/jessicaharris.love

        • Website: www.jessicaharris.love


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        • Youtube: https://linktree.com/beyondthematrix

        • Telegram: https://t.me/beyondthematrixshow



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        1 hr 7 min
      • From VP of a Multimillion Dollar Company to Serving Humanity with Water Filters - Jeroen Van Overbeek

        If you ever think you're late to make a change in your life, Jeroen's story will prove you wrong. Having climbed to the top of the corporate ladders and led a multimillion-dollar business, Jeroen Van Overbeek decided to leave it all behind at 40 in pursuit of a greater purpose. He now runs Social Impakt, a social enterprise in Indonesia with the mission to improve access to clean drinking water in local communities. To date, he has raised $300K and donated over 11,000 water filters to the struggling locals during the Earthquake in Lombok and Covid crisis.


        We discuss how he came home to his heart, the doubt-filled transition process, the world of social enterprise, and why clean water access can literally change the lives of the people at the bottom of the pyramid:


        2:28 What inspired Jeroen to do what he's doing


        10:19 Abundance is not a destination


        14:53 The transition process


        21:00 Why clean water access changes lives


        30:00 The magic behind the portable water filters


        35:23 Pure intention as a competitive edge


        40:20 Balancing impact and revenue


        52:32 Comparison and trusting our own path


        58:11 Empathy can be cultivated


        1:01:00 Key takeaways 


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        Connect with Jeroen: https://www.instagram.com/socialimpakt/


        Website: www.social-impakt.com


        Donate the Jeroen's fundraiser for the water filters: https://donorbox.org/clean-water-for-bali




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        1 hr 8 min
      • Breaking The Rules of Society in Gender and Sexual Identity - Jean Ilyria

        Ever wonder what it feels like living in the wrong body your whole life? Jean shares a candid story on the journey to her freedom as a trans woman, challenging the rules of society and why she's so driven to fight for visibility for the trans community. We discuss the different layers of the matrix that exists in the society - how a seemingly accepted identity is still based on certain standards imposed on us, and dive into the fluidity of gender identity, sexual orientation, and gender expression. Jean was forced to live in the gender matrix her whole life and eventually defied the pressure to shine in her full color. Her story is definitely one that inspires us to question the narratives prescribed to us so we can be our own author and write our story.


        Jean is the APAC lead of the Trans@Google Global Steering Committee, the founder of Trans.Lucent - a community support group for Indonesian trans-folks, and a moderator of 2 international trans communities. She's a full-time Growth Manager at Google for mobile app publishers in Southeast Asia and a part-time mermaid, gamer, and cosplayer.




        What we discussed:



        • 3:06 How Jean is advocating for trans rights at Google

        • 6:59 Importance of representationImportance of representations Trans people always portrayed in negative light

        • 12:34 Coming out to her mom and the privilege of developing independence

        • 22:19 Love trumps what people think of us

        • 28:23 Living in fear before the transition

        • 37:02 The courage to fight for freedom

        • 41:47 Gender identity, sexual orientation and gender expression

        • 44:36 Compassion over comprehension

        • 50:17 Happiness and life after transition

        • 53:48 the small thing that means the world

        • 1:00:00 F*ck society and takeaways




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        Connect with Jean: https://www.instagram.com/jean.illyria/


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        1 hr 5 min

      About Beyond The Matrix

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      Have you ever wondered if this is all there is in life? What lies beyond what we were made to believe? In this podcast we're going to uncover real human stories of those have taken the courage to go…