bipolar is a solution to the ego and mediocrity part of this is creating new words or terms partly to get rid of stigma in a way but not just equivalent terms so I i saw that PTSD was changed to operational stress injury so that's sort of like an equivalent right whereas i would say that you could also make extra valence meaning bipolar disorder is like a disease whereas i see it actually as a gift and strength so if i was to change it to something else i might say hacking mania implying it something that you want even though it stems from a supposed mental illness as it is interpreted by society and psychiatry it's one thing to transform words into equivalence and it's another thing to transform them into extra valence in order to show that there are dimensions beyond the pathology I could say that I'm extra polar I have more polls I don't think I just have to low and high I'm not like an on and off switch and I thought of kind of a joke I thought of if I'm bipolar does that make so-called normal people homopolar can I call normal people homopolar I'm curious about these Homo Polar's they're so consistent and afraid they always act the same in public but I'm sure they go home and cry about it later I used to be homopolar myself now i'm omnipotent houma Polar's tell me about being omnipotent yet transitioned the universe is making us trans polar just as people can have a sex change people can also have a change in consciousness the ego can be surgically removed by the universe this is part of the evolution of consciousness we're getting into connection with the inner human dimensions we used to have when we were children the celebration body the silly body the laughter body the inside body the learning body and then we arise as those inner human dimensions which is multi-dimensional not this unit dimensional ego thought image sound structure altered states of consciousness are multi-dimensional where the ego consciousness is Uni mentation ille it's thinking all the time along the same lines thinking about itself and that is in itself an illusion because there's no self to think about there is thought thinking about itself and I remember reading in the book the politics of experience by already laying that psychosis is necessary that's why it happens and I wonder what would make psychosis not necessary what would make it so we don't need psychiatry because nobody goes into psychosis I think it has something to do with the fact that reality sucks and we have to create it to not suck by being are embodied manic selves i'm omnipotent it took a while to learn how to steer normal people their consciousness is like an atari game it's like just like a joystick like yes no maybe so right wrong good bad up down left right and there's a lot more gears and controls when we get in touch with manic consciousness if there was a constitution for people with bipolar disposition I'm sure one of the amendments would be the right to bare buns I also realized I was talking before probably several times about allostatic load which I learned about from dr. Daniel Siegel and how certain stressors add up and it can accumulate as what's called a low static lobe which is just basically an accumulation of stress and it's different for different people and certain people are more you know resilient than others but I came to a realization the other day that certain people are actually allostatic load for me like just being around them kind of feels like and I'm sure I'm that way for some people as well so it's interesting it's like certain people resonate with certain people and certain people actually increase one's allostatic load and then certain people actually decrease it I was actually just thinking now that a psychiatrist who give someone a diagnosis just basically throws on a huge allostatic load of the collective of what that means and the implications of that so that is not good and that could be one of the things about the diagnosis is and that's why I don't agree necessarily with it because it increases one's allostatic load when it's already in a compromised place so to be in that distress place and then have that put on it's so close to game over for so many people at that point for some people it is so really emotional CPR and things like that would be so helpful to not be pathologized and maybe at some point it would be good to be pathologized but not right away it seems like bipolar disposition goes from a state of a low static lightness having a way less stress than a normal ego consciousness would and then to allostatic load where everything feels dark and heavy and I feel part of that is the collective and somebody told me a quote and it was a Carl Jung quote and it was paraphrased he didn't know it word for word but he said that Carl Jung said that loneliness isn't the lack of people around you it is lack of opportunity to say things that are meaningful to you and I wrote that down because that's what I'm doing on these videos as I'm speaking about things that are meaningful to me and just to myself in self dialogue and that's mainly because I don't have a consistent person I can talk to all the time about this I am NOT in the financial position at this moment to pay someone to talk to me and even if I did it would be a very slow process over weeks and weeks like an hour a week maybe for like weeks and weeks and weeks whereas I can talk to myself anytime I want so I guess I'm just saying that saying meaningful things doesn't necessarily mean to have to talk to somebody I can just talk to myself and maybe that's better than nothing I also thought about how thought is usually recognizing the past and that's lack of a quark sensation because we're not really thinking oh that's the past be quiet we let it go on we let it affect us we let it affect our physiology and so that lack of X fork sensation actually increases allostatic load we're overloading ourselves with information from the past and it makes it more difficult to deal with information and the present moment and Krishnamurti talks about in one of his videos about how it's not about how to stop thought he said it's about how to not record and so I thought of how recording is allostatic load if we're recording stuff it's going to be heavy in our system whereas if we don't it just passes through us he does talk about how in order to not record one has to be very alert and aware and attentive to the moment I wrote down a while ago that another term for psychosis could be curious subconscious discovery time I feel like I'm attempting to recreate my life energy as relational not egocentric so it's worldcentric development or orientation of consciousness and that relates to the relational mind that relates to oxytocin and bonding personal development implies isolation in a way a flower doesn't think I'm going to personally develop it still develops into something but it requires to be related to bees and air and sunlight and dirt and soil microorganisms or to say I'm going to personally develop is kind of silly I mentioned in other videos the word ability shin and i came across the word habilitation with an h and and it actually means assisting a child with achieving developmental skills when impairments have caused delaying or blocking of initial acquisition of skills and I feel like map consciousness is coming in to help a person develop skills certain behavior patterns certain ways of being that are actually what is there when the ego is scrambled so this energy this manic consciousness is habilitation yet psychiatry comes in and blocks that so it actually blocks the habilitation it's blocking the transformation is blocking the trends consciousness and a person in trans consciousness can eventually integrate both the other consciousness and the ego consciousness within that consciousness not mistaking itself for the ego consciousness and not mistaking that dimension as what is driving life I saw an email from Jason Silva and he said the new billionaire will attempt to reach out and touch the lives of a billion people and if it's true the one out of five people develop a so-called mental illness that means that if I were to reach a billion people it would be half of the people with mental health stuff or maybe not all people with mental health stuff but people that support people with mental health stuff and mania and psychosis is the universe playing different music through us we hear different music we hear different sound and we behave in different ways the stuff I've talked about about safety in my videos it's like being prepared for the inner earthquake it shakes up the inner it's like the ground that we walk on is not the most fundamental thing there's plates underneath and those are moving and they can shake and shake up the stuff on the surface and is shaking of the ego in order to orient us towards world centricity normality is the misuse of the mind body heart as it unfolds in time and mania tries to reteach us how to use it tries to get us to remember by stopping it'll be cool to create something like a visionary Learning Alliance so we can just continue to learn together I'm interested in what's possible not solving problems this is a learning conversation with myself I have another word transformation mental health system goes to mental health system

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