The road lies dark behind her. Only the light from the gas station cuts a pale rectangle into the night. A truck hums somewhere behind the building. A man sits outside the entrance with a paper cup in his hand.
“Been on the road long?” he asks.
“For a while.”
He nods, as if that were answer enough.
I like that about them. Not every question has to lead somewhere.
He looks over at my car.
“Still far to go?”
For a moment, I look out at the dark road.
“Depends on when I arrive.”
He gives a short laugh.
“I know the feeling.”
Of course he doesn’t.
And yet I understand what he means.
That is one of the reasons I keep coming back.
A very long time ago, I sat with others around a fire. No one there would have understood the word vacation. Still, they made room for me.
Later, I shared a table at an inn with people whose names I have long forgotten. Someone played music. Someone sang badly. Nobody minded.
Centuries later, I stood in a crowded room and danced with strangers until none of us felt like strangers anymore.
Different faces.
Different languages.
Different music.
The same echo.
I have watched families come and go. Villages, cities, roads. I have eaten with people, celebrated with them, danced with them, loved them, and sometimes simply sat beside them.
They make something shared out of very little.
A fire.
A table.
A song.
A dance.
A television people gather around.
A bottle passed from one hand to another.
A place someone makes for you.
A “stay a little longer.”
On my own world, there is closeness. Order. Belonging.
But not this strange human warmth that seems to exist precisely because everything can disappear again.
Maybe that is what I miss there.
Not sadness.
Melancholy.
The memory of something while it is still happening.
The man empties his cup and gets to his feet.
“Safe travels.”
“You too.”
He grins.
“I’m not going anywhere.”
I smile.
Sometimes that is enough.
Then I walk back to the car.
No one looking at me would ever guess that my home lies beyond more than an unimaginable distance. Space would be easy.
To return there, I have to leave time itself.
Maybe that is why Earth never feels truly far away.
I was here before this road existed.
I will come back when it is long gone.
Not to search for an origin.
I don’t care where it began.
I come for its reflections.
For all the different ways people keep finding one another.
I get back into the car with Jonathan. He is sitting in the passenger seat, staring thoughtfully out of the window.
The radio keeps playing as I pull back onto the road.
Behind me, the light of the gas station grows smaller.
Then it disappears.
The echo remains.
For a while, neither of us says anything.
Then Jonathan smiles.
“What?”
“I was just thinking about an evening at a friend’s place. Nothing really happened. There were a few of us. We ate, the TV was on, someone fell asleep on the couch. Somebody got into an argument about something completely pointless.”
“And you’re thinking about that now?”
“Yeah.” He looks out of the window again. “Back then it was just some ordinary evening. Now I’d like to sit there one more time.”
“With the same people?”
“Maybe.”
He thinks for a moment.
“Or maybe just with that feeling.”
“What feeling?”
“That nobody needed to be anywhere else.”
I know that feeling.
Not his evening.
But that kind of closeness that happens when people are simply together. When nobody has to do anything special for many separate lives to become something shared for a little while.
“It’s strange,” Jonathan says. “You never notice when something is important while it’s happening.”
“Maybe you’re not supposed to.”
“You think?”
“Maybe noticing would ruin it.”
He smiles and looks out of the window again.
For a moment, nobody needs to be anywhere else.