In this episode Amanda and I talk about how my way of relating to others changed drastically overnight, following my sudden breakdown, several years ago.

I didn't realise that I was severely traumatised and the way I absorbed events changed, too. It felt as though I was wading through constant fog. Life felt impossibly difficult, confusing and deeply frightening. That is also how I began to feel about most of my relationships at the time.

Struggling to communicate to others what was happening to me and being unable to conduct myself as before caused alienation on both sides. Some people withdrew from me while I pushed away most of the others.

I try to describe the situation back then, to Amanda and she is surprised to find what an important role complete strangers played in my life. We also touch on how I am building new friendships after a long period of emotional isolation.