To add, the term 'body count' is awful to me, I value highly sexual intimacy and sexual acts with another. People to me are not disposable products. Also when I say low value in the audio I want add, doing something so frequently without forethought, mindlessly more out of habit or addiction without conscious awareness is a low value action/activity to me.

I have a new podcast I've been following, it's about men. I want to learn all I can to help me become a better partner. This episode about body counts and why it matters to men really activated me. The gate keeping and self victimizing triggered me into a response. And as usual, when I speak from my heart space I can even give myself a soft space to grow. In a matter of minutes my one way thoughts become inclusive of other perspectives.

I have a past, you do also. We're here in front of each other in relationship, how I see it, is we leveled up for new lessons or new tools to help with older stories.

Thanks for being here~

'cause I don't know what I'm doing

learning about myself and relationships and laughing along the way

are my favorites~