Bcomingundone

A new poem birthed from darkness, my instincts proved correct, smoke and mirrors singed from a fire, burned are the old parts she no longer needs...

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Realized p.i.v. intercourse, coitus, without heart connection is draining. Spending less time in my fantasy world. Now hold attention and presence with other like minded sexual emotional weirdos also seeking partnership. I believe other when he says I don't want a partnership, don't want to date, and those that can keep love and sex separate. No longer have a place in me that thinks I'm the exception, he'll change his mind. No longer afraid I won't have good sex. No longer afraid a partnership will include boring vanilla sex. I sense a conscious partnership will include sex beyond my imagination. And right now things are ok.

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Psyche, the subconscious mind sent me a song to listen to. Zero by Smashing Pumpkins. Do others get depressed around their birthday? Really can't remember a birthday I was happy to have, why do I choose as if I'm unworthy; Inner examination. "Emptiness is loneliness...and God is empty just like me." Wanna go for a ride?

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If you haven't hear the previous episode, go listen it's brief. This morning instead of the usual desired vanilla morning sex I crave after an intense evening, this morning my fantasy is gentle, non-sexual, a double rainbow cry how others can take me to see beautiful vistas, I desire to help support taking some chores off his plate~ Thanks for being here

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Session was another intense experience, they kept coming. Mini share.

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Wowie, not in tents but an INTENSE experience. For the mature. Part of the autism is my ability to be in and with fantasy. Connection with another not only becomes a shared experience and it shows me it wasn't a figment of my fanciful imagination! One day a gentle shared sleepy conclusion of an intense experience, until then I welcome and enjoy the experiences now. Thanks for being here~

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Deepak Chopra said ego stands for edging God out. I'm in a dark night of the soul this time it's around my sexual shadow. This hurts, ego is very large here.

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Refraining romantic relationships. I found a rick "Beware Advantage- if you take it, it is yours and all that comes with it. Otherwise leave it." I took it and have been receiving good or bad? It was an easy choice. Years ago I would've thought twice then blamed the thing.

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How to say you like effing a girl but don't like her without having to say you like effing a girl but don't like her...I've started to learn to hold space when a negative thought arises. You try it, some personal growth. Thanks for being here I think I lost my oy! recording- bummer.

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Witnessing the line of where I could give up. A disappointment, seconds before the phone date it was already over. I'm receiving what I am believing, at least if I continue to stay where I am at I will continue to get the same. Rejection isn't easy regardless if I'm receiving or delivering. Oddly I feel "love" rising to meet me.

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