Realized some people consciously turn parts of themselves away in order to prevent attachment. Since I'm the level of the company I keep, I open my circle to include fearless people in order to learn and practice fearlessness. My drop drag, to slow drops is extreme self care, meditation! Come here you, sit and be with me!

An anonymous share, someone shared his writing with me and had impact. Going to be a rough winter, I am concerned and leaning on my positive tools... I'm curious about you- LR po box 1407 Lake Stevens, WA 98257

A man shared he's seeking partnership- my body reacted favorably, these men do exist! I'm sick and it's the nyquil. LR Po box 1407, Lake Stevens, WA 98258

Time crunch before I'm homeless. Jeep starter and battery a few weeks ago. Rv issues. New batteries. Looks like the starter. Oh no. No keys to hood compartment. Oh no. No mobile techs. Time crunch. Found a mechanic will get a tow. Oh no. Hydraulic jacks stabilizing system only works while motorhome is running. Fak. Nervous system collapse means extra care and I've still managed to connect with my gratitude. Would've been nice to have leaned on a partner for support and in turn I would help him. Only a puzzle and now open to solutions. I could use a I care card, a note of hello :) even donation would be appreciated. Po box 1407 lake stevens 98258

Finally sunk in, emotions are essentially a chemical byproduct of neural connectivity- men are wired to have feelings. Culturally they've been denied this part of them. I have so much compassion for you!

A quick share, dream thoughts a d the actual recording-.theta thoughts! Astral'gasm idea and disconnected sex.

Mood I'm in today while integrating an ego decay- Thank you for being here♡ send a love note or appreciation or donate $ :) po box 1407 Lake Stevens Wa 98258

A new poem birthed from darkness, my instincts proved correct, smoke and mirrors singed from a fire, burned are the old parts she no longer needs...

Realized p.i.v. intercourse, coitus, without heart connection is draining. Spending less time in my fantasy world. Now hold attention and presence with other like minded sexual emotional weirdos also seeking partnership. I believe other when he says I don't want a partnership, don't want to date, and those that can keep love and sex separate. No longer have a place in me that thinks I'm the exception, he'll change his mind. No longer afraid I won't have good sex. No longer afraid a partnership will include boring vanilla sex. I sense a conscious partnership will include sex beyond my imagination. And right now things are ok.

Psyche, the subconscious mind sent me a song to listen to. Zero by Smashing Pumpkins. Do others get depressed around their birthday? Really can't remember a birthday I was happy to have, why do I choose as if I'm unworthy; Inner examination. "Emptiness is loneliness...and God is empty just like me." Wanna go for a ride?