Realized p.i.v. intercourse, coitus, without heart connection is draining. Spending less time in my fantasy world. Now hold attention and presence with other like minded sexual emotional weirdos also seeking partnership. I believe other when he says I don't want a partnership, don't want to date, and those that can keep love and sex separate. No longer have a place in me that thinks I'm the exception, he'll change his mind. No longer afraid I won't have good sex. No longer afraid a partnership will include boring vanilla sex. I sense a conscious partnership will include sex beyond my imagination. And right now things are ok.