Bookends of Recovery and Healing: Addiction, Betrayal Trauma & Healing

Sometimes you don’t realize how much of yourself you’ve lost until little pieces of you start coming back.

In this episode, I’m talking about the slow erosion of self that can happen when so much of your energy is spent navigating someone else’s emotions, behaviors, and recovery. I share what that looked like for me, how I began questioning my own worth, and what I’m noticing now, two months into separation.

Because while some old betrayal trauma triggers have resurfaced, something else has been showing up too: me.

Turns out, she was still in there. And she’s starting to get pretty fing loud.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

Sometimes progress doesn’t mean the alarm stops sounding. It means we respond differently when it does.

In this episode, I share a recent experience with my ex that brought back an old, familiar pattern: breadcrumbs of information, fear, anger, and that instinct to respond when the alarm sounds.

The feelings still came. My body still reacted. But this time, I maintained my boundaries, worked through my emotions, and made different choices.

That’s progress.

🌻 Visit Bookends of Recovery & Healing for more resources on betrayal trauma, addiction recovery, and emotional sobriety.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

In this episode, I walk through an old group exercise and update it to help you learn how to reframe and manage negative thoughts. Also includes a free worksheet. 

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

A guided mindfulness exercise for moments when anger or resentment feels heavy. Using breathing and a gentle body scan, we’ll slow down and notice how those feelings are showing up in your mind and body.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

Today we’re talking about why physical distance doesn’t always make emotional boundaries easier and what I’m learning about healthy detachment during separation.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

Today, we'll use a simple visualization to help you step back from the stress you may be carrying and gently return to the present moment.

Stress has a way of pulling us away from ourselves.
Together, we'll use the breath to find our way back.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

When fear tries to stop us or the negative voice starts chiming in our heads, we can combat it with these two tools: Playing the Script Until the End and The Stop Sign. 

Be sure to tune in next week for the guided meditation here and on YouTube.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

It’s no secret that I’ve made about kabillion mistakes on my journey to emotional sobriety, and one of them included my amends.

Initially, I wanted to apologize to everyone. Like, every single person imaginable. Where’s that cross? Let me fall on it.

But that’s not teaching me anything, is it? That’s an easy way to get everyone I’ve hurt (real or imagined) off my list. Learn why some apologies are better to wait on...or not make at all.

Free Workbook:

https://www.bookendsofrecovery.com/s/Before-You-Say-Im-Sorry.pdf

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

Join me for this calming guided meditation, designed to help you gently let go of what may be weighing you down as you imagine yourself beside a gently flowing river.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.

After my second disclosure, I spent a lot of time online. Some might say an unhealthy time online. Those some would be my counselor and my husband’s CSAT. They weren’t wrong.

During that time, I remember seeing a lot of disagreements about boundary agreements. People agreed that boundaries were necessary for someone’s well-being, but not much about written boundary agreements.

In today's episode, I share about my experience with boundaries and a written boundary agreement.

If you have any questions, please let me know.  If links aren't working, please try searching my new website.

Sending everyone happy and healthy vibes,

Laura

Please note: This podcast is for education only and is not a replacement for therapy. I suggest you seek the help of a trained professional for your specific situation. Here are some resources to help you get started.