Broken to Brave

Some of the items are very straightforward and there's a clear reason it's on the list. For this one, there are so many reasons. I had to get past the financial fears, taking resources for myself, going somewhere alone, wearing workout clothes in public, and on and on which is why I did number 30 on the list... Rejoined the Gym.

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Grief is brutal. Just when you think you're through the worst part and are back on your feet, a wave hits and you're swept back in the water. I avoided going back because I didn't want to relive that horrible experience the day my dad died. I didn't want to relive the days that followed. I didn't want to feel my mom's loneliness and pain on top of my own at a time where I was barely hanging on. I didn't want her silence. I didn't want a cold shoulder. But what I did want was closure and peace and the only way to reach that was by doing number 29 on my list...I Went back.

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One of the harshest realities that I have ever had to face is that sometimes we are born into a family we don't belong in. Sometimes we stay longer than perhaps we should have because we so desperately want to make it not be so. There are so many more opportunities to fix it, right? Maybe if I just do this one thing they will see my value. Yet, they never do. I lost way too many years fighting to be seen by people who were determined to not see me. At this point, I had walked away from all of them except for my mom. I knew I couldn't heal by avoiding our strained relationship so this led me to number 28 on the list... Called My Mom.

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As hard as some of the items on my list have been, it's times like these that really made me question why I ever started this project! I was making progress, by once again getting paid, so I could see how the list was changing me and changing our lives, but I was seriously beginning to question why I was such a glutton for punishment and torturing myself by doing things like number 27 on the list... acted in a commercial.

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I listened to the tape recorder in my head that repeated what my abusers used to tell me. As a result, I allowed the voices of the people who surrounded me and truly loved me to be drowned out. My therapist had me do an exercise where I asked people to tell me my most positive qualities in order for me to realize that what I had been hearing and believing wasn't true about me. It was their insecurity, jealousy, etc. projected onto me. This was an absolutely terrifying exercise. It was embarrassing and personal and awkward. I knew I had to do it in order to heal and that's how I found myself doing number 26 on my list... Accepted Positive Personal Feedback.

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I had a lot to overcome to accomplish this step. I had tremendous guilt about taking/using resources whether that was material goods, money, time, etc. I was stuck in a scarcity mindset. I also held myself to a standard that I would never expect others to live up to, yet I expected myself to do it no matter the cost. I forced myself to "do it all." I believed that letting others help me meant that I was weak and a failure. How wrong I was! This is why I challenged myself to do number 25 on my list... Accepted Help.

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Agreeing to do something and actually doing it are two very different things. I have always excelled at the first one but often bailed before getting to the second one. I was afraid of not being able to deliver. I was afraid of being held accountable for the outcome. I was simply afraid. This time I was determined to follow through, put my name on a project, and be present in the process as I did number 24 on the list... Assistant Directed.

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I had a lot of misguided beliefs about money. Those beliefs kept me from seeing my worth and caused me to devalue myself. This spilled over into every aspect of my life and destroyed my self-esteem. Taking this step was imperative for my health and well-being. I knew I could not move forward until I challenged those beliefs, but first I had to step into my fear and do number 23 on the list... Allowed Myself to Get Paid.

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My pattern was to agree to something or sign up for something and then panic and back out. I battled the anxiety of not knowing what I was getting into, not knowing if I would have a person I could rely on when I was there, whether I would do a good job at whatever it was, etc. This step was truly me going in blind knowing I would not have a safety net. I didn't back out. I didn't allow my anxiety to talk me out of it. I went all in and did number 22 on the list... Volunteered to be a Beta For Fan Fiction.

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By this point in my journey, I was realizing how taking these steps had released me from so much of my generalized anxiety. I was doing things without overthinking. I was calmer. I was breezing through parts of my day that would have normally derailed me. I felt lighter. I felt like I was on the verge of becoming someone I never imagined I could be. Pushing through the fear of standing out and engaging in a world I've always hidden from is what led me to number 21 on the list... Connected With My Fandom on Tumblr.

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