i sometimes live in my curious self and often live in my scared self . they are the opposite and i dont know what i want or what i should be doing. my curious self has big outside of the box desires but my scared self almost 100% in the box. today i had a curious conversation with you and chat gpt and i stilll have no answer but i feel a lot less alone, more curious and less scared.

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mostly this past week has been slow on paper but full in my mind. im trying to learn to be comfortable with all of my parts instead of trying to shove them out. im trying to stay open and curious about my whole self. and im trying to clean my house .

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idk what im doing with my life, i have so many questions and no answers ... but does anyone have any real answers or just answers someone else gave to them. idk. i like the way im living my life, it is definitely hard but it's so true and deep and i love that so i know it would be harder to pretend i dont know that and go live a life that is not true or deep to me so im stuck doing it this way and im still glad im choosing to but fuckkk

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now that i have quit i can spill all the tea... i guess, i have no ill wishes for them i just am putting myself in a healthier situation. i tell you everything bad thats happened and i forgot to mention there has never been a single problem with my technical work or conversations or language etc.. since working there until i changed my schedule

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today i go over my week and then go on tangents about some bigger thoughts that occurred this week such as psychedelics, my past experiences, work tea results, community, podcasts and books ive been listening to, what ive learned, etc...

finally i finished remaking my clay earring holder. i love it . this week things i did spending time with people i love and then reading my book. nothing crazy.

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something slightly light. mostly my week nothing too deep or crazy! been spending time with friends and family. it's important to lean on each other in hard times... also i want to wear more flowy clothes , i want to be more comfortable and be able to move freely .

i feel oh so many feelingsssssssssssssssss. and pink hair erw

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this weeks things. slumber party, operation hate men less, letting myself enjoy my day to day, and a scaryyyy lake story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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i wanna dye my hair pink. my week. my fyp and some random shit. sorry my voice sucks right now. love you