Of all the shows I've created and produced on the Change Your POV Podcast Network, this one is by far the hardest I've done. Both from a topic standpoint and a technical one. There was a lot of introspection and self-healing that went into this show.
There are many messages in this episode. My hope is that someone will listen to this and will be changed. Suicide is a huge problem in the military, in the civilian sector, and amongst our youth.
Special thanks to everyone that participated and had the courage to share their stories.
A Silent War
Leaving us without word, nothing left to say,
Mom and me are never going to forget that day.
Something must have hurt so bad and I simply turned my back,
There's so many things I want to say, but it seems the right words I lack.
I never got to say goodbye or tell you that I care,
You must have felt all alone, desperate, hurt, and scared.
I wonder why you felt so bad that your pain engulfed your life,
I wonder if you thought of us, your daughter and your wife.
If I could go back in time and try to ease your pain,
I would dry all your tears when they fell like rain.
It must have been a place so dark that you could not see the light,
But here I am, your pain I feel, I cry myself to sleep at night.
So Daddy please forgive me, I was only 15 at the time,
I didn't realize how lucky I was that you were all mine