The perfectionist ego within me constantly and consistently wants to control the conversation. In the midst of all of the guilt, pain, and shame I forget that healing is NEVER linear and progress is HARD. Then you get stuck in this infinite thought loop of asking why - but not answering it. It's hard for me to remember that changing your mind is NOT the same thing as changing your habits. It is so much easier to intellectualize a concept than it is to emotionally understand it & have it physically show through your actions.  In this video I talk about releasing the patterns of negative self-talk in trade for awareness, patience, and kindness. The journey of becoming the best version of yourself won't ever just be simple and straightforward, it takes a lot of courage to confront your shadow, change your norms, and admit that the things that once protected us before no longer serve us now. This was just one of those moments for me.

"You don't ever really lose, you either win or learn," - a very smart friend

My wish for you is that you guys gain enough courage to be your true, authentic self. Healing isn't easy, healing is definitely scary, and sometimes it is exhausting. In spite of it all, my wish for you is to understand that you are an investment worth developing. Allow yourself to thrive and you will.

as ALWAYS I love everyone, I hope you guys find peace and love. I hope you choose happiness ❤️✨  comment, like, subscribe, share - whateva is always appreciated. ALSO if you're down to chat about anything I am always open to it! message me anywhere and i'll be there.

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