There’s a lot of internal as well as external conflict that comes from being raised in a 1st gen immigrant household, a parent that made all kinds of sacrifices to give me the best chances possible at being successful, an international family that prides itself for relatives moving away. And understating what I want, what I’m passionate about, what I picture as my future and what mental steps I need to take to figure it all out. I also convinced myself that I wasn’t meant to be average at a young age, since the beginning of middle school, starting with my Ivy League obsession. Seeing my future differently than the people around me has been a very isolating experience, but dealing with that as well as starting to desire similar goals as they’ve always had it’s scary and hard. This whole process, of figuring your life and future out at 18 is scary and hard. So I’ll share my experience with it, hopefully it will make someone feel a bit less alone in it.