I had to be the grownup during my childhood in a very unsafe environment. I had the illusion I needed to be in control of everything..

I felt I was in control when I had my food.

I ran my life using the CK program with disastrous results.

After 3 major losses the food was not enough..

Oct 24 I cried out for help. And meant it. Gave up the CK program and started using the OA Program. Gave up illusion of controls and had way better results

I do a daily 10th step. Not perfect yet.

I began to realize I do have affect on others and can choose to do no harm.

2025 was a year of my understanding and establishing a working relationship with my higher power.

This year I am focused on my emotional sobriety.

I have gone from 'How can I serve me' to ;How can I best serve Thee?'