Cloaked Cathedral with SZ Audrey: messages that guide us from chaos into clarity

Meditation begins at 4:49

Hello my friends!

My partner and I were talking about risk taking in uncertain times. When the exterior world feels unstable, it can be instinctual to gravitate toward conventional wisdom or pursue only what is deemed practical, anything to give our nervous system a dose of reliability to feel safe. The last thing the mind wants is to plunge into more uncertainty.

A couple months ago my partner was trying to gently persuade me to take a big leap on something I’d always wanted, but the timing felt too rocky, too unfamiliar. I had also gone through an extreme amount of personal shifts in a very short time and was still recovering. I tried to talk him into the idea of something more in my current comfort zone, at least for the near future.

His response was, “we are called to be people of big faith! When have you ever had a choice not to completely lean into an inordinate amount of faith?”

There were no truer words I could have heard. Whether it was starting a worldwide fashion company when I had only $100 to start, having a sensationalistic instinct that a supermodel turned it-girl I had never met would be one of my best customers (and she was, even promoting me in Vogue Australia), trusting my guides when I was told to immediately break off my health damaging 18 year relationship when I had just moved 1,000 miles away from anyone I knew and had zero family support with 3 children, being moved by spirit to pray an Italian “evil eye” prayer ritual over my eldest daughter when I was beside myself with worry when her whole body shook with fevers each night in the hospital (her fevers broke the next morning after I did this and we went home soon after), and when my guides told me to stay home for two years (no dating or shopping around) and they would bring my soulmate to me (this took a tremendous amount of trust, but it’s what happened.)

I had always leaned into the impossible, which always made it possible (with discernment of course, no foolhardy risk taking here.)

There are so many more stories, especially around financial windfalls in the midst of desert times, but the point is I have learned to lean into big faith, trusting spirit for opportunities, insight, miracles, and concrete evidence more than the limitations of my own human problem solving.

As we explored in our last installment, we are living in startling and uncertain times globally and here in the states. We’re in a season that requires BIG FAITH from the collective, and a deep understanding of how to trust and hear your higher self over any outside noise. I wanted to bring forward a mini meditation to not only ease any anxiety but to give you access to a method I use for looking into how major events will affect my family and community. I used this method during Covid to see how illness would affect my family and what precautions to take. When looking at the prophecy I received before the Washington DC event in 2020 (talked about in the audio), and most recently when a group that is named after frozen liquid was moving out of Minnesota through my small town toward major cities, I asked what I should expect. The information I receive from this is not only accurate, but allows me to relax and/or prep for what is coming. I want you to have that too. Make sure to have a Google doc or notepad ready when you begin - and do it at a time where you feel relaxed and at peace.

Happy blue moon in Sagittarius, let’s get into our mini-message below:

When I tuned into the message of this month I heard, "June is for love” and the phrase “clean out the nooks and crannies.”

I'm going to type exactly as I hear it: “You don’t know what you don’t know. There is a reason the lessons had to occur in the order they did. You are getting ready to fly. Getting ready to be fitted with wings. It may feel like issues or unmade decisions are piling up at your doorstep like unopened mail. There is this feeling of “everything is about to start.” I am seeing an image of a girl getting ready in her bedroom in front of a full length mirror. Her mother is helping her put on orange and black butterfly wings with black antennas connected to a headband. The girl turns around to admire herself. It is sunny outside but you hear the wind rattling the window panes in this bedroom. It’s giving me the impression something is coming, something is almost at the door. There’s a feeling of “it’s almost arrived.” Hearing “the big day” and “you’re not who you used to be.” In the movie Mary Poppins the wind blowing in from the east symbolizes a miraculous change of fate for the Banks family, that leads to their transformation. I’m seeing a book closing, and a new one opening. You have been concealed but there is a dawn fast approaching. You can’t hide anymore. Discovery. New ways and new paths will be shown. There won’t be anymore living in darkness. Hearing, “you’ve come a long way baby.”

There’s been a feeling of being trapped, of resources slipping through your fingers, but there’s still a light burning within, leading you further down an unfamiliar road. You have been trusting these tiny flickers as you take small steps ahead, and the time approaches for you for you to see and be seen, to be known. There is truth and resources coming to you, carried in the hands of strangers who wish you well. This season is for love casting out all fear. June is for cleaning out the nooks and crannies in order for you to shine. You will be cared for, you need only to believe.

Be well. You are loved.

S

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Hello friends!

Thank you for your immense patience as we’ve had Substack on pause since SEPTEMBER. After several excruciating hospital stays with both of my daughters we were finally able to come home and have been recovering from the experience and attending to many health appointments and some major life changes since that time! I have had so much coming through that I’m bursting with messages for you all. I want to say a HUGE thank you to you all for sticking with me on this long break, I am so happy to be back!

* Inside this month’s audio message I also have a complimentary mini-reading offering as an extra thank you for paid subscribers - reach out to book.

Here’s what you can expect in the next installment:

In a few days I will put out our future predictions & global reading for these dark times!

In our installment after that we’re going to do a three choice reading on the blessings you can expect in your life (after what is going on in the world, we all need to know what positive fruits spirit is cultivating in our lives.)

In the audio recording for this month, here’s what it holds:

* the past couple of months and the miraculous occurrence we had in the hospital

* Abraham & Issac: self preservation vs. surrender

* Lucifer and Ahriman: two names of evil and their relation to Christ and humanity as written about by Rudolph Steiner (which I believe will blow your mind and increase your discernment)

* A reading specifically for these times we are currently in

The illustration directly below is talked about in the audio when we dive into the two polarities of evil. The work of Steiner in this area beautifully encapsulates the subtleties of darkness and how it creeps up in different masks, often undetected until its late stages of advancement. Understanding these nuances will expand your discernment in incredible ways and save you and your loved ones pain and heartache in the future.

What this depiction illustrates is how evil doesn’t appear as a monster at first, but as physical matter absent of spirit (Ahriman) or through spirit, absent of reality (Lucifer). Lucifer aims to release us from the physical realm to become gods, and Ahriman wishes to bind us to physical matter while divorcing ourselves from spirit. These two “devils” are polarities that we as humans must balance in order to avoid destruction and advance toward the greater good of the collective. (We dive into this more in the audio!)

Some quick Luciferic keynotes would be: the 1960’s drug fueled hippie movement, spiritual bypassing, limerence, extramarital affairs, escapism, cults, psychosis, arrogance in religion or spirituality, empty euphoria. Think labeling fantasy as faith.

Some quick Ahrimanic keynotes would be: Transhumanism, synthetic foods or medicine, density, death, a grey city without nature, lifelessness, atheism, materialism, data or science without higher truth, machinery, robots, drudgery, bland corporate America, technology, AI.

Steiner calls the midway and higher point between Lucifer and Ahriman the Christ impulse. This impulse is one that brings life force energy into lifeless matter. It’s the balance between Lucifer and Ahriman. With the Christ impulse we’re bringing God into the physical realm. The Christ path is one that acknowledges the divine within us, while also acknowledging that we are in 3D human matter. With this impulse we imbue the divine into more Ahrimanic fields; insurance, law, medicine, corporate America, and we bring truth, evidence, groundedness, and shadow work to more Luciferic fields; spirituality, channeling, the arts, etc.

The Christ impulse is one of truth, love and absolute discernment. It is a path that says, “I will not ascend until everyone ascends.” It is an acknowledgement that you are not free, until we are all free. There is a humbleness and self sacrificing nature that is in absolute service to all of our brothers and sister’s in humanity. This is intuition with groundedness, and faith with evidence.

My partner says the Christ path reminds him of the Bodhisattva Vow.

“A bodhisattva is a person who lives in the spirit of Buddhism’s bodhisattva vow, committing to put others before oneself, to give up one’s own well-being — even one’s own enlightenment — for the sake of others. In taking the bodhisattva vow, we are acknowledging that we are not going to be instigators of further chaos and misery in the world, but we are going to be liberators, bodhisattvas, inspired to work on ourselves as well as with other people.” - Dean Hochman via Lion’s Roar

And lastly, we have Sorat. I will be brief as it’s a lot of information to absorb for now, and I find it too disturbing to spend time on. On the graph above the Sorat opposes the Christ impulse directly and is far below even the lines of Lucifer and Ahriman.

Some quick keynotes on Sorat: unnatural, depraved, cruelty, anti-humanity, anti-truth, anti-goodness, anti-love, anti-righteousness. It’s the opposite of the Christ impulse described above. Think the absolute darkest content from The Epstein files. A more accepted and mainstream example of Sorat at work might be pornography as it’s re-enacting a false and perverted version of human intimacy. It’s the inverse of love, created at its root to isolate and disconnect from true love and oneness, bind one to addiction, and allow the sacred holy temple of one’s body to be quickly used and discarded.

Here are some mantras to remember these points by:

Lucifer says, “I am too good to be human.”

Ahriman says, “I am nothing but flesh and bone, a soulless animal or machine who will return to dirt.”

Christ says, “I am the child of God, but I am also humanity’s brother or sister.”

Sorat says, “I seek to distort creation itself and throw the world into chaos and destruction.”

The Christ impulse seeks to awaken humanity in recognizing that they are one with God while remaining in brotherly love with humanity, the goal being to lead us all to heaven on Earth. The Christ impulse seeks to bring order, peace, love, and evolution, while the Sorat seeks to bring chaos, destruction, and a devolution to humanity and nature.

When you start to understand the qualities of Lucifer and Ahriman you won’t be able to stop seeing these energies play out in everyday life. It aids our discernment as we start to notice these subtle polarities in families we meet, our medical system, churches or spiritual centers, relationships, the workplace, and in philosophy. One of the most Ahrimanic examples I’ve come across as of recent is a “healing garden” in the hospital I’ve spent many months in. On the surface, a healing garden sounds wonderful and desperately needed. Once you go inside this “garden” you realize every plant inside is plastic (not one was alive), and there is no sunlight available. What an odd way to use so much square footage in a building where people who are injured and chronically ill cannot go outside, it feels symbolic to the way western medicine is being practiced today.

I’d love to hear your thoughts and if you’ve seen aspects of these energies playing out around you. I have another installment coming very soon, thank you so much for your kindness and patience during this time. I’m so happy to be back and I’d also love to hear how you are all doing!! Thank you for the many sweet emails I’ve received.

With love,

S

* Channeled messages:

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The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” Exodus 14:14

All new beginnings start with a fight, a push, or a breaking free. Afterwards, it can feel like a journey in the desert or sailing into open waters, the true unknown. Have faith that the guidance that brought you this far isn’t going to leave you alone, or let you starve to death. You will be cared and provided for. This journey holds everything you need to learn and discern along your way. You will have your day in the sun again. Don’t allow negativity or excessive mental chatter to take hold. You will make it all the way. Release control and allow the current to take you.

Wherever you are being called in this life, find the star just above that destination. Keep your eyes on that point and continue forward, your body and the flow of the universal current will carry you there. Centuries ago, captains who were explorers had to chart the stars and their courses to navigate invisible roads to shores they had only heard rumor of. If they were but one degree off they could end up in Cuba instead of Florida. They had to trust the star they had their eyes set on. Align with your star, have patience, and you will catch the breeze, catch a wave. Be determined and don’t give up.

Sometimes when we’re chartering our ship, we have a plan to arrive on dry land after a certain allotted time, give or take a week for strong currents or lack of wind. We can’t always plan ahead for the storms we’ll encounter, or the extra time we’ll anchor in a bay to wait out inclement weather. The message coming through is “allow, allow, allow” (as it has been the last few months!) There is also the resolute promise that you will reach your destination, and the more you release control, fix your gaze to the sky, and dance with the elements, you will arrive at your target in the right timing, and the sun will be out.

“The liar was the hottest to defend his veracity, the coward his courage, the ill-bred his gentlemanliness, and the cad his honor.”― Margaret Mitchell, Gone with the Wind

On the importance of seeing through the facade: In this recording we talk about the ability to read the energy of a situation, environment, person, spirit, etc. When the popular phrase “energy does not lie” is used often what is not realized is the absoluteness of the statement or even the expanse of application. When the Bible talks about discerning spirits being a supernatural gift, it is an asset no one can afford not to have, especially in today’s world of constant messaging, propaganda, and imagery.

Many of us have had the unfortunate experience to be in relationship with someone who has such deep shame, that they manipulate circumstances in order to appear a certain way on the surface that is in direct polarity to their inner world. We see this many times with those who are couching narcissism, but are the head of every charity or church event, PTA board, or are well known for fostering senior dogs. These may be overt examples, but they help to illustrate the weakness behind the adage “actions speak louder than words.” In the words of Dr. John Delany, “behavior is a language,” and while absolutely true (and a form of discernment), it imperative to have a foundation in sensing the energy behind a person, place, or thing if you want to avoid illusion or deceit altogether.

The good news is, it’s so simple! Imagine that you are in a state of prayer or meditation, and you begin feeling into the energy of a vision, message, or being. It really is as straightforward as sensing and asking, “is the energy peaceful, neutral, or full of love” or “is it critical, anxious, or giving me a sense of hopelessness?” Is it making me feel belonging and safety or is it making me feel weighed down and stressed out?

This is how you will know what to keep, and what to discard. It can start off with being less complicated in the unseen realm than when we devolve into matter. Sometimes when we apply this method to people, media, and environments we have to deal with our mind’s internalized judgments, familiarity, or triggers that will try and convince us that we cannot trust ourselves. One of the best ways to move through this energy is to notice what our pre-conceived assumptions and opinions are. Many times spirit will give us information that conflicts with precisely those staunch “beliefs” we don’t realize we are leaning on. When this occurs it is reason to rejoice at being “wrong,” as it’s a direct sign that you are receiving information that is outside of your sphere of belief or knowledge.

After that, it is important to detail the information received as “data” and watch how the symbolism, words, and pictures evolve into messages. Even if the messages support your inner knowing, you will want to record it in order to aid you in the future as the writing or symbolism unfolds. This will bring you evidence and enlightenment on how you (as a unique individual) process and receive wisdom from the unseen.

Lastly, this is an obvious one in regards discernment and weighing truth, but it is an absolute stalwart. Look for where there is humanity instead of cruelty or grace instead of condemnation. (Side note: grace doesn’t equate to a lack of accountability, boundaries, or respect either.)

Your Higher Self or Holy Spirit will never ask you to step outside of integrity. You may be asked to move outside your comfort zone, or to take a leap of faith, but you will never be asked to compromise your own integrity or someone else’s.

The reason we say “justice is blind” is because we can’t trust our mind or the ego’s limited experience and bias to assess anyone or anything. It will never be correct if we do. Many people try to utilize a one-size-fits-all method for discerning, leaning on external cues, weak platitudes or dogma, or broad brushing mental rules onto different experiences, situations, or groups. The way we can avoid this is by following the above two steps and asking, “what is the energy behind the facial expression, words, actions, meditation, home, job interview etc. or how is it making me feel?” and “is it asking me or another person to step outside of integrity?”

And on another note,

* Here is the book referenced in the message: Ho’oponopono Book

I highly recommend picking it up so you can join me on Tuesday nights (tonight!), to say the Ho’oponopono prayer. This is an exercise in unconditional love, karma, forgiveness, and transmutation. Join me Tuesday nights to pray the Ho’oponopono prayer (2 minutes!) for our world. This is explained more in the audio, but we will be aiming to do this prayer collectively at 7 pm Pacific, 8 pm Mountain, 9 pm Central, and 10 pm Eastern for North America. (If you are outside of North America, do it on Tuesday at a time you feel called to.)

* Lastly, thank you for your patience with this release! I’ve realized that the very nature of intuition (it doesn’t punch a time clock), paired with my human design (emotional authority), and the propensity I have for long form content (audio and writing combined) has made it especially taxing to reproduce (at least during this season of life.) It is unfortunate as it does come quite naturally to me. Due to this, there will still be some long form content when I feel led (I won’t be able to stop that, it’s my great love) but I will likely introduce shorter audio readings or shorter written content too. I’ve never been great at short form anything (I’m more of a part 1-3 novelist than a flash fiction person) but I do think it might be easier for my subscribers time wise (I’ve actually been told this), and we’ll see how that flies for me. I do want to be of service to you, what are your desires here? What are your thoughts? How can I help? Let me know!

Sending you so much love!!

SZ

A couple mornings ago a friend and I were out for a stroll in the country, trying to get out of the house and soak up some nature for an hour on wet and foggy day. During our time we mainly talked about our families and the transformations we had gone through in the past few years. Towards the end of our jaunt, this friend (who has an affinity for all things alive and green), casually said, “I feel the trees are trying to warn us about something coming, fast. It feels like we need to be aware.” The message felt a bit arcane and out of the blue in contrast to the more commonplace conversation we had been having a moment before, a bit ominous too. A minute later, we were walking around a patch of woods, when a bright yellow Volkswagen Beetle came blasting around the corner driving on the wrong side of the road. We swiftly side stepped into a foraged corn field to avoid the vehicle. The driver and his wife waved their hands smiling apologetically, as they over corrected their speed and changed lanes. They were senior citizens, who I couldn’t help but notice looked incredibly cheery, the woman in oversized emerald green glasses and the man in an apple red cardigan. It almost felt comical seeing their friendly faces, vibrant colors, and sunny car come plowing of the spooky mist and almost hit us, especially after my friend’s warning.

The symbolism and messages here from spirit to us is this: expect the unexpected, what we are currently fearing may be a barking dog without teeth, the emperor has no clothes, remaining peaceful within ourselves will allow us to be in the present moment in order to side step quickly when needed.

While on a worldwide scale, there are certainly many cruel and devastating events occurring, the above illustration felt like a message that what we may be worried over in our own individual lives, is harmless and reckless at the same time. As long as we can maintain an inner peace and keep our wits about us, we will move through this time with more efficiency and calm.

As a child my favorite author was Madeleine L’engle, I’ve been collecting her vintage hardbacks since college. I was elated when my kids were finally old enough to read them, and at bedtime we’re currently working our way through A Swiftly Tilting Planet, one of the followups to A Wrinkle in Time. Though written in 1978, the story is eerily similar to what is going on in our world today. This quote was meant for us, and I pulled it from the book the other night, as an aha moment, it so perfectly incapsulates this reading:

“You know, my dears, the world has been abnormal for so long that we’ve forgotten what it’s like to live in a peaceful and reasonable climate. If there is to be any peace and reason, we have to create it in our own hearts and homes…especially at a time like this. We don’t know what the next twenty-four hours are going to bring, and if it is what we fear, then the peace and quiet within us will come to our aid.”

- A Swiftly Tilting Planet, by, Madeleine L’engle.

We are currently undergoing a massive transformation, that requires us to truly transmute the pain of the past and move into a completely new (true) identity. There is no other way forward, the only way out is through. Spirit has guided me to do an intuitive meditation on the Akashic Records for our next post. My most requested Akashic Records reading you will do for yourself, with some added shadow work within it. During this intuitive meditation you will receive the truth about who you really are. With that information you will re-write the past with that true identity as the focal point. In this way, we will then receive clarity and power for our future, the destined path. I hope you will participate in this perspective driven evolution with me, coming next!

Our cards & symbols for the extended reading are below:

Signs & symbols:

Sun: We are called to be the light. Lean into your inner light (inner Holy Spirit) and magnify that out into the world. Do not dim your light any longer

Snake: You are in the process of transformation, you are not at the destination yet. Have grace with where you are right now, and do not sink into despair, you are being led out of the desert, to your own promised land

Medieval Goblet or Tea Cup: You’ve already accepted your cup. Release control and know that the dreams of your heart are yours

Christmas trees: A sign of hope and benevolence in the darkness - all will be alright

Gold coin: Your needs will be provided for, you are supported along this journey

Rainbow: A new, brighter beginning is coming

Dragon: Obstacles are being removed

The cards on the left represent our past, and the cards on the right represent the present and future.

Message:

You have a lack of trust for a reason. In the past your trust was betrayed and taken for granted over and over again. Those fears of being used and deceived, may be haunting you right now, glimpses of old situations in dreams, memories, or situations could be presenting themselves. Do not fear, this is just the past trying to cling onto you as it knows the end is near. There is no escaping the past, but there is a way to face it and transmute it. Alchemy. In the tale of Snow White, the princess’s bully from her childhood (her stepmother, the Queen), comes to her in a brand new form (the old woman peddler), after Snow White believes she has finally escaped her past. It is implied that the princess would have had to learn to trust again in her new life, and was not expecting this old energy to return in a new and totally different form, ready and waiting to betray her again. How was she able to finally defeat this old energy that was intent on breaking her? Snow White had to die. In this narrative it can feel like the bully actually won. How could cruelty and narcissism be allowed to take over an energy so virtuous and pure? This simple story is somewhat parallel to the Christ story. In that story it appears that all the bullies win: Judas the betrayer, Barabbas the murderer, Pontius Pilate, the crowds that welcomed him now cheering for his death, his best friend Peter who denied he knew him three times, his friend group who fell asleep during his extreme anxiety attacks on the last night of his life. Jesus went through constant states of betrayal when he was at his most vulnerable, and it leaves one to wonder if he also had trust issues in mankind?

The similarities between Jesus and the fairytale is surrender. By surrendering and ultimately releasing those who persecute you (forgive them father, for they know not what they do), you are transmuting the energy once and for all. There is no longer an emotional anchor or polarity that exists when you surrender. The anger, the desire to prove you are right, the bitterness, it’s gone and left with “it is well with my soul.”And isn’t that why we came to earth in the first place? Not to perpetuate karma over and over again, but to clear it for future generations. It is a sacrifice to consistently choose growth, accountability, and healing over resentment, blame, and vengefulness. Both Snow White and Jesus were resurrected in their own ways. They walked into a new life after their ultimate surrender. When you release control, the past and all of its devils have no control of you any longer. It is then that we can step onto our destined path. The past does not control you, it can only dictate your future when you don’t face it. The only way out is through. There is a new path and a promised land calling you now, you can feel it. But we cannot get there until we face the good, the bad, and the ugly from the past, and then surrender. Maintaining peace during this time is crucial (extra boundaries on what you see, hear, entertain, and consume), and that peace will steady you and allow you to step into your truest self, into that new life. True surrender in itself is a magic spell, it has more power than any other energy. Rebirth is coming, but there is a bit of work to do first. As the outside rages, you will be transformed into a peaceful yet resilient boss that is no longer controlled by old devils that once influenced your behavior. You will be free. Set your mind on the call of your heart and know that its truest desires will come in divine timing. Many are waiting for you in your new life, you’re needed there, the time to face the past is now.

I leave you with this powerful story from Oprah on her experience with surrender:

Will you accept your cup reading referenced in the audio recording is HERE.

Lastly, if you made it this far, I’d be so grateful if you would “heart” my podcast and subscribe on Spotify. Big thank you in advance!

Sending you love and peace!

S

We’re in a major time of transition as a collective and as individuals, and spirit has called me to provide an in-depth channeled message for us all. If you feel as though the energy has been particularly heavy lately, let this audio reading guide and illuminate you. There’s also a meaty extended reading below as well as card images from the audio.

The signs and symbols that came out for this reading are:

Christmas trees: a sign of hope and benevolence - all will be alright

Gold coin: Your needs will be provided for, you are supported along this journey

Rainbow: A new, brighter beginning is coming

Dragon: Obstacles are being removed

Spirit is having me link this reading I did on “accepting your cup in the presence of enemies.” They’re saying it’s a necessary re-read in this present moment if you feel called.

Extended reading below:

As we move through this journey, spirit has promised there will be metaphorical Christmas Trees to light our way. During the darkest time of the year, we still have Christmas, a time that is meant to be filled with generosity and hope for mankind. My eldest daughter was in our town’s Christmas play this year, and the cast put on the show “A Christmas Carol.” Though I have seen many film adaptations of the Charles Dickens’ novella over the years, this holiday was the first time I realized the entire plot is about a spiritual awakening. A man’s life is wildly transformed for the better after being visited by four spirits and seeing his own future.

What is spirit telling me with this realization that has to do with our channeled message? They’re saying, “anything can happen at any time, even to the darkest of people. Miracles do happen. Do not give up hope! All is not lost ever. Expect miracles on your journey along the way.”

During the audio reading, spirit brought through the children’s book titled, Mufaro’s Daughters. When the channeling was over, another prophetic message came through to me that I wanted to share below. We briefly talk about how each daughter’s journey to the kingdom in the hopes of becoming Queen reflect the choice-points we face on the road to our own destiny. One aspect of the book stood out to me that I did not mention, and that spirit wanted to bring through in a clear message here.

In the story, there are two sisters. Manyara is self-preserving, power hungry, jealous, reactive, and narcissistic. Nyasha, is non-manipulative, pure at heart, kind, slow to anger, curious, and growth oriented. In the book, it states that the father loves both daughters but is oblivious to how Manyara is emotionally abusive to Nyasha. He is not able to see Manyara’s true colors due to her performative behavior when her father is around. According to the author, Nyasha never tells her father how her sister treats her, in the hopes of not “hurting” her father. This small detail reflects immensely on who the father is and how the sisters were raised.

In many narcissistic relationships there are other people involved who are seen as “the good person.” The “good person” is frequently non-confrontational and is often perceived as being peaceful because they refuse to pick a side. They allow the abuse to persist by not taking action or refusing to see the truth. This trait is rightly branded “willful ignorance” and though passive, can be as insidious as the aggressor.

Perhaps the father was very busy, or simply lacked the discernment and sophistication to see through Manyara’s deception. Or maybe Nyasha knew communicating the truth to her father would turn her into a scapegoat. She would not be believed, and speaking up would be viewed as disruptive to the family dynamic. The father may prefer to live in a false reality, where both daughters are capable and happy, and he is admired as a wise and successful patriarch.

Spirit brought through this alternate footnote for a purpose. In the book, the sister’s embark on a hero’s journey toward their destinies. Along the way they are confronted with different people that appear as choices or obstacles in order to illuminate truth and allow their destinies to take shape. At the end of the book, the daughters find out that the king could shape shift into different people and creatures, and was observing the girls the entire time. The true king could see to the root of each girl’s soul, and rewarded Nyasha with the keys to the kingdom. Manyara on the other hand, became her sister’s servant.

Spirit wants you to know that you are seen and will be repaid for your good works. Throughout our reading, spirit kept bringing up the message of “you have more support than you know” and that you have “quiet supporters or friends” waiting in the wings. Spirit is also saying, that like the king in this story, they see all you have been through, they are with you along this hero’s journey, and your good karmic bank account is full, rest assured, justice will prevail!

Spirit has come through saying that we are being emancipated or liberated from our old life, or an old way of doing things. During this journey time, we will be confronted with different choice points along the way (just as in the book Mufaro’s Daughters.) As we begin to react differently to the situations on our journey, we will realize what our true needs are that we’ve neglected or ignored in the past, or develop a new set of needs entirely. We used the example of Moses in the desert during this reading. Moses had a new set of needs in the desert than he did back in Egypt, and so did the Israelites. Spirit is saying that your emancipated self can ask for your needs and DESIRES to be fulfilled when they are truly aligned with your heart, and they will be provided.

For me, I was shown to do this with a Miriam’s cup (seen below.) Miriam was a prophetess and Moses’s sister who traveled the desert with him. I add a bit of Celtic salt and a squeeze of lemon to the goblet with filtered water, and ask for my needs one by one, and have faith that they will be delivered in the right time. I have had miracles happen from this ritual. (Do you actually need a tool to manifest or pray? No, you don’t. However, the additional action step of pulling the intention out of the mind or heart and into the physical can be extremely useful. It’s an outward act of faith. You could view creating a vision board, or writing down your prayers or manifestations and believing they will come to pass as the same thing.) If this method calls to you, use it, but better yet, go through the spirit-guide meditation from last month, and ask your guides what tool they would like you to use (if any) along your journey for this purpose. You are meant to have your needs met as we traverse this time together. There is no better time to manifest and take care of your needs and others than in times of darkness or transition.

For days, this channeled message has been ready to be posted, but I felt spirit urging me to push pause on this post, and wait for an extra piece of information that was going to come through. Last night, my partner called me from the other side of the country to let me know he arrived safely where he is staying. He went through a bit of a backwards journey to get there. As he boarded his flight, he reluctantly told me he was listening to a song from the animated film Hercules to help him feel better about the trip. It was the song “Go the Distance” by Michael Bolton. Spirit told him to listen to it, as the lyrics held a message. We talked about what life has thrown at us (and me) in the last few years, situation after situation that have felt truly mythic in their labor. Large scale changes, tests, and tragedies that seem to be pushing us toward our fates. I knew this was what spirit was having me wait for. I won’t be persuading you to listen to Michael Bolton (I’m not cruel, apologies if you’re a fan), but I would encourage you to read the lyrics of the song “Go the Distance.” If you are on earth at this time with a specific mission, one of those who came here to wake themselves up and push humanity toward evolution (and you likely are because you’re here), perhaps the story of a greek god who was born a mortal, and completed 12 karmic "labors,” descended to the underworld, and through rescues and many adventures, eventually became a god on Mount Olympus, holds a piece of truth for you on this journey. Maybe if we’re here as “volunteers,” the path to our destiny isn’t supposed to be an easy straight shot. If we’re here to push humanity toward a higher evolution of consciousness, we will face resistance. If you have a mythic soul, and a mythic mission, you may have a mythic journey to face as well.

And finally, here are the cards below from the audio reading:

There are three more psychic meditations coming for you (one that creates safety and truth in the midst of chaos and anxiety, one that sends you into the future and delivers information you’ll need in the present, and one that illuminates and brings your dreams and desires toward you.) Is there one you’d like to see first?

I also did a live channeled reading on election night in November on who the candidates and key people close to them truly are at their root and soul level, and some prophetic messages on the future of the USA. It shocked me at the time, and I’ve marveled at the messages that have come true already. Is this something that interests you? It’s a non-political neutral reading, but the messages that came through made me nervous to post here, not because of the audience, but because it felt like there were spiritual forces behind the truths that didn’t want them to see the light. Perhaps all the more reason to shed some light on the topic? We’ll see.

I would love to hear if this reading resonates, and how you’re doing on this journey, and anyway I can serve you at this time.

Remember, go outside today if you can!

Love to you,

S

During my darkest days last year, I had one stalwart. For the last seven years I have been keeping an on-going document of all of my personal channeling; prophecies, predictions, words from spirit & my guides. Watching how their whispers and promises fell into place has developed my faith in a way that I cannot put into words. I have seen myself years into the future receiving what I have now, I have witnessed miracles several times over, and have come to depend on spirit as a trusted anchor when there was no one else, and hope seemed foolish. When spirit tells me something will come to pass, no matter how illogical it may seem from my current view point, I would be remiss not to trust it. However, occasionally I still fall into anxiety and self doubt. The good news here for us all is, spirit is not one of judgment or dogma, but one of grace, and will always stand with you wherever you are in your emotional process, and STILL bring about what is promised, whether you doubt or not.

I created this intuitive meditation as a way to dip your toe in, and begin to receive the information you need. Create your own document or journal and write down what you see, hear, feel, know, and sense. The key here is to suspend judgment and have the patience to allow what you receive to unfold - whether in life (as a prophecy) or in pausing the mind’s reactive stories in order for spirit to show you the proper interpretation. Doubt is allowed always, but as you begin to experiment and test with your intuition, the doubt will be replaced with faith and the recognition that you have always had the answers the whole time.

It came to my attention that knowing how to access your spirit guide(s) was an absolute for beginning to trust the trajectory of one’s life in historic times of great change. This meditation will walk you through your higher self’s inner sanctuary, introduce you to your spirit guides, give you glimpses into who you are, and why you’re here on Earth. There is also a mini pick-an-object reading by me at the very end. Always try to do psychic meditations like this when you are in an emotionally neutral space, always relax your mind, and allow observation to rule rather than judgment. Lastly, be patient as your answers unfold. This meditation is also available below on YouTube, or on Spotify if that makes participating easier.

If you feel called and it’s not too private, I’d love to know what you received during this meditation! Also, feel free to let me know what changes you’d like to see me make in the future to make the meditation experience even better for you.

With love,

SZ

2025, what a year….and we’re only 16 days in. I was planning to do a large scale annual reading, as I’ve been trepidatiously eye-balling the astrology of this year since around 2021, but unsurprisingly, spirit had a different agenda. When I feel a message try to push it’s way from the spirit world earthside, I begin to sense the air around me shift, it often feels like fluttering of wings around my face, and fills me with anticipation mixed with an urgency to find an uninterruptible space where I can discover what imprint of wisdom is on its way.

Once I received the message and recorded it, I waited a week. I tried to re-record it, but nothing came. I almost didn’t put it out. There was something about the “reunion of souls” prophecy (that I also received in December of 2020 during a client reading, later to forget all about it), and the foretelling coming again this month that made me slightly hesitant. As I pondered whether or not I should post the reading, I randomly picked up my phone. All of a sudden a video of an elder shaman (who I don’t follow and had never seen before) who studied with Don Miguel Ruiz (of The Four Agreements) popped up on my phone, speaking about an ancient South American prophecy of ancient souls coming back to Earth at this time. I was in shock that this news was already known perhaps hundreds of thousands of years ago, and that this was the same message I keep receiving. It was confirmed, and the time in history was now. That was my sign.

I’ve found this sense of doubt recently creeping in at unlikely moments. Yesterday I was teaching meditation through the lens of trusting oneself to my daughter’s 6th grade class, when I internally decided that what I was teaching was not helpful or translating to this age group. I continued my mini lecture and spoken meditation until completion, already set on defeat. I was anticipating my daughter meeting me in the hall afterwards, acknowledging it was a flop, but a good try. To my surprise, when I had finished, I was met with girls crying from their experience, asking if they could go back into the meditation, gleeful sharing, and asking me to please come back. The session was concluded by the girl in the class my daughter thinks of as “cold” initiating a group hug. I even received a text from a parent afterward thanking me for taking the time to work with them.

Lately, I’ve been peppered with clients who are also experiencing self doubt, coming up in places and situations where they should feel confident or at least comfortable. I asked spirit where this self-doubt is coming from, and why it’s here. Their answer: “self doubt is coming through because you and others are on the precipice of big changes. You are being tested, and about to push through to something more. This will happen in any area of life when you are on the brink of transformation. The answer? Sink your teeth into the doubt and press forward anyway. Do not give an inch. Be resolute in your desires. You will have confidence the moment you lean into faith and action.” I suppose this makes sense with the amount of times I hear spirit saying “have faith and trust, trust, trust” in each reading. I suppose that’s what we desperately need, especially this year!

I have a new spirit guide who started coming through to me last year. I didn’t understand the full picture of why he was here until he visited again this month. A few days ago he began sending me words in a language I don’t speak. I had to use Google Translate to interpret. After translating, I was so moved I began to cry. The words he spoke to me are the fruit and harvest of a prophecy I received in 2021 in Colorado, and needed the answers from in this present moment. This wild story is for another day, but the reason I bring it up here is that spirit has been asking me to create a deep meditation - personal reading on what guide is working with you this year and what gifts and knowledge they are bringing you that will help sustain you right now. They are saying it is so necessary as we move through these big changes in the world, and will be the medicine and truth you need as you develop trust and faith in yourself, your guides, and the universal plan. That is coming up next - stay tuned and lean into your self doubt all you want but never give up the faith!

A group of three channeled messages for Christmas.

Happy holidays my friends! I have some in-depth readings coming on 2025 and what to expect on a larger scale, but I felt urged to sink into what blessings we have coming our way (because it feels like we have many to reap). Many of us have been through tremendous transformations in the last few year…

Have you noticed the amount of fated events, lucid dreams, synchronicities and signs that are occurring lately within the collective? There have been many in the past few weeks in my own life, for my children, and in the lives of my friends and clients. Last night my locked back door opened spontaneously to the outside garden and I awoke to a freez…

This month’s personal reading is here (above), it’s meant for you in whatever timing you hear it, whether in October or beyond!

For several years, myself, and most of my regular clients have received messages that pertain to a massive rebirth, a bonus life, or a book of life closing and new book of life opening.

In 2021 I was told that this process would be completed when Saturn transits Aries, which begins in May. I was instructed that this November 1st, we will send off our past with love and respect and set intention for our new life to come. In a way it’s a funeral, and in another sense it’s a spell to aid the transformation of a new self as it begins to hold capacity for the new world to come. There will be a reading and channelling session and a candle alter lit with all of your intentions hand written on that day. For private intention setting for your new life, you can send me your wishes and intentions to include in this Day of the Dead ritual at [email protected] or comment them below. All requests emailed to me will be kept confidential.

It’s the perfect timing for such an act. When I think of the Scorpio Taurus axis, I think of the Garden of Eden and the haunted mansion at Disneyland. I think of heaven and hell, Persephone and Hades, or the Charles Dickens novel, Great Expectations.

In the 1998 film adaptation of the book Great Expectations, we have the illustration of this axis in the once lavish gardens and sprawling estate of Paradiso Perduto or “lost paradise” represented by Taurus, that has fallen into extreme neglect and disrepair (think Grey Gardens) represented by Scorpio. We have Finn, a young artist being raised in poverty whose life is transformed by other people’s money (Scorpio 8th house), either through an exchange with Nora Dinsmoor, the owner of Paradiso Perduto, or through a surprise inheritance from an escaped convict Finn aided in his youth. Finn’s life is changed drastically as he finally receives the good karma from his past and is able to pursue his own personal heaven, monetary success in the art world. At the end of the film, Finn is given a chance at a new timeline (a promise his heart always held out for), where he is able to revive, forgive, and transform the past in a way that is new and abundant.

The archetype of the Taurus Scorpio axis has always played the largest role in my life. I am Taurus sun, Scorpio earth in Human Design, and I have a stellium in the 2nd and 8th houses in my tropical birth chart. When I was young, my family’s life felt abundant, adventurous, sparkling, and desirable. When I grew up, I watched my family descend into chaos with mental illness, neglect, and frequent disasters, losing much of what they had worked for. How has the Taurus Scorpio axis played a role in your life? And what are you ready to surrender and release, and what intentions for your rebirth and new life will you be setting on November 1st?