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In this episode, I continue the story of my year-long research for a permanent placement in a skilled nursing facility. I also talk about recovering from the emotional trauma of a very bad experience over Thanksgiving weekend 2025. It includes the story of how I found it amazing online faith community that has been a great support to me during these difficult times.
I recorded this episode in July 2026, right before I moved to a new nursing facility. It’s taken me two months to get around to editing it. I considered doing a basic edit and not adding any fancy features to the YouTube version. On the other hand, I want to prove I can still maintain the kind of quality episodes I used to make even though I’m in a new environment with an ever-worsening disability. So I encourage you to check out the YouTube version.
Links of Interest
“Ol’ Man River” on Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ol%27_Man_River
“Ol’ Man River” sung by Paul Robeson on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=df4VdyGIqJ8
“I Believe in Father Christmas” by Greg Lake on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yfY4b1NszpY
Home video of Christmas 2025: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VhyqLAN3CPs
Home video of building a robot with my great-nephew Leighton: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NVLUKIoYADQ
Tumbller robot kit on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/ELEGOO-Tumbller-Self-Balancing-Engineering-Compatible/dp/B07QWJH77V/
Radio-controlled car I bought for my great-nephew Beckett: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0C5HCX4J6?ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_fed_asin_title&th=1
Heart rock band on Wikipedia: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Heart_(band)
Billy Joel and Sting at Lucas Oil Stadium: https://www.lucasoilstadium.com/event/billy-joel-and-sting-one-night-one-stage/
Foreigner “Jukebox Hero Tour”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRQ5spXrlug
Styx “Jukebox Hero Tour”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5OsNfUQyvts
“Avatar: Fire and Ash” (2025): https://www.imdb.com/title/tt1757678/
“Project Hail Mary” (2026): https://www.imdb.com/title/tt12042730/
Dan McClellan on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@maklelan
“Data Over Dogma” podcast on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@dataoverdogma
Jeremy Steele on “Data Over Dogma”: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXvgcXtcgQc
Jeremy Steele “Skeptic Pastor”: https://www.youtube.com/@skeptic.pastor
My 1st interview on “Unbelief” podcast 1/11/2026: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qwFtQNNCpMI
My 2nd interview on “Unbelief” podcast 8/10/2026: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aATOBOMQcBs
“The Tribulation Survival Guide” book on Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Tribulation-Survival-Guide-Alive-Everything-ebook/dp/B0GBZ4FZVM/
Arlington Place: https://trilogyhs.com/senior-living/in/indianapolis/arlington-place-health-campus/
Greenwood Healthcare Center: https://communicarehealth.com/location/greenwood-healthcare-center/
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This is part two of the story of Thanksgiving week 2025, when I tried to give my sister Carol time off to visit family in Texas. Things did not go well.
Links of Interest
Greenwood Healthcare Center: https://communicarehealth.com/location/greenwood-healthcare-center/
For more episodes: https://contemplating-life.com/
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In this latest installment of my ongoing series about my struggles to find a safe and comfortable place to live, I tell a harrowing tale of Thanksgiving week, 2025. I made arrangements so my sister Carol could go to Texas to visit family. I had a solid plan for who would take care of me while she was gone. Then everything for part. This is part one of a two-part story.
Links of Interest
Greenwood Healthcare Center: https://communicarehealth.com/location/greenwood-healthcare-center/
My Ultimate Remote Control: https://learn.adafruit.com/building-the-assistive-technology-ultimate-remote
“Life” cereal commercial featuring Mikey: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CLQ0LZSnJFE
Traditional Hoyer lift sling: https://www.hillrom.com/en/products/sph-seated-slings/
Two-piece lift seat similar to mine: https://www.medicalexpo.com/prod/horcher-medical-systems/product-68764-450122.html
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In this episode, I chronicle a yearlong search for a suitable skilled nursing facility.
This is part five of my continuing series recounting my efforts to maintain my benefits and live in a safe, comfortable environment.
Links of Interest
Wellbrooke of Avon: https://trilogyhs.com/senior-living/in/indianapolis/wellbrooke-of-avon/
Yes Symphonic live DVD: https://www.amazon.com/Symphonic-Live-Blu-ray-Yes/dp/B0052WBI0W/ref=tmm_blu_swatch_0
ELP concert DVD: https://www.amazon.com/Emerson-Lake-Palmer-Anniversary-Reunion/dp/B0052Y0FJ0/ref=sr_1_6
My episode 13 “The Ascending View”: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=74
Arduino microcontrollers: https://www.arduino.cc/
Adafruit Industries hobby electronics: https://www.adafruit.com/
ATMakers: https://atmakers.org/
Engineering Ella video from ATMakers: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xNFvhjCJYb4
Old National Center: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Old_National_Centre
Comedian Josh Johnson on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@JoshJohnsonComedy
Fantastic Four: First Steps (2025): https://www.imdb.com/title/tt10676052/
FT Tiny Trainer RC airplane bundle: https://store.flitetest.com/ft-tiny-trainer-complete-starter-bundle/
Clearvista Lake Health Campus: https://trilogyhs.com/senior-living/in/indianapolis/clearvista-lake-health-campus/
Arlington Place: https://trilogyhs.com/senior-living/in/indianapolis/arlington-place-health-campus/
Alpha Home: https://www.alphahomeawc.com/
Episode 22 “The Reunion”: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=149
Hurricane Helene: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hurricane_Helene
B Cubed Press: https://bcubedpress.wordpress.com/
“Alternative Liberties” (2025 anthology): https://www.amazon.com/Alternative-Liberties-Alternatives-Bob-Brown-ebook/dp/B0DT176GYK/
FEMA 50% rule: https://www.sc-pa.com/appraisal-info/damage-reporting/understanding-the-fema-50-rule/
Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers Association: https://sfwa.org/
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In this special episode, I present an essay about my feelings about leaving the home I’ve lived in since I was three years old. Normally, a podcast like this would include lots of nostalgic photos of my home and neighborhood. Unfortunately, I don’t have time or energy to create the kind of video masterpiece I would normally create for such an episode. This time, it’s just me talking. Here is my nostalgic essay “It’s Just a Building.”
Links of Interest
Eagledale neighborhood, Indianapolis: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eagledale,_Indianapolis
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In this episode, I fast-forward through events after my dad died in February 2019 up until July 2025, after I made the decision to actively pursue placement in a skilled nursing facility. It includes a video of a speech I gave at my 70th birthday.
This is part four of my continuing series recounting my efforts to maintain my benefits and live in a safe, comfortable environment.
Links of Interest
Episode 66 “I Was Nearly Murdered” https://contemplating-life.com/?p=331
Wellbrooke of Avon: https://trilogyhs.com/senior-living/in/indianapolis/wellbrooke-of-avon/
Father Paul Landwerlen obituary: https://www.archindy.org/criterion/local/2025/06-13/landwerlen.html
Episode 12 in which I discuss my fear of death: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=69
Episode 14 in which I discuss how I got past my fears: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=76
Street view of mile marker 20.1 on I-465 where we had a flat tire: https://maps.app.goo.gl/KdU9GtU4UMkSnGaQ8
Hoosier Helpers from IDOT: https://www.in.gov/indot/current-programs/hoosier-helpers/
Wellbrooke of Avon: https://trilogyhs.com/senior-living/in/indianapolis/wellbrooke-of-avon/
Greenwood Healthcare Center: https://communicarehealth.com/location/greenwood-healthcare-center/
Private Room at Wellbrooke: https://share.icloud.com/photos/010P48zzQC-vwzoSBLcuL-Ouw
Video from my 60th birthday party: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mhJT0-3KFcM
Video from my 70th birthday party: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b2EIBq4vxr8
Episode 78 about my friend Buz: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=424
Episode 45 about my friend Mike Gregory: https://contemplating-life.com/?p=256
World record donation for SMA treatment: https://www.guinnessworldrecords.com/world-records/663805-largest-donation-for-a-patients-medical-treatment
Most expensive drugs: https://www.drugs.com/article/top-10-most-expensive-drugs.html
Evrysdi (Risdiplam) the SMA drug I take. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Risdiplam
Zolgensma and Itvisma gene therapies for people with SMA: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Onasemnogene_abeparvovec
For more episodes: https://contemplating-life.com/
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In this episode, I cover the events surrounding my dad’s funeral. The episode includes the audio of the eulogy I gave. I highly recommend you watch the YouTube version, as it includes a slideshow of photos of my dad to accompany the eulogy.
This is part three of my continuing series recounting my efforts to maintain my benefits and live in a safe, comfortable environment.
Links of Interest
Stevens Mortuary
Calgary Catholic Cemetery
Obituary for my Dad. Includes the slideshow shown at the mortuary
Standalone audio with slideshow of my dad’s eulogy:
Prayer of St. Francis
Sheet Metal Workers Local 20
Sheet Metal Workers Credit Union
Tarpenning-Lafollette Co., where dad worked:
Google Street view of cathedral doors
Fleming and Associates
Matthew 25:31-46 (NABRE)
Matthew 7:20 (NABRE)
Soldiers’ and Sailors’ Monument
Ultimate Remote Control
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In this next chapter in my ongoing series recounting my efforts to live in a safe, comfortable environment, it is finally time to talk about my dad’s death. To put it in context, we take a deep dive into his life and go down some side routes, talking about my family in general. These times were also complicated because my sister Carol was battling throat cancer. This is a very long episode, but there is no good place to split it in the middle. The YouTube version has many photos, videos, and illustrations. So, you might want to watch this one rather than just listen.
Links of Interest
Indiana School for the Deaf
Delirium tremens a.k.a. “The DTs”
Arsenal Technical High School
Mission Impossible (1966 TV series)
Peter Lupus
Sydenham's chorea a.k.a. Saint Vitus' dance:
Old Indianapolis City Hall
Defense Finance and Accounting Service:
Emmett J. Bean Finance Center
Fort Benjamin Harrison
Gallaudet University
Sheet Metal Workers Union:
Indiana Bell Telephone
HPV-positive oropharyngeal cancer
My video about the NFL “Crucial Catch” ceremony 10/21/2018:
Central Indiana Council on Aging (CICOA
Greenwood Healthcare Center:
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In this episode, I continue my series by recounting my efforts to maintain my Medicare and Medicaid benefits and live in a safe, comfortable environment.
Links of Interest
Special Needs Trust: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special_needs_trust
Employer Identification Number (EIN): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Employer_Identification_Number
Central Indiana Council on Aging (CICOA): https://cicoa.org/
2010 FIFA World Cup in South Africa: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2010_FIFA_World_Cup
Surname “Adewale” 218th most common in Nigeria: https://forebears.io/surnames/adewale
Larue Carter Mental Hospital: https://indyencyclopedia.org/larue-carter-hospital/
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In this episode, I am beginning a series that could possibly be the last of this podcast. It might not be. But it’s a series I need to get finished in case this is the last.
Unless I pull off a minor logistical miracle sometime in the foreseeable future, I will be leaving the house that I have lived in since I was a few weeks shy of my fourth birthday. I will be moving into a skilled nursing facility where I hope to live out my days in comfort.
This series will chronicle my battles to receive the benefits I need to live a safe and fulfilling life. It will lead up to my current situation, which has led me to conclude that it’s time to move on to a different setting. I have no idea how long this series will take. It’s a long story.
Links of Interest
Spinal Muscular Atrophy (SMA): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spinal_muscular_atrophy
Duchenne Muscular Dystrophy (DMD): https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Duchenne_muscular_dystrophy
Indiana Department of Vocational Rehabilitation: https://www.in.gov/fssa/ddars/brs/vocational-rehabilitation-employment/
Indiana Aged and Disabled Waiver: https://www.in.gov/medicaid/members/home-and-community-based-services/aged-and-disabled-waiver/
Indiana Development Disability Waivers: https://www.in.gov/medicaid/members/home-and-community-based-services/family-supports-waiver/
Developmental Disability Defined: https://www.in.gov/gcpd/developmental-disability/
An older document defining DD: https://www.in.gov/fssa/ddars/files/Eligibility_and_ICF_ID_DD_LOC_Determination_signed.pdf
Mensa International: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mensa_International
Types of trusts: https://blogs.iu.edu/sharedsolutions/2023/08/21/planning-for-the-future-special-needs-and-miller-trusts-explained/
Newspaper article about Special Needs Integrity agency: https://www.indystar.com/story/news/2015/11/16/nonprofit-accused-taking-millions/75886746/
Interview with Greg Fehribach: https://www.ibj.com/videos/interview-issue-2015-greg-fehribach
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