I was honestly thinking about LOVE. You know, the kind of love you see or hear about from others. in public, in books and on the screen (large or small). I began to realize I have never really known true LOVE and the closest time I got to it I went through horrible physical and mental withdrawal... I realized I actually couldn't breath. My confusion of this experience helped me grow and then HEAL so intensely. It propelled me through the dark night of the SOUL process so much faster. The BRACE I felt in my inner BACK... while learning to look straight ahead.... Looking so deep within....