ok so this episode is basically me overthinking my own existence for an hour.

we’re talking about that weird feeling of always being “on,” always being perceived, always playing some kind of role depending on where you are or who you’re around. content creator brain, real world brain, social brain… all of it. it gets weird.... we're constantly performing on stage and IM TIRED OF THIS GRANDPA!!!! (:

join me as i spiral around about performance anxiety, identity, fictional worlds, and the observer effect (because my brain refuses to stay in one lane)

if you also feel vaguely like a sim being observed by invisible cameras, welcome, you’re among friends (:

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not because i quit and not because i was burned out in the usual way... but because i was tired af... and didn’t want to be perceived while i was trying to survive, heal, and rebuild.this is the first episode of cozy in the shade and it's a long, low-edit voice note about what happens when grief stacks, your nervous system taps out, and visibility starts costing more than it gives. i talk about disappearing on purpose, choosing silence over explanation, meds and boredom and fandom obsession, and quietly rebuilding my creative life off-camera... including why my website / "old-web" became my home base again.def a lil rambly, but hopefully it serves as a good entry point for you and i starting a lil journey together :)

a quiet lil preview of what Cozy in the Shade will become. an unedited, late-night ramble about shifting away from streaming, choosing slower creative work, and making space for reflection without perfection. this episode is a starting point... a little bookmark at the beginning of the trail. longer episodes coming soon (: