Episode 028 of Living in Response is a further opening into something I deeply desire to share about (spirituality) but am still very much in the process of allowing the words to naturally surface.

This unedited, unfiltered, RAW, podcast / exploration in speaking / audio journal is less and advice and all perspective. Thanks for joining the unfolding <3

Also, I was really excited to mention but forgot (lol) that today as I was practicing seeing the aura around my hands I saw blue and a little bit of a yellow-green!! Wild!!!!

Topics Covered in This Episode:Summarized (mostly) with AI

1️⃣ A Slow Saturday, Chi Gong, and a Shift in EnergyI begin the episode sharing the simplicity of my morning—doing laundry, and finally returning to a Chi Gong practice I hadn’t touched in weeks. The difference this time? It wasn’t from discipline or “should,” but from something deeper: a genuine call from within.

2️⃣ What Happens When the Practice Finds You AgainChi Gong found me last night as a quiet thought in bed—and this morning, I followed it. I share how powerful it is when a practice returns not from obligation, but from resonance. When the body says, “yes, that.”

3️⃣ What Embodiment Really Means (To Me)I go into the weeds—gently—about my own working definition of embodiment. Not just being “in” the body, but living from within it. Feeling life from the inside. Existing from the awareness that we are not just our thoughts or bodies—but the one observing both.

4️⃣ My Soul Lives in the Core of My BodyInspired by Eastern philosophies and personal practice, I share how I see the soul as the core presence within—the perceiver of my mind and body. This view has helped me unlock creativity, speak more freely, and shift from pressure to presence.

5️⃣ The Diagnosis That Changed My LifeI reflect on receiving a pre-diabetes diagnosis in college—a moment that shook me awake. I describe how this was the starting point of a deep wellness journey, not just physical but spiritual, emotional, and existential.

6️⃣ From Survival to Self-InquiryThose early changes—like walking more, eating better, and getting curious about yoga—weren’t about becoming “better.” They were about survival at first. But soon, they became doorways into something much deeper: Who am I really? What else is there?

7️⃣ The Start of a Spiritual AwakeningCOVID lockdowns created space. That stillness led to new questions. And new questions led to an avalanche of spiritual exploration: astrology, Human Design, tarot, feminine mystery schools, and eastern philosophies.

8️⃣ Trying on Paths to Find My DharmaI walk you through the spiritual paths I tried on—life coaching, Akashic Records, astrology mentorship—and how each time I thought “this is it,” until it wasn’t. I speak to the disillusionment, but also the gratitude. Each one taught me something.

9️⃣ When the Body Is the Only Compass That WorksAfter trying to figure it all out with my mind, I started realizing: clarity doesn’t come from thinking. It comes from feeling. I share how tuning into physical resonance has become my most trustworthy way of discerning direction and purpose.

🔟 A Gentle Callout of Internet SpiritualityI share the quiet tension I’ve felt between my embodied experience of spirituality and the monetized, trend-based versions that often circulate online. No shaming, just naming the difference between something that feels sacred vs. something that feels... packaged.

1️⃣1️⃣ Why “You Have to Fix Yourself First” Doesn’t Land for MeI speak honestly about the fatigue that comes from always trying to “clear blocks” or “heal more” before you’re allowed to move forward. I name the sneaky spiritual gaslighting that keeps people stuck in an endless self-improvement loop.

1️⃣2️⃣ Healing Can Happen As You Move ForwardI reflect on how I’m learning to trust that growth and healing can happen simultaneously. I don’t need to wait until I’m fully “ready” to create, speak, or show up. Movement is part of the medicine.

1️⃣3️⃣ The Role of Emotion, Energy, and InteroceptionI share insights from my work with EFT and cannabis-assisted emotional release: how emotions are sensations, and how interceptive awareness (feeling from within) can shift everything. Feeling, not fixing, is often the path forward.

1️⃣4️⃣ Creativity Is a Natural Byproduct of EmbodimentI talk about how my creative energy started flowing again—not from planning, pushing, or scripting—but from living deeper in my body. The more I feel my aliveness, the more I naturally want to share and express.

1️⃣5️⃣ What Consistency Looks Like (When the Body Leads)I redefine consistency on my own terms. I don’t force myself to show up the same way every day. I let my body lead. Some days that means a full yoga practice, other days it’s a gentle floor stretch. Same values, different expressions.

1️⃣6️⃣ Following Curiosity Without Needing to Justify ItWhether I’m wandering through a grocery store or rearranging my home, I talk about how I’m letting my body move me. I’m living more like a spiral than a straight line—and the results feel more aligned and alive.

1️⃣7️⃣ The Irony of Loving Questions with No AnswersAs a former perfectionist, it’s wild to realize I now spend most of my time with questions that have no answers: Why are we here? What is life? What is spirit? But these unknowable questions have become my most trusted companions.

1️⃣8️⃣ The Inner World Isn’t a Side Practice—It’s the Main ThingI close by sharing how the practices I used to do “on the side” are now the foundation of my life. Interoception, breathwork, soul inquiry—this is no longer something I do to “get better.” It’s a way of being.

Mentions & Resources🌿 Chi Gong & The 18 Forms (via Commune)📘 The Energy Codes by Dr. Sue Morter🌀 Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT)💫 Cannabis-Assisted Somatic Work💡 Logotherapy (Viktor Frankl – forward-focused existential therapy)🧘‍♀️ Interoception, Embodiment & Creative Living📚 Astrology, Human Design, Dharma Inquiry✨ Consistency as Devotion, Not Discipline

Feeling really close to my grandma today, so thank you grandma for all your love and support because I am nearly certain I would not have made it to 32 without you!

Mystically,

Belle

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