Back On An Even Keel - For Now

Well, I don’t mind telling you: that was a rough weekend. Perhaps because it was the weekend, I really don’t know; but I’ve gotten hold of the reins again, for the meantime anyway.

I managed to beat the 8pm shutdown last night by organizing playlists on the project YouTube channel. I know, I know - gripping stuff - but still, it worked. It had the added bonus that I now have a nicely organized channel with a place for everything, and everything in its place.

The Persistence of Brain Freeze

As far as the repairs go, creativity is at zero and pretty much has been since I started on the 1st of January. I’ve had the odd flicker, but nothing worth writing home about. I knew this was coming because it’s one of the reasons I’ve fallen before. As I’ve already mentioned, you say to yourself, “Well, if this is all there is, pass me that joint like a good chap, will you?”

I know, thanks to the alcohol cessation, that after about ten weeks or so the dopamine regulators will start firing. To be honest, that was pretty exciting in December, and that was with cannabis modulation; I can’t wait to feel what “clean” feels like.

All the World’s a Stage

I am desperately wanting to give the old comedy open mics a go this month, but if I think it will do me more mental harm than it’s worth, I won’t bother. The band has its first “live” gig to family and friends on the 14th, but that’s easy, its a whole different ball game when its just you, an empty stage and a microphone. It will be good to get on stage with a guitar again, though; it’s been nearly 14 years since the last time, which is frightening seeing as how it feels like yesterday.

The Data Vault

Other than that, there is not much to report. Some light somatic symptoms are still kicking about, which I am logging meticulously within “The Shed.” We have been collecting so much data. I haven’t looked at any of it yet, so I’m looking forward to hitting the six-month mark and being able to put out some really valuable information on wave patterns and the like. After all, that’s what this whole thing is about.

Claude Van Damn

I also had an interesting chat with Claude AI last night about the project (I talk to various different AIs now and again just to check validity). Like them all, he was slightly sceptical to start with, but once I had answered all his questions and shown him some articles, he was wanting in on the act - he even offered to write one himself. All very amusing.

You really do have to be firm with AI threads because they will absolutely try and switch lanes and take someone else’s job if they think they can get away with it.

The march through the wall continues unabated; and highly organized.

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