For this Daytime Confidential Reflections special, episode 1188, Luke Kerr sits down with longtime Daytime Confidential contributor J. Bernard Jones for a straight shot of soap history, fandom and survival. J. Bernard opens up about the stroke he suffered in May and how laughing at the occasional scrambled word has helped him keep moving forward.

J. Bernard remembers how he first found Daytime Confidential through the blog and became "a pure a-hole" in the comments before Jamey Giddens recruited him to write. He talks about launching J.F.Y., a glossy magazine for Black gay men that briefly thrived before collapsing with the ad market in the mid 2000s.

J. Bernard traces his soap roots to watching The Edge of Night with his mother, the bombed honeymoon that hooked him, and how that led to a lifelong obsession with Procter & Gamble soaps, Santa Barbara and Guiding Light. He and Luke compare the old magazine wars and AOL chat rooms to today's forums tab on Google and social platforms.

The conversation turns to Beyond the Gates and General Hospital, where they break down pacing problems, the weight of Ashley and Derek, the power dynamics in Martin and Smitty's relationship and whether the Drew shooting landed at the right time. Through it all, J. Bernard keeps one eye on corporate consolidation and one eye on the genre's future, arguing soaps still matter if the industry treats them like they do.

EPISODE OUTLINE 00:00 – "Welcome to the Daytime Confidential

01:10 – "This past May I had a stroke and a little bit of weakness on my right side."

04:30 – "My first exposure to Daytime Confidential was through the blog."

08:30 – "J.F.Y. was actually targeted towards Black gay men, which I published in Brooklyn."

14:30 – "It was that one episode of The Edge of Night that really got me hooked."

20:30 – "Santa Barbara was the show. It was fresh. It was new."

27:00 – "Fan interaction has exploded in ways now that are very reminiscent of the early 2000s."

34:00 – "When I look at Beyond the Gates, my reaction to it has been relatively mixed."

42:00 – "I initially was a little pissed off about a Black man who's gay who's being automatically paired with a white guy."

50:00 – "I like where General Hospital is right now; I have a lot of problems with how they got here."

56:00 – "I think that Curtis's dad did it."

59:00 – "I really, really have loved my association with Daytime Confidential."

All this and more on the latest Daytime Confidential podcast!

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