I wanted to give up on this journey of coming home, I thought I was unworthy, I thought that I was defined by my sinful mistakes. Although, I am not one to quit easily; pain, grief and sorrow can add heavy weight to one's spirit that can become intolerable. So, not only was I giving up on God, but I was giving up on myself. 

Yet, and still God has been faithful to me, reminding me that He is my source of life. That I can lean on Him and trust in Him. 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest, take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28 - 30