I am alot like you.  We are both a child of Jesus and Mary most holy.  Trying to find our way back to Christ through his holy Mother Mary.  We call upon their intercession in times of joy and in times of sorrow, in times of searching, deeply searching what our hearts and minds desire most at this very moment.  I desire to be in Christ.  His company,  and every day is a new day to get things right within me so that when I die and he comes for me I will be good enough to keep.

This journey with the Holy Spirit is not an easy one.  It is one that tries and tests the metal deep within a human spirit.  There will be much tribulation, there will be great growth, and in the end my hope my prayer is to be forever in the loving presence of almighty God.  When one lives long enough, and takes time for deep reflection the outcome is amazing because what my mind may have forgotten along the way of years and tears my journals have kept under a lock and key.  

Reflecting upon the past, for me was a deep very deep cleansing of my soul.  My soul and body were very sick, sick from my poor decisions.  Praise be to God, she has died, and a new woman has sprung up from the soil enriched with Gods love.  We learn we are dust, and from dust we shall return to our Lord.  We are NOTHING!  Christ and Holy Mother Mary have taught me I am everything in her and in her son!  And I believe it.  I am the newness of an early dawn living in the light that is Christ Jesus.  Reborn, again, thanks be to God!  Reborn in the sense of knowing who I am, and having a purpose driven life that is real, and not some made up fantasy.  I am real in Christ, He is real in me, and I am more alive than dead because he saved my soul some four decades ago.  

I believe that who ever is reading this, and who ever is listening in on this podcast they are ready to be saved in spirit, in soul, in body, in mind.  We cannot save ourself without ourself.  We have to rise up to the ocassion and call on God from the depth of our being and beg for forgiveness.  Why?  Because we are not who we think we really are.  Our sins have been our mask.  Our lies have laid down the framework of a life that isn't a real life at all.  The quality of life which we all desire and deserve is truly a life when we share it with God.  

He enters into us, and we enter into Him, and the transformation process begins!  It is delayed if we choose other Gods, and the process becomes to painful to look at and our desire to fix it becomes less.  Today we can look toward the light, the bright burning embers of Christ to burn out completly the darkness that has entered into our very being.  We do not have to be a darkened people filled with filth and sin and gluttany and sloth, no we can become a brightend enlightened people of Jesus Christ.  May I inspire you today to live a new life a new beginning trusting in our Lord to help you in your predicament?  May I encourage you to pray the rosary, and deeply reflect upon Christ and his teachings.  Lastly, may I pray for you everyday and include you in my daily intentions at every single mass I attend as a daily communicant?  Because God loves you, wants more for you, than the life you are now living!  Your yes today will reach the hearts of Jesus and Mary.  And I will do my part because of love.  The love that was placed inside of my heart while still living in my mothers womb, the love that is perfected in water, holy water, that now breathes in the air, and lives on the land, with one purpose in mind...  Having souls return to Christ through purification, absolution, and knowing they are forgiven.  Are you ready to begin again, in Christ Jesus?

Why must we find ourselves?  Why must we encounter the Christ?  Why is the conversion of a soul so important to our creator?  Because, I believe we were all meant to discover our true purpose.  Catholic or not, atheist or buddist, we all need a compass in life, to genuinely help guide us, in finding out truly-- who we really are.   Nothing cuts to the core of the truth-- more than --Catholicism.  One's Catholic Spirituality defines our existence!  Christ Is The Light Himself...  Attending daily mass, is optimum!  Learning and living out the meaning behind every single holy sacrament, leads the way for one to become HOLY.  There is great significance and importance for a man and a woman to be seeking first and foremost a holy life as a Catholic Christian because deep within every soul there is an even greater desire to understand and fully live out the most meaningful, purposeful life, in Christ Jesus.  Reading,listening,learning, every single day the importance of understanding holy scripture.  Meditating upon the WORD, in holy adoration within silent, reflective prayer, is our guide.  Our manual is perfected in complete truth, seek it, read it, live it, purchase your first Catholic Bible.  In it we discover the truth that protects us from the enemy, whose one and only desire it is to totally destroy every single weakened soul.  Do not fall prey to this great lie of Satan!  Do not ever listen to the whispers contrary to the truths of Christ Jesus!  Christ has already died for your sins and mine.  Isn't that enough to stop the argument right there?  Why insult our Lord any further?  Alone, go to him!  Alone open the pages and read what was written over 2,000 years ago and allow the truth to begin your conversion process.  The truth of Christ lives, He is OUTSIDE OF TIME....  Inside of every human being ever created, we have this opportunity to ask God ourself to help us in rediscovering who we are in Him and with Him.  And show us who we once were without Him.  And compare the contrast.  It may startle you at first but remember sometimes we dont see ourselves as we really are until something like this is brought to our attention.  We can all use a little more enlightenment this day!  Let us begin that enlightenment process within our selves first, and then bring it into the world that is so deserving of God's light!  Let us be pleasing in the eyes of God, by putting on our best self today!  We have to start somewhere.  Let today be that day.  If we are going to be someone, let us choose to be like Christ!  Imagine a world filled with little Christs.  Can we?  Will we?  We only have right now to begin again, in living, truly living, as Christs perfect sons and daughters.  Lets not hurt him any more than we already have.  Lets all show Christ WE ARE ON HIS SIDE.  Let us reclaim Christianity as children of God.  We can do this.  Because we were all meant for the eternal reward, let us aim high for our souls eternity, and not look back, but propel ourselves forward in truth, in love, in peace, in forgiveness.  All the above would greatly please to Him.  Knowing conscientously we deliberately chose not to waste a single moment of life and breath freely given to us as a precious gift from God himself  in order to discover our true purpose through finding his eternal truth! Let's get serious about this, there is no time to waste, there is so much to learn.  Surrender.  Christ will illumine your way, in righteousness and truth.  If we were to do one important thing with our life, if we chose to place God in the forefront, this entire universe would be free to experience the greatest conversion story in our lifetime...

Opening up the bible, changed the very course of my life.  The guidelines were all there, answers to every question imaginable, and yet, something some how, always abruptly stopped or interrupted the process of completely entering into the holy presence of God.  It was God himself asking me to give him my heart and in turn I gave him ultimate control of my life.  I surrendered upon the death bed of my paternal great grandmother.  Kinks to work out, twists and turns on the journey, mistakes, mishaps, all leading me in the end back to God.  He knew I was a tough one, but did he ever tenderizer my heart, so broken, so renewed.  You see we all need to face our failures, our weaknesses, in order to be renewed again.  Life throws some pretty hard punches and not all of them damages us but some really knock us off of our feet.  I reference the bible again because I know in my heart, every single word in scripture is holy is true and worthy of comprehending.  The bible frees us from making poor decisions in life, its all there, we just need to read and learn and live a Christ centered life in Jesus Christ.  Yes, it is that simple.  You may think you are above your creator, and I am here to tell you that you are not, you were made lesser than the great I AM.  We are dust and from dust we shall return.  Ours souls live forever, our bodies die, but we will never fully comprehend what Jesus has in store for us when He comes back for us.  So for now, try to live in Christ's Mercy, Christ's Peace, and be prepared for the duration of your life yet to come.  We have no control of the day when our bodies die, but today we can study Gods word, and sit in silence with Him and listen, and be still, and hear his voice.  It may not come to you right away, it may show you how to trust, and let go and allow him to lead you better than you have ever led yourself.  He wants to show you something new, and sometimes we have to step out of his way, how do we do that, we surrender ourselves to him.  Then when we give him full control we can see him working through us, not the way we would choose, but with the understanding, he knows exactly what is best for every single person living right now.  Be open, be silent, listen through the silence, it is there you will find him and experience his great love for you.  We are in the second octave of Easter, ask him to give you the gift of his divine mercy.  But ask as my pastor would say without an inkling of doubt.  And wait patiently upon the Lord.  He loves you, he wants what is best for you, allow him in to show you the way to live!  Amen...           

Living out the Best Easter of my life, this too is my wish for all of you in 2026!  Yes, we can overcome our blindspots, we can overcome our unforgiveness, we can do all good things, in Christ Jesus, because He lives in Us!  Happy Easter to all, during  this wonderful powerful and holy time of year.  When we trust everything to Christ, we are FREE.  No longer has the sting of sin caused us to be sad, broken, misled, because we walk in the light of Jesus and all of His truths...

His light is wonderful.  It shines like the sun in mid day, and at night through the galaxy of shining stars we are in awe, reminded of everything bright and beautiful HE has ever created.  That light was meant for us too.  To shine in Christs eyes, to shine in the lives of those we love, to inspire and make ourselves availalble for Christ, is to be the light of HIM.  

No more darkness.  Only the light.  Draw open your mind set and receive HIS light.  This is the perfect opportunity for us to shine brightly because we are choosing to be right in Him.  Our relationship with Christ is paramount!  He is at the forefront of everything we think, say, and do.  We begin our day speaking to Him from our heart.  Through an honest daily examination of conscience, we can see where we may have wasted our day instead of filling it up to the brim within his company.  

Our prayers are powerful.  The mass is powerful.  Receiving Christ in the Sacrament of the Holy Eucharist is powerful.  We are powerful, because HE lives in us.  We can take that power to the next level.  We have the ability to do great things in and through HIM.  We can go to God in prayer and ask for his blessing.  We can choose to live each and every day beginning in prayer before our feet his the floor and the day screams by us.  

We can live differently, and we should.  Because we should be choosing to grow everyday for the benefit of our souls salvation.  Start by opening up a holy bible, allow the words to speak to your heart, place yourself in the story.  The more you read the more the bible comes alive in you.  The unity this will bring will surprise you.  When we relate to Jesus, we can relate better to one another.  God after all is a unifier.  There within that beautiful unity we receive his grace, his love, his understanding, its a beautiful place to be.

Now that Lent has passed, and Christ has Risen in all the hearts of the faithful, we must continue this journey praying for those whose eyes are still covered in scales, who have yet to see the Christ, who have yet to believe in the Christ, who have yet to surrender to his love, his mercy, his truth. It is they that we must pray for, and remember with the love we were given that they become awakened through our prayers, desiring to choose the Christ.  

Each episode I am given an opportunity to speak about the love of Christ living in me.  Oh how I wish that hearts would open to welcome HIM into their lives.  Christ gives us the true meaning of our existence.  He gives us a purpose to love, and with that love, we can set this world on fire.  A blazing fire is so needed to purify us of every infirmaty.  We only have today, some only have this hour, let us choose Christ and experience the greatest power of HIS love, Amen!

In this weeks Lenten Missal, Fr. Richard Veras, Director of Pastoral Formation at Saint Joseph Seminary in New York beautifully reminds of the the truths we should be reflecting upon deeply as Christians as this Holy Easter arrives.  

Why consider this deep reflection?  I believe it is absolutely necessary for the salvation of our souls to keep their our eyes solely on Jesus!  Our mind and heart is in need of constant correction/ direction to be free, totally free in Him.  

Released of our own human bondage, the imperfections that hold us enslaved spiritually must be released.  It is through Christs ever healing balm we become free.  Every single second we live and are, in Christ Jesus, whether we realize it or not, whether we accept it or not, we are.  

Christ created all of the people around us whose souls are immortal, souls that will go on to live forever.  I believe Christ challenges us through them, as iron sharpens iron, if we allow it.  We can have all eternity in God, if we choose it. Will we choose it?

I think we need to put on the special mind set of Christ living in us and around us every single day God is giving to us, to live out his most perfect plan having within us, His utmost bounty and grace.  It is He who accomplishes everything good through us, we will go on through another day never recognizing Christ willing this good in all of our lives.  And yet He does!

It's would be a pity to miss it.  That is why our free will is so important to our well being.  Our choices heal us if we choose correctly, our choices destroy us if we choose poorly.

To live deeply and reflect deeply upon these gifts given to us, is key.  It is a compass revealing to us where we are, where we are heading.  Only in Christ, are we led properly through this life.  In our journey we fabricate the tapestry of our past, present, and future, and we present it all to God when we die.   

In faith we are all one body in Christ.  There is no societal separation. Unless we choose to live outside of Christ, creating great division.  We need to work on that better recognizing that unity is needed to bring about a future of hope while trying to figure out how we place God in the forefront of everything that He has intrusted to us.  A pretty serious offering given on his part, but we need to look at it with a  new set of eyes during this Tridium.  May the scales of disillusion fall from our eyes.  

In the Magnificat, we are being taught how to live as true Catholic Christians thanks to the great writings ispired by God and revealed through his children. Today's selection is profound, a real eye opener, meant solely to nurture our mind set, along with teaching/feeding our very heart and soul, as we prepare ourself in receiving every truth about ourselves living in Christ more profoundly during this holy Lenten Season.

Our faith journey depends upon these truths today.  We are all deeply reminded of the importance of affixing our moral standards into the upright position standing solely in Gods presence in order to have His blessing, intertwined with our commitment to live an honest and holy life.  

It is He who gave us HIS power, directing us toward him and the heavenly path.  He gave us, ALL of himself, the very breadth we now breathe belongs to him, remember that as you read/listen to the strong points directing you in truth, all  humanity belongs solely to Christ. And we engage in a beautiful reality knowing how delicate we all are in Him, who created us.   

Our mind, heart, soul, spirit and body, must know that Jesus' truth, is our salvation... 

During Lent, let us take this time to look deep within ourself and examine our conscience in preparation of Palm Sunday and Easter.  Christ endured a great crucifixion, I truly believe, so must we, in order to get to heaven.  Was it all for nothing, or was it all for us?  Gods perfect plan to save us, to save our very souls from final damnation? The answer is yes! 

 We may not have peronally have the answer or desire to look into the answer on this side of heaven.  Because our faith is such a mystery. I believe though Christ suffered greatly for us, to save us from making poor choices, the poorest of them all, denying Him.  Denying entry into his heart.  

To deny Christ is to deny your very existence.  To think you can outsmart your creator,  who personally gave you the gift of intellect you now possess is ridiculousness.   There comes a pivotal point in everyones life when one decides to meet Christ personally in the cross roads.  And one decides then and there to stop running away. 

Stop running away from yourself, your reality, and the beautiful relationship you could be having with Jesus Christ.  When we decide in that precise moment to enter into facing this amazing truth, it is in that exact second God is giving you a great gift.  

You will need to look deep within.  Because God will be giving you plenty of opportunities to recognize the unexplainable faults, fears, emotions, you have been carrying, that desperately need to be purged.

 During the great season of Lent this is the perfect time to set your sights on God, so that God can heal your every infirmity.  And you can begin again but better than ever before.  Its never to late to pick up the pieces of your life and examine your ways.  

Deny your old self so that you can put on your new self with Christ. Your best self has yet to be seen and lived.  I would think God would want his entire creation to step back and look at the life they have lived, and then decide to step forward in perfecting themselves because I believe we are all worthy of this type of perfection.  

Why live an entire life and miss the mark in becoming spiritually perfect so that when Christ comes for you, you are excited, you are ready, you have prepared your soul for the journey, and your soul is worthy of keeping in the eyes of Christ.

We can prepare.  We will prepare.  Because deep down in every soul we were designed to be with Christ forever.  Dont miss out on this amazing journey, but pray fervently about your souls destiny.  Then act accordingly. 

Prepare the way to be forever in the company of your creator. That most important choice, is available for everyone!  Don't miss it.  Instead, run towards it, with eyes truly longing for Gods ways.  You just have to ask Him, and he will respond to your heart.  You will know his voice when he speaks directly to your heart.       

My prayers go with you.  I fully trust in the intercession of God, of all the angels and saints that you will be guided, and you will be grateful, because Gods plans are greater than any plan we can ever come up with on our own. 

Our beautiful faith will save our souls and guide our destiny, all we have to do is believe.  Once we believe we pray.  Once our prayers are heard, we act.  Once we act, we begin living in the now, in the eternity that is yet to come. 

O Patron Saint Of Families, pray for us.  One can always rely heavily upon the intercession of the Saints.  There is a Saint for every cause/concern imaginable.  We have Saint Gerard, Patron Saint of Pregnant Women.  I have yet to see a statue of him in any Catholic Church that I have been to.  My hope is to bring about an awareness of each Saint to you so that you can grow in the knowledge of the saints and their great contributions to the catholic church, and become inspired by them that you will greatly desire to immitate them all by living a saintly life throughout your lifetime.  Could it be that God created the heavens and the earth and the angels and the saints to inspire us throughout our life journey here on earth?  If that is the case, we have the honor of getting to know all of Gods amazing creatures and the roles that they play all throughout the history of humanity, during our life time.  You can research the lives of the saints, either corruptible or incorruptable.  I find these truths to be quite fascinating and I enjoy researching their content.  Why? Because as a Catholic, God has given to us a great seed, an extra measure of grace, with an even greater desire for knowledge  giving us full access in investigating historical religious truths.  The Saints of our times, St. John Paul II, St. Teresa of Calcutta, Saint Padre Pio, they all have one thing in common, they were all solely devoted to serving Christ by serving his people.  The people of Poland, India, and Italy, were proud to have a saint in their lifetime to look up to and immitate.  In many ways their extra measure of talents were given to them to complete the tasks our Lord stirred deep within their hearts to accomplish.  God can stir any heart, as long as the heart itself is open to receiving Christ and his message.  When we pray we open up our heart, mind, soul, and body to Christ.  We desire to be opened so that nothing stands in the way of God's perfect plans for our lives.  Tommrow we celebrate the feast day of Saint Joseph, let us call to mind his role in the church, with Mary and Jesus and all parents, single, widowed, divorced, and those who always wanted to enter into marriage and family life and remained chaste, and never experienced love.  Know that Jesus loves us exactly where we are.  Yet we can call upon him to intercede for us as we begin again in his love and grace.  We can be perfectly content in Christ and in Mary and in Saint Joseph.  We can pray for their intercession as we go on living as sons and daughters imperfect yet striving for perfection through every prayer said throughout our day, for we are heard, and God is listening and we have to trust with great patience the outcome of our life.  

Conversion.  A conversion is necessary in the life of every human being.  It helps us to realize how messy, difficult, confusing, life is, without having Jesus.  Having Jesus is very centering.  Very real, very mature, and gratifying! We learn the truth of our existence when we have a real relationship in Christ.  Our desire to be Catholic, to be faithful, and to be living in a daily commitment with Christ at the helm of our life, is a life changer.   We all need to experience a life changing event for a positive everlasting eternal outcome.  To be Catholic.  Is the first decision.  To study the faith is where the nuts and bolts come in and our attention is caught and as they say when the student is ready the teacher will come and in this scanerio Jesus is the teacher.  He can teach you if you desire it!  Prayer.  Silent prayer.  Opens up the heart and mind in receiving Jesus.  Enter a Catholic Church and you will be blown away by the history of the Catholic faith.  The bible, the apostles, the saints, the martyrs, the angels, the love of Christ living inside of you has a great gift he wants for you to receive. They say that the Catholic faith has to be caught and not taught, I agree.  I caught it in my great grandmother.  I have spoken about her in my podcast.  What made her stand out, the fact that when ever I saw her, she was in deep prayer.  At home, at church, her devoutness to God was real.  I was drawn to my great grandmothers love for God.  That example was shown to me as a child.  That example became the seed that took root in my being and my personality reflected it.  I was serious about myself in being in Christ.  And because of that I was not allowed to follow the path of others, oh no, I was drawn to cutting a path all of my own.  And no matter what the outcome, I was trusting that in the end it would lead me to Jesus.  And sure enough it did.  There is a cost when we mis-use the gift of free will given to us.  We can either live a true life in Christ Jesus, or we can live an artificial life in ourself and in others, and die an empty shallow lonely death.   Or we can choose a life in Christ that is real, definitive, and completely entrenched in the gospel bringing life to others in truth and in love for Jesus.  Obviously we have an important decision to make and if we take it to heart, we act upon it and not waste the grace God is wanting us to receive.  There have been and always will be souls that have never looked at faith as a priority in their life, and being faithless, all the riches of heaven are lost because they chose to live outside of God's laws.  But when we are living inside of his law, we learn to develop skills that over time become perfected through God.  And we are able to see his fruitfulness in our very lives, each and every day through our engagement in prayerful dialogue, our heart, our mind, our soul, connects with Jesus and we are one in Him. Dynamic in Him.  Rediscovering who we really are in His love for us.  It's a beautiful intimate relationship feeding us the spiritual food that is necessary for us to live purposeful, joyful, lives in union with Him, in order to receive the grace of his company accompanying us through life on earth to life in eternity.  Preparation is necessary.  Our cooperation is necessary.  We open up our hearts and the truest desire can flow and we can experience the truest life meant for every Catholic Christian.  More energy is given to a faith filled devout Catholic who says yes to Jesus and Mary.  With that energy is Joy, and joy can be felt and experienced every single day you choose to live a divine life in Jesus.  More happiness comes natural to the converted believer who abandons the ways of the world, receives the power of Christ! 

Saint Patrick's Special Feast Day.  An Italian Saint who converted men/women of Ireland in becoming Catholic.  Fortunately a remenent of authentic Irish priests actual desendents of Ireland have devoted their entire lives in serving God with their very lives by preparing/nurturing the very souls of men and women interested/commited to engaging in the Catholic faith!  Their  interest, their commitment, is in fact, a life long journey, to growing in Christ for all eternity.  I am so indebted to my pastor Father Patrick.  He has been an amazing shepherd, who has counseled me in confession, and has spiritually guided and directed me, during the last decade.  He has gently/humbly encouraged me in my faith walk to have a sense of humor especially during crisis.  He has helped me to look at life through the lens of Christ and Mary, instead of through a selfish lens which always leads to a blury truth totally out of context.   I am very honored to share with all of my podcast followers this evening this beautiful  Rosary Novena To Our Lady. Why, because, all of us were meant to be holy.  All of us, were meant to be with God forever, for all eternity.  Tonight I am guided by  Charles V. Lacey and Rev. Raymond P. Lawrence and I believe who ever is being invited and drawn to pray these novena's are being directly guided by our Lady.   Tonight is a great night to begin your first rosary.  Because Holy Mother Mary wants her children to experience her graces to the fullest.  We are all her children, and she is uniting us for an eternal cause, that needs to begin here on earth.  In order for us to invite Mary more deeply into our lives, there is no better way to reach her than through praying the Holy Rosary.  Mary our Mother, wants the very best for us.  We get to experience her grace on a personal and private level through our devotion to her leading us directly to her son.  It is a beautiful ritual to get into.  Once we begin to pray the rosary, we see more clearly what God wants for us, we can still see what we want, but in that same lens we become more aware of Christs vision for us moving us forward yet, in a new and different direction that is His, and we find ourselves desiring to follow in his path, and a newfound life begins again in us because we choose Him.  Life can and does have greater meaning than the opinions we have about ourself, or religion.  We have to set aside our thoughts, and enter into the thoughts of Christ through prayer.  And the repetition of the rosary is a great starting point.  The rosary strips away from us all that is not bearing perfect fruit in our lives.  The rosary redirects our focus on the truth, the truth in being a child of Christ Jesus.  When we grasp this reality, the underlining cause and effect of prayer begins to take root in us.  And the process of prayer forms within us and our hearts, our minds, are totally in focus with Christ.  He wants to guide us and bring us to complete spiritual perfection.  In order to get there it requires time set aside daily with Christ.  It requires great sacrifice on our part in order for Christ to deliver his message. We can find him in the silence of an Adoration Chapel by setting aside one hour/week, and begin praying your 1st rosary there.  Meditate upon each Hail Mary, leaving a rose at the feet of our Holy Mother Mary.  We have this unbelievable opportunity to grow in the love that comes directly from our Mother.  To call upon her through an entire rosary is a great way of getting to know her and acquaint yourself with her holy nature.  If you are lost and are seeking the truth begin here.  Mother Mary will be very kind,  patient, loving, understanding the pain of all her children in need of her maternal love!          

In the book of Luke we are reminded "Every kingdom divided against itself will be laid waste and house will fall against house.  Whoever is not with me is against me, and whoever does not gather with me scatters." Just reading scripture from the bible in this case, magnificat, is alarming!  We hear the words and yet we go against what our Lord is telling us.  Why is it we choose not to obey God's laws leading us down the path of destruction?  Jesus is giving us a free warning and yet we do not take it seriously.  We choose the path of great suffering, and sadly allow our choices to chip away at the beautiful life God is directing us towards.  He lays it out simply and we make it a complication that drags on indefintely.  Thank God as Catholics we have the greatest Sacrament ever!!!  The Sacrament of Reconciliation.  It is where we visit with a priest and confess our wrong doings.  Asking God for his forgiveness and healing of our disorderly passions.  Just this week I learned an invaluable lesson about myself, totally unintended.  I was drawn to pray a nine day Novena to Saint Jude.  My intentions were for my family and friends who have walked away from the Catholic Teachings, that they would desire a deep conversion, and return to practicing and living out their Catholic faith, taught to them in their youth.  Well I was quite surprised by the outcome.  Of course I had another intention, and God allowed me to see his blessing upon the health of a dear friend improving after a very serious surgery.  My pastor mentioned that when we want to ask God for something, we have to ask Him without an inkling of doubt and it will be granted.  Little did I know when I had asked God through Padre Pio for this intention, it ended up being a blessing in my life, to arrive at the most gut level and degree of honesty, and that was a tremendous hurdle in my life.  You can carry within you anger for so long, you dont see it, but it comes out in the way you treat other people.  I had to own it.  And I did.  Acknowledging our wrong doing, is the first step in overcoming our weaknesses.  We are an imperfect people, but God and only God can make us perfect!  So because I am in Christ, I have to reconcile all of my differences within myself and within all of my relationships, as do you.  If the hurt goes way back, it is much more difficult to see and work through.  Triggers, muscle memory, causing hypersensitivity, and all those hurts can only begin to heal through Christ.  Prayer.  Fasting.  Confession.  Spending a holy hour in adoration.  Scheduling an appointment with your priest asking for spiritual direction. Reciting the divine office, will bring to the surface all those details in your life left undone.  Holy Mother Mary, Undoer Of Knots, will assist you.  Your patron saint can be called upon and reciting prayers to that saint, along with your guardian angel, you have alot of interesting avenues you can take to help you.  I once read that every saint you pray to, ask for their intercession, they will be present on the day of your death when Jesus comes for you.  Studying the lives of the saints are comforting to the soul, because they have already made their contributions to the faith, and have received their eternal reward.  We now have our chance before we die, to do the same.  To share with the world our relationship with Jesus Christ living in us through the Catholic Faith.  Drawing us closer every day to Him, in this life, as we transition into eternal life.  The steps we were inspired to take and share with the world will be our testimony, our contribution, adding to the mosaic of the women at the well, the twelve apostles, all the saints, and every man and woman of the cloth yet to be revealed!