Do we not even realize that we, us, busy people, are very much a people, longing deeply for our Lord. Whether we realize it or not we most certainly are, because we are a people of God. Because HE created us and we are HIS creation, we are longing for the holiness that lives deep within our Lord. So we go on living, searching and never finding, exactly who it is that we are trying to find when it is our Lord who gave us an abundance of beauty, everywhere. This beauty can be seen not touched creates in us I think a lot of confusion. God spoiled us greatly, whether it was deliberate or not, with too many gifts that we lose ourselves in them and forget HIM. Yes, it is that simple truth written here for us to be reminded of, we long for our Lord beyond our discoveries, beyond our desires, beyond our selves. Sometimes do you ever get sick and tired of being sick and tired? We are so consumed in material things we forget about the spiritual gifts of God. I long to know the very next part of my life with God, so that I can immerse myself in Him to the fullest degree imaginable. I truly and whole heartedly believe God wants this too. After all I am my Father's daughter, and He has great plans for me. And I have rediscovered Him in me as I pilgrimage toward Him the next however many or less years He wants to grant to me. I first longed for Jesus when I began to see what I personally created within the failures, mistakes, and sorrows of my life. I found my Lord, as I knelt on my knees in the church of Saint Andrew's, in tears, begging God to change me. It was 1987, I experienced a breakup in a 7 year relationship that destroyed my hope and zest for life, and I wasn't able to overcome that battle of pain on my own, until I ran to the loving arms of my Lord. In 2019 I was still carrying with me the bag of failures that consumed me to the point where God impregnated me through the power of the holy spirit to put together a retreat for the Franciscan fraternity that ended up being a retreat to heal my soul some 32 years later. I was sick within and only my Lord could heal me. And He did so that my life can go on to do greater things in HIM, and not waste the great life my mom and my dad in heaven gave me. And in moving forward I realize the importance of staying close to God all the days of my life, because with Him, we are a new creation. In HIM, everything great is possible, and without Him everything is lost, and God doesn't make junk, God makes the best in you and in me, and it is up to us to realize this truth and to live in it abundantly, and not live in the darkness that sin has over us when we fail in doing God's will. Our desires will fail us if we traverse along the way without God as our compass. He has the key we are searching for, it is the key to life. A life full of riches that the world can never give us. A world that does not deceive, a spiritual realm and world that empowers us, from deep within, with the knowledge, and the love, and the guidance, that brings hope and joy and freedom of every good kind. Gratefully with God we move on, we move forward, we cling to the future, not the past, we live for today secured in God and no other. There is no confusion in God, only security, in knowing He will always love us, beyond any love, our minds can comprehend. And that love will never die. Instead it will empower every person seeking the happiest and most fulfilled life imaginable, and it can only be given to us completely through God. How happy I am today to be enriched by the truth and the power of being a great woman of faith, where my faith saved me from death, by dying to my own sinful nature, freed me forever.