Derek Newborn had always had a vision of how his life would be. He achieved everything he thought he wanted but, on the inside, abandonment issues from his past meant he felt extremely empty. The only thing he was concerned about was filling the emptiness he felt. and he used self-sabotaging behaviours to try to find the peaceful feeling he felt he was missing. Derek's fear outweighed any love he had for his family and partner and he was just focused on not being abandoned. The abandonment process though actually pushes people away so through his self sabotaging behaviours, Derek created everything to was trying to avoid.