I don't really remember what I felt when all the flights got canceled.
I think that's a sort of way of coping with trauma and to me, it feels like Covid never happened. I forgot all the feelings. Like a huge black hole.
I talked about it and other people share the same. Anyway, let's go back once again to April 2020.
I had a salary that for my life standards and expectations at that time was pretty good. I was making around 1800€-1900€ net. I rarely drank alcohol, I've never smoked, I rarely ate out, I barely did anything besides working, no gym subscriptions… nothing (but Persian classes). Even before the lockdown.
When the lockdown came, my life got even more "Calvinist". I was looking at my bank account regularly and seeing with pleasure that there was plenty of money I had no way to spend. After all, yes, I went to Law School, but it was actually a branch of a business school and along with the family environment I was raised in, the idea of using money meaningfully was luckily quite natural.