Seeking worldly validation will always always always steer you wrong. When we seek first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, as is written in Matthew 6:33, we are led on the straight and narrow, and are being blessed with all the things that He desires for us which are things greater than we could ever have imagined because we are seeking to please the Lord, and to know Him as personal could ever get in this life. I love you & Jesus loves you way more!