This is the most honest thing I’ve shared about forgiveness.For a long time, I didn’t understand why killing was considered a sin.

Not from the Buddha, not from Christian theology. After recovering memories of sodomy from my perpetrator in 2022, I felt deeply justified in wanting to kill him. I even researched how. I made soul agreements with parts of me that were in agony. I thought I was bringing karmic judgment — cleanly.

And then, I met Jesus. Not the idea of him — the presence. In the depths of my agony, I felt him suffering with me. Not witnessing, but feeling it. And suddenly, I understood what it meant that he died for our sins. My pain was inside his pain. And so was my perpetrator’s.

This video is for anyone struggling with revenge, with justice, with the unbearable weight of pain that hasn’t been answered. I don’t have all the answers. But I’ve felt enough to know that Christ’s death changed the game. And his forgiveness — it includes them too.

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