This episode explores the season when prayer stopped bringing comfort to me not because I stopped trying, but because I was praying harder than ever and felt nothing change. I talk about moving from gratitude to desperation, the emotional fog of that time, and the grief of losing a spiritual lifeline. If you’ve ever prayed and felt silence instead of peace, you’re not alone.

I explore how religious messaging and past experiences shaped my nervous system in ways I didn’t understand at the time. When you’ve been taught that relationships are fragile, conditional, or spiritually “doomed,” fear can start to feel like wisdom — and anxiety can masquerade as intuition.

In this episode, I talk about what I thought love was when I was young, deeply religious, and trying to be a “good” partner and how that shaped the red flags I didn’t recognize at the time.

In this episode, I talk more about something I mentioned last time ; getting married as a teenager. I share what I was thinking back then, what I didn’t understand yet, and how that experience shaped who I am now. It’s a mix of hindsight, hard truths, and the lessons that only time can teach.

In the first episode of Divorced & Disillusioned, I share the story of getting married young inside the church, the abuse I didn’t yet have language for, and how my second divorce led to a deeper unraveling of my faith. This isn’t about rebellion — it’s about praying for relief in the darkest moments and being met with silence. If you’re navigating divorce, faith shifts, or rebuilding your identity from scratch, you’re not alone!