Divorced and Disillusioned

In this episode, I explore the feeling of wanting to “go home” when there is nowhere specific to return to. We talk about belonging, peace, longing, identity, and the possibility that what many of us are searching for isn’t a destination at all.

In this episode, I talk about religious conditioning, self-trust, and how being told you’re born broken can shape the way you move through the world. This isn’t really a story about losing faith. It’s a story about learning to believe in myself.

I think people would be surprised by how often I cry considering how functional I seem publicly.

This episode is about private grief, public performance, loneliness, divorce, missing lives you chose to leave, and the strange reality that you can know something was necessary while still mourning it deeply.

I think there comes a point where survival stops being something you’re doing… and quietly becomes who you are.

This episode is about chaos, emotional survival, nervous systems, and the strange discomfort of finally trying to live in peace after spending years just trying to endure.

Sometimes going no contact doesn’t just mean losing one person.

It means losing families, friendships, routines, shared history, and entire versions of yourself in the process.

This episode is about the grief, guilt, loneliness, and clarity that can come with finally choosing distance.

How many times do you start over?

This episode is about dating after divorce, carrying grief and history into new connections, and the strange space between wanting love and fearing it at the same time.

It’s not always a sudden ending.

Sometimes it’s the quiet realization that nothing is actually going to change.

Connection isn’t built on a calendar—it’s built on intensity.

If you’re talking every day, opening up, sharing parts of yourself, feeling seen… your brain starts bonding. Fast.

So when it ends, your body doesn’t go, “oh, that was short.”

It goes, “I lost something that mattered.”

What does it actually mean to choose someone?

In this episode, I talk about the difference between feeling love and choosing it and where that line gets blurry when you’re lonely, even in a relationship.

In this episode, I talk about what happens when faith starts to feel more like performance than something real and the quiet shift that comes with noticing it.

I also read a Hold This letter from someone who shares moments that changed them.