Dutch is at his desk paying bills when a line from the Alchemy of Me YouTube channel’s Money Affirmations for Rewriting Scarcity, Lack and Limitation stops him — Money, I call you my partner because you are woven into the rhythm of my life.

That line opens a question about the quality of his relationship with money.

Dutch has always known money as a partner that leaves. A relationship forged from the wound of absence. Built from inside scarcity the system created and maintained.

In this episode Dutch sits with and explores what has shaped his relationship with money — and what might change it.

Have you ever found yourself measuring what was left instead of enjoying what was still there?

Dutch finds himself wondering where this focus on scarcity comes from. What causes him to see this way. To move through life always oriented toward what is depleting, what is absent, what could be lost.

Before we can change our relationship with money, we must understand how our attention was trained.

In this episode, Dutch explores the connection between scarcity, negativity bias, inherited sayings, financial stress, and the nervous system. Through a simple morning ritual and a cup of lavender tea, he begins to uncover how attention becomes organized around deficit—and wonders whether there might be another way.

This episode follows Dutch as he traces his fear of money back to where it came from — the sayings that sounded like wisdom, the systems that engineered the gap and blamed the person standing in it, the spiritual teachings that handed the verdict back dressed in different language. And then Dutch does something he has never done before — he authors his own relationship with money on his own terms.

Have you ever moved through a whole day with money and called it a good day — even when the bills were still on the table?

This episode is that day.

Dutch had been thinking about his relationship with money — and what it would look like to build a different one. This is the story of one ordinary day where he tends to that relationship — from the first greeting before he gets out of bed, through two unexpected bills arriving in the mail, to money leaving, money arriving, and the words he reached for in each moment.

Dutch lay in a hammock one warm afternoon, feeling the money flow in — and feeling the fear arrive with it. He rocked with that. And what the hammock showed him changed something.

Dutch was making a collage when he noticed something.

The pieces didn't lose what they were in order to belong.

And he found himself thinking — that was not what he had been taught about growth.

This week Dutch is sitting with his oracle card reading and reflecting on what systems teach about evolution, about assimilation, about perfectionism — and about the grey that the binary was always trying to eliminate.

Have you ever done the work—planted,tended,waited—

and still found yourselfstanding between the plantingand the harvest?

This episode is for that in-between.

Dutch sat down to revise his affirmations. The words were ones he had chosen. Words he believed in. But when he read them aloud, his body had a different response than he expected it to.

This is the story of what Dutch began to understand when he stopped trying to override his nervous system — and started listening to it instead.

In this episode, Dutch begins to examine the posture his affirmations carry — and whether the grammar of his own practice had been quietly replicating the same hierarchy he had been finding in systems.

This is the story of what happened when he looked through the glass at himself — and saw what he did not know was hiding in plain sight.