My guest is Tracy Nelson, a medical assistant who has been on the front lines of COVID. She is a mom and empty nester in a new chapter of her life. Tracey talks about her past history of abuse, how she has changed her parenting style since healing and how she dealt with the trauma of losing her youngest child.

Told to Keep Her Childhood Abuse a Secret

As a young child, her abuse started with her father. When she told her mother what had happened, her mother told her not to say anything and keep it a secret. Finally, however, she did report the abuse, and her father only received a year of mandated counseling.

Being in and out of rehab from suicide attempts and eating disorders, Tracey wasn’t able to deal with the trauma and lack of consequence her father received for abusing her so severely. Then, at the age of 18, he abused her again. She moved out of her home and, at 24, realized she was pregnant. “My son saved my life,” she says, as she was drinking and doing drugs at the time. Her pregnancy gave her the chance to turn around her life.

How Her Dad Shows Love

Her father, when confronted with the sexual abuse, says that’s just how he shows love. So she sent a letter to her stepmom telling her of the sexual abuse she endured with her dad when her stepmom was pregnant with their daughter. The only response she received was a note from her bishop that she should forgive her father and move on.

Flipping the Relationship Switch before Marriage

Her second husband was emotionally abusive to their family pet, the children, and to Tracey. “He would be really threatening and we would all walk on eggshells.” Most of their children don’t have a relationship with their dad now, but they are very close to Tracey.

Listen in to find out how Tracey succeeded in finding a trustworthy relationship, what modalities Tracey is using to heal, and how she uses Shadowwork to heal her emotional hurt.

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