Inside the library, the air points down. It keeps the cool in and the humidity out, and I feel my shoulders soften as soon as I step inside, like my body has been waiting for permission to stop negotiating.
It’s Brisbane in high summer, when the heat presses close and the river moves at pace. The State Library sits right on the edge of it all, cool, public, free, a place where people read, think, wait, and mostly leave each other alone in the best possible way. I like that about it… I like places that don’t ask for a performance.
Outside is different.
The subtropical air comes at me from the side and interrupts my breathing halfway through an inhale, sounds travel further than they should and shade stops being decorative and starts being persuasive. Somewhere along the walk, my shoulders drop.
The river appears before I’m quite ready for it, opening the space up and changing the scale of things. Boats slide past and the wind pushes and releases in a rhythm I don’t control, tugging at fabric and then letting go, over and over again.
Across the water, the city stacks itself into order, offices, courts, apartments, traffic, all movement and structure, the people inside too far away to see. From here, it’s just systems doing what systems do. Nothing pauses.
Eventually, the pull turns me back toward the library, toward the cool air and the shared quiet, toward people reading books and lifting chairs so they don’t scrape, toward a place where nothing argues back and attention can rest for a while.
For a bit, it’s good to be held there, between inside and outside. Thanks for drifting with me. Lyss x
Note > This season and episode were produced from within the Queensland Writers Centre at the Queensland State Library, as part of the Fishbowl Writers Residency. My sincere gratitude.
What’s your version of library slow, and how often do you actually let yourself keep it?
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