Welcome to this week's rant-tastic fantastic DWQ podcast episode! The big question is: WHY??? I don't understand the crazies but I'm tired of them finding me and attaching themselves to my life. I'm done.

The kingdom of darkness mocks us when we walk around in life simply existing, doubting our God-give greatness. It is a matter of perspective and the decision to win that yield supreme satisfaction. You can only pretend not to mourn the death of your dreams for so long. Thank God that His truth in us will not be silent. This episode of the podcast is your encouragement to live a victorious, fulfilled life, surrendered to God.

Join me on the journey of transparency. In this episode I am working through my thoughts on transparency. I am working on being more and more diligent to be transparent and find others who are brave enough to discover what is in the room of Truth and deliverance for their lives.

After all is said and done -- where your insecurities, other's negativity and the lies of the enemy have spoken -- is where truth can shine the brightest. It's easier to spot a lie when you know the the truth. So may we go to God in our doubts and questioning. May we trust what His Word says above all opinions. May we all be free in who God says we are and not let any contrary comments or thoughts lead us away from Truth. We will fulfill the call of God on our lives because we won't give in to doubt.

What does it look like for you to truly believe in yourself? Have you buried your dreams deep beneath disappointments, fears... discouragement? I've been guilty of doing so. But as of late, I've been more intentional to believe again and encourage others to do the same. I will not stand by and watch my dreams perish nor will I stand by and watch it happen to anyone else. Keep believing in the goodness and intentionality of God in you, friends. Be willing to go all in and bet the farm on yourself if God gives you peace to make leaps of faith.

Despite all the fun background sounds in this episode, I pray you are blessed by what I share. Have you ever been in a situation where someone offends you or hurts your feelings and without blinking you return the same behavior back on them? Yea, that used to be me. Before Christ, I would give into my feelings and be led by them. Now I'm led by Holy Spirit. I still have to resist the urge to destroy others when I feel hurt, but I Can resist the urge...it is a daily choice. Vengeance has always been the Lord's so now I pray and give it over to Him. This choice of peace, love and surrender has freed me from a lot of stress and meltdowns. May you walk in peace friends. You may look crazy to other people but God's peace surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7).

When you break up with a friend, significant other, job -- whatever kind of relationship -- moving forward and into new relationships can be scary. You may be scared you'll find yourself hurt again or worse off than last time but you can choose not to allow the past to keep you from your bright future. I'm pushing thru these feelings myself and choosing to trust God that THE BEST IS YET TO COME. If you're still alive and there are people all around you, pray for God to lead you to the right relationships and LIVE a full life. YOU are allowed to be happy again. *Please excuse the noisy wind thru the mountains, it doesn't last the entire episode.

This episode marks the ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY of the DWQ podcast! All glory to God for the faithfulness required to keep showing up and sharing my heart. Hopefully along the way, you have been empowered and blessed to live your life to the fullest. This episode is another, not so glamourous recording of me fighting thru every negative thought, word and attack to keep loving God with my all and my neighbor as I love myself. Love (God) will always win in our lives if we yield to it/Him.

Warning: I get a little loud and mouthy on this episode but it was so necessary. If you need to turn down the volume, I understand, but please hear me out. This season has not been an easy one. With all the doubt and fear threatening me with negative thinking, I had to get loud by faith and speak truth over every lie spoken against me. May you be intentional to do the same. Every thought that comes to mind does not necessarily come from a good place. Know the source of the thoughts/suggestions and only speak what God says about you. And if you're going thru a difficult time: grow thru as you go thru, friends. Be well.

Self-sabotage. Man, I'm so frustrated yet encouraged thru today's experience. It took a lot of courage for me to keep going and not give up despite my mistakes. Therefore, I am so proud of myself. Tho scenarios will not always play out as we hoped, our heart must remain pure towards God. We must choose to trust His love for us despite the ways we may repeatedly disappointment ourselves. If you can relate, forgive yourself and move forward friends.