enter if you dare. i also didn’t realize that little reverse sound effect would be so loud so sorry in advance for the production/listening experience but anywho. lately i’ve been re-listening to Atomic Habits by James Clear and been thinking about how often i neglect my own systems and focus on critiquing the systems of others (yeah, i know. i’m working on it) + a bonus part 2 after i chicken out of going full sherlock holmes on the mysterious noise in another room. yeah girl idk. love you byeeee

i was chaotically drawing on IG live today (check it out and follow @officialshmay on the gram ma’am) and talked about what im noticing is necessary for my progress, prioritizing space and time for step 1 (and sometimes step zeroooo)

a chaos filled car ride to a semi clear destination

youre not “wrong” about your experience but you’re not as good at predicting the future as you may think you are (note to self)

my misconception and cowardice exposed and plus also i have a yucky outtake that i share with you. enjoy. be good. bye bye.

there are surface filters (instagram filters, LUTs and presets), experiential filters (substances, ego, content, proximity, environment), and underneath everything there are core filters (the code and operating systems installed and hacked into over time, the machine behind everything, the beliefs that hold your reality in place).

from this side of the coin, i present: a true shmay babble, mania flavored trip down dropout philosophy lane. dumpster fires, unreasonable metaphors, snacks and curse words brought to you by me and generous viewers like u. thank u

a sleepy girl ramble/suggestion about refreshing your conscientious list of “what matters to me?”

ai art is garbage

i can’t remember what this one is about but its a draft so here u are