YXNG ANXIETY coming soon

YXNG ANXIETY coming out soon.

My heart goes out to all the weddings that have had to change their plans this summer of 2020 due to COVID-19. This is a song I wrote for my friends Camille and Brendan for their wedding! It was a labour of love to write and produce using a mix of analog, orchestral and midi instruments.

Wrote this about a year ago and found so much joy and catharsis in writing it. The internet is a funny place, and I won't lie that seeing a song I wrote having lots of streams or comments makes me feel good. That being said, I wrote this at a time when music was giving me lots of praise, but that wasn't matching up to how I was feeling. It's been sitting on my computer as a demo for so long, and I may yet make another produced version of it someday, but I decided today to share it with the world on a whim right now, cos I really like it. Have a dance.

Here are the lyrics too:

I've been thinking binary

I've been thinking stay or leave

Get back together or peace

Stable as a slow disease

Stable like I'm on my knees

But you could care less about me

You could have me any of the week and you can see it

Let's stop playing hide and seek,

Let's start seeking strategy

Cos baby you consume my thoughts

I let you eat them all up

Only give you all I've got

But you want everything I'm not

Baby you consume my thoughts

I let you eat them all up

Only give you all I've got

You want everything I'm not

Ooooh

Million hits couldn't fill this mood

Only one I want is you

Ooooh

Million hits couldn't fill this mood

Only one I want is you

You only stay true

Cos you don't say much at all do you?

When there's nothing - zero cues

How can I argue?

You do you and I'll

Do myself when you're too busy to

Another planet of people could

Maybe be listening, or

Maybe even think I'm good

But baby you consume my thoughts

I let you eat them all up

You want everything I'm not

Only give you all I've got

Ooooh

Million hits couldn't fill this mood

Only one I want is you

Ooooh

Million hits couldn't fill this mood

Only one I want is you

Ooooh

Million hits couldn't fill this mood

Only one I want is you

My single "Sorry Last Christmas (I Didn't Give a Damn) is here because I love my family and you and I hope you have a very lovely transition to this oncoming decade of the new 20s!

Started this a few hours ago. Didn't take much time. Here we go. Lyrics:

i miss waking up to you

even though i never

had the chance really to wake up to you

every day

i miss looking up to you

oh i’m still looking up

to you, even though we’re not talking much and

you’re far away

had this thought this morning you might

find it kinda boring cos to

you it’s so obvious to see

that maybe this whole thing is in doubt and

drugs or partying aren’t what it's about

it’s what it does for me

but if i don’t finish this one this time

i won’t live another day you outta my mind

i still might not live another day you out of my mind

but i know it’s something you’d find

worth the time

even when it hurts sometimes

worth the time

even when it hurts sometimes

pipe dreams won’t find the answer

but i trust it’s in the pipeline

cos it's worth the time

i let my coffee get cold cos i chat

shit most of the time - and he never calls me on that

easier to speculate

than to look it in the face

easier to speculate

than to look at such a disgrace

i've done a lot of thinking

it’s just put me in a prison

i've done time for my plans

all i ever wanted was to be in your hands

but if i don’t finish this one this time

i won’t live another day you outta my mind

i still might not live another day you out of my mind

but i know it’s something you’d find

worth the time

even when it hurts sometimes

worth the time

even when it hurts sometimes

pipe dreams won’t find the answer

but i trust it’s in the pipeline

worth the time [repeat]

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