If you’ve ever felt like something was just... off, but you couldn’t put your finger on it, this one is for you.
In this episode, I’m sharing something I’ve been sitting with since September 2025 — my late ADHD diagnosis. Five months in, and I’m still processing what it means, what it explains, and honestly, what it costs emotionally to get here.
I’ve been open about my anxiety and depression diagnoses since 2019, and what I didn’t know then was how much those symptoms were overlapping with something that had been there the whole time. This episode is me unpacking all of it — how a TikTok rabbit hole led me to a psychiatrist, what the psychological evaluation actually looked like, and why finding out I have inattentive type ADHD felt equal parts validating and overwhelming.
I also get into the part nobody really talks about — what happens after the diagnosis. The medication process was its own battle. Insurance denials, weekly back and forth at the pharmacy, feeling like I was the only one actually invested in getting myself treated. I eventually had to advocate hard for myself, switch providers, and start over. Three weeks into a new medication now and still figuring it out.
But more than anything, this episode is about the grace that comes with finally having a name for something. My brain isn’t broken. It’s just wired differently. And I’m learning to embrace that, feed it, and make it feel safe — without letting it become my whole identity.
Come for the confessions. Stay for the chaos.
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