Let's be honest ... when we really want something it can be so hard to hold onto to the vision of our desires when the world as we experience it, with our 5 senses, is showing us the opposite.  But, these desires are always there for a reason.  What you desire is your truth and authenticity trying to come out! Focus on the feeling that you want to have and allow yourself to grow and learn from the things that aren't bringing you that feeling.  When you focus on what you DO want and allow it to exist in your imagination, then it's already yours.  And letting that imagination live without limits will bring you that much closer to your desire showing up in the real world.