I see why some profiles attracted me, to confirm negative stories about me. And if my subconscious mind is leading me to confirm negative stories than why do I project a hope? 

My spread- card reading and chakra mistake my solar plexis  is blocked not sacral as that is very open almost always ;) State of false sense of control, letting go, face denial and sort what baggage I continue to bring to the table.

ASMR style

Talk of an "800" number and going back to fantasy writings and reading.

Temperature of this episode: solitary confinement with a thermal throw set to low and some deep sleep